“I didn’t do it.’
I look into his eyes. There is sorrow there, I recognise it and I feel it, and though he doesn’t know it, that sorrow is a bond between us. He isn’t acting. His pain is real. Real enough that if I put him in the room with the man who killed Rachel, he would become a completely new man. He would cross a path that he could not turn back from, and it wouldn’t bother him. He’d cross it again and again if he could.
“I know.’
‘And that Harry dude, what happened to him?’
‘Henry Martins. We’re not sure exactly. Look, David, don’t try to get back to sleep. The cops are going to be here soon. Just tell them what you know’
‘You’re not a cop?’
I hand him my card and take the ring back off him. “I used to be, but that was a long time ago.’
chapter sixteen
There are no police cars parked outside the Tyler house. They’ve either been and gone or are on their way. There is, though, a car parked up the driveway that wasn’t there last night. Probably the husband. He’d have got the call seconds after I left last night, and rushed home. He didn’t put the car away. Didn’t get up this morning to go and move it. He’s waiting inside with his wife, waiting for the news. Waiting to hear about his dead daughter.
I check my phone. It has one bar of battery life, three bars of signal, but it still hasn’t been connected to the network.
The door is opened before I get to it. Patricia Tyler’s wearing the same clothes she had on yesterday. She probably slept in them.
Or hasn’t slept at all.
‘Something’s happening, isn’t it,’ she says.
‘Yes.’
‘We’re finding out today, aren’t we?’
‘Yes.’
‘Did you know yesterday? When you came to my house, when I let you inside. Did you know my daughter was dead?’
“I suspected.’
‘Yet you said nothing.’
‘I’m sorry’
‘You’re sorry’ she says, and her voice is calm and even, tired sounding. ‘They called fifteen minutes ago. They didn’t say anything, but I could tell. They’re on their way to speak to us.’
There is nothing I can say to make her feel any better, so I say nothing. I wait her out, knowing she hasn’t finished.
‘You’re sorry, yet you came in anyway. You made me believe there was a chance my daughter was still alive.’
I didn’t make her believe anything. I could have shown up with her daughter’s hand in a plastic bag along with the ring and she’d still have held out hope. I think she’s still holding out for it now.
‘Can I come in?’
“I don’t think so.’
A man killed himself in my office,’ I say. ‘It was last night. He put a gun to his head and told me he had nothing to do with what happened to Rachel, and then he pulled the trigger.’
She doesn’t look shocked. Doesn’t look satisfied. She just looks tired, as if anything and everything is too much for her now. ‘I saw you on the news,’ she says. ‘It didn’t make you look good. Do you think he killed Rachel?’
‘He might’ve been lying. You can never have justice for what happened, but this is as close to it as you can get. But if he was telling the truth, then there is still somebody out there who has to pay. That’s why I’m here. For Rachel’s sake.’
‘For Rachel’s sake,’ she repeats, and there is no inflection in her voice, and I can’t get a read on her reason for repeating it. ‘That reporter,’ she goes on. ‘She said your daughter was killed. So you know. And maybe that pain we share will take you further than the police. Maybe it will make you fight harder for Rachel.’
She leads me through to the lounge. Her husband, an overweight guy with grey hair and dark shadows beneath his eyes, stands up from the couch, seems about to shake my hand, then pulls it back as if the contact will taint the news he’s about to get.
‘Were you the one who found her?’ he asks.
‘Yes.’
How…’ He looks down, studies the carpet for a few moments as if it’s going to save him from something, then carries on without looking back up. ‘How’d she look?’
It’s the same question the boyfriend asked. They want to hear that she looked at peace, that she still looked good for a girl who was murdered two years ago. Only she didn’t look good. She looked like she died hard.
‘Like she was asleep,’ I say, hoping they’ll believe the lie, hoping that when they plead with the detectives to see her body they won’t be allowed to.
‘It’s hard to believe she’s really dead,’ he says, looking back up. His face is rigid, void of hope. Except for his eyes. His eyes are haunting. I have to look away. ‘It ought to be easier,’ he adds.
‘You’d think two years would have prepared us for this.’