“Mommy!”
As the Girl screams for her, something breaks through the branches. Something big.
Malorie jabs the paddle again but it only breaks the water. She grabs the Boy and Girl and pulls them close.
She hears a growl.
“Mommy!”
“Quiet!” she yells, pulling the Girl even closer.
Is it the man? Deranged? Do the creatures growl? Do they make any noise at all?
A second growl now and suddenly Malorie understands what it is. It’s doglike. Canine.
Wolves.
She doesn’t have time to coil before a wolf’s claw slashes her shoulder.
She screams. Immediately she feels the warm blood cascading the length of her arm. Cold water sloshes in the rowboat’s bottom.
Urine, too.
They smell it on us, Malorie thinks, frantic, turning her head in every direction and aimlessly wielding the paddle. They know we can’t defend ourselves.
She hears another low growling. It’s a pack. The rowboat’s tip is snagged on something. Malorie can’t find it with her paddle. But the boat swivels, as if the wolves have taken ahold of the bow.
They could jump in! THEY COULD JUMP IN! Crawl to the front of the boat. You have to set it free.
Swinging the paddle above the heads of the children, screaming, Malorie rises. The boat leans to the right. She thinks they’re going to tip. She steadies herself. The wolves snarl. Her shoulder is hot with a kind of pain she has never experienced before. Holding it, blindly, wildly, she waves a paddle at the boat’s tip. But she cannot reach it. So she steps forward.
“Mommy!”
She drops to her knees. The Boy is beside her now. He is holding on to her shirt.
“I need you to let go!” she yells.
Something jumps into the water.
Malorie turns her head toward the sound.
How shallow is it here? Can they get in the boat? Can the wolves GET IN THE BOAT??
Turning quickly, she crawls to the end of the rowboat and reaches out, into the darkness.
The children scream behind her. Water splashes. The boat rocks. Wolves bark. And in the darkness of her own closed eyes, Malorie’s hand feels a stump.
She yells as she reaches with both arms now. Her left shoulder aches. She feels the frigid October air on her shredded skin. With her second hand she feels a second stump.
We’re wedged. That’s all! We’re wedged!
As she pushes hard against the two stumps, something bangs against the boat. She can hear claws, scratching, trying to climb in.
The boat grates against the wood. Water splashes. Malorie hears it from every direction. There’s another growl, and heat, too. Something is close to her face.
She screams loudly and pushes.
Then, they are free.
Turning fast, Malorie stumbles and falls into the middle bench.
“Boy!” she screams.
“Mommy!”
Then she reaches for the Girl and finds she is pressed against the middle bench.
“Are you two all right? Speak to me!”
“I’m scared!” the Girl says.
“I’m fine, Mommy!” the Boy says.
Malorie is paddling hard. Her left shoulder, already pressed past the point of exhaustion, resists. But she forces it to work.
Malorie paddles. The children are tucked at her knees and feet. The water breaks beneath the wood. She paddles. What else can she do? What else can she do but paddle? The wolves could be coming. How shallow is the river here?
Malorie paddles. It feels like her arm is dangling from her body. But she paddles. The place she is taking the children to may no longer exist. The excruciating trip, blindly taking the river, could result in nothing. When they get there, down the river, will they be safe? What if what she’s looking for isn’t there?
seventeen
They’re scared of us,” Olympia suddenly says.
“What do you mean?” Malorie asks. The two are sitting together on the third step up the staircase.
“Our housemates. They’re scared of our bellies. And I know why. It’s because one day they’re going to have to deliver these babies.”
Malorie looks into the living room. She has been at the house for two months. She is five months pregnant. She too has thought of this. Of course she has.
“Who do you think will do it?” Olympia asks, her wide, innocent eyes trained on Malorie.
“Tom,” Malorie says.
“Okay, but I’d feel a lot better if there was a doctor in the house.”
This thought is always looming for Malorie. The inevitable day she gives birth. No doctors. No medicine. No friends or family. She tries to imagine it as a quick experience. Something that will happen fast and be over with. She pictures the moment her water breaks, then imagines holding the baby. She doesn’t want to think about what’ll happen in between.