“Honored One . . . we’ve spent so much time preparing for this, searching for this place. Our people fear it as a citadel of evil. We can’t just walk away.”
Saint John said, “That is exactly what we will do. We will leave this place of evil to Mother Rose.”
“But—”
The saint turned and looked toward the northwest. “I feel that we are called elsewhere, Peter. I feel that call with all my heart and soul.”
“California? Those nine towns?”
“Those nine towns.”
“May I ask why?”
“Mother Rose will attack Sanctuary. The ranger, Joe, may warn Sanctuary before she does so. We will watch what happens. If Mother Rose takes it, then we will come back and take it from her. She is not as wise a general as she believes.”
“And if Sanctuary defeats her?”
“You can learn much about an enemy when you watch him win. We will watch and learn . . . and plan. Either way, Sanctuary will wait for us.”
65
“SO . . . THAT’S IT?” ASKED CHONG IN A HOLLOW VOICE. “I JUST DIE? I become a zom?”
His eyes burned with tears, but the rest of him felt cold.
Riot sat with her back to the wall. “I don’t . . . ” She let it trail off and merely shook her head.
“No, damn it,” protested Chong. “That’s not how this works.”
His statement made no sense, and he knew it. But what else could he say? The arrow had gone all the way through him, pushing the infected matter deep into his flesh, into his bloodstream. The sickness was already at work within him. His skin was cool and clammy to the touch and yet sweat poured down his face. In his chest, his heart was beating with all the urgent frenzy of a trapped rabbit.
He was infected.
He was dying.
He was, by any standard of life here in the Rot and Ruin, already dead.
It was too real, too big, too wrong.
“No,” Chong said again.
Riot sniffed back some tears. “I’m sorry.”
She got up and walked to the open doorway of the old shack and stood there, staring silently out at the desert, fists balled tightly at her sides.
Chong turned away and put his face in his hands. Even when the first sob broke in his chest, the arrow wounds, which should have screamed with pain, merely ached. Even his pain was dying.
Sorry.
So small a word for so enormous a thing.
Lilah.
He cried out her name in his mind, and he saw her, standing tall and beautiful, leaning on her spear, her honey-colored eyes always aware. If she saw him right here and now, would she even wait before quieting him? Would her feelings for him make her pause even for a second before she drove her spear into the back of his neck? Would she grieve afterward? Would the unsurprising death of a clumsy town boy break her heart, or merely add another layer of callus to it?
I’m so sorry, he thought. Oh, Lilah, I’m so sorry.
He squeezed his eyes shut in pain that was deeper than his physical wounds. He thought about his parents. The last time they’d seen him, he was heading out with Tom for a simple overnight camping trip in the Ruin. It had been allowed only because Tom and Lilah would both be there, and they were the most experienced zombie hunters anyone knew. And they’d allowed it because his folks knew that Chong needed to say good-bye to Benny and Nix. And Lilah.
I’m sorry, Mom. I’m sorry, Pop.
I’m sorry for everything.
Chong heard a small, soft sound and turned to see Eve in the middle of the room. She was pink-faced from sleep and jumpy-eyed from bad dreams and waking realities.
Chong sniffed and hastily wiped away his tears.
“Hello, sweetheart,” he said, and he even conjured a smile. “How are you?”
Eve came over and stood in front of him. The trauma of everything she’d experienced had regressed her. The child she had become was younger still, and Chong could see that so little of her was left—and that was hanging by a thread.
She reached out a finger and almost touched the burn on Chong’s stomach. The flesh around it was livid and veined with black lines.