The Disappearing Act

“Sorry, I could hear you rooting around out there.” I hear Emily’s voice before I see her and my heart leaps in my chest. “The walls are pretty thin.” She smiles as she steps forward into the light.

After everything that’s happened over the last few days, in spite of all my dark imaginings, and in spite of fearing the police were wrong, I really did expect to see the original Emily smiling back at me. But she isn’t.

This must be who the police ID’d last night, the woman who turned up at my door two nights ago. Emily’s bracelet dangles from her wrist as she leans against the door. I recall Officer Cortez’s words—if the woman they ID’d is not Emily then we’d be talking about a much bigger crime.

I realize I haven’t spoken yet and the woman’s smile wavers in the awkward silence I’ve created.

“Oh, here’s your—” I blurt, thrusting the crumpled rental document between us. She looks down at it unconcerned before carefully taking it from my hand.

“That’s great, thanks. I actually returned the car yesterday. But thanks for dropping it around,” she says.

I feel my eyebrows shoot up. “Why?”

She holds my gaze for a second and for the first time since meeting her, I get the feeling she knows I know she’s not Emily.

She gives a slow blink before speaking. “Listen, do you want to come in for a second? I could make you a coffee or something. We never did have that coffee date, did we?”

The absolute last thing in the world I want to do right now is go into the dimly lit flat with her. But I’m suddenly at a complete loss as to how to express that in a socially acceptable way. After all, she doesn’t exactly look threatening in her Lululemon yoga outfit and grippy socks. And besides, I came here for answers, didn’t I?

I pull myself up short, because no, I didn’t come here for answers. I came here to see if Emily was okay. I came here for closure so I could forget about the whole thing and concentrate on work. But now it’s pretty clear that Emily is not fine. I can either try to find out what the hell is going on or get back in my car and call Cortez. But what if they send the same officers back and she fools them again? I suppose the only way I’m going to find out what’s really going on is to do it myself.

“Yes, that’d be great,” I say. “Thanks.” She ushers me in past her and I hear the clunk of the latch dropping as she pulls the door closed behind us.

The apartment isn’t what I was expecting. As my eyes adjust from the sunlight outside, I see it actually has a light and clean IKEA aesthetic. The brilliant white of the walls is softened by the rich emerald of houseplants, ferns, and hanging succulents dotted along bookshelves and low coffee tables. Littered used scripts, half-drained coffee cups, and the odd item of discarded clothing are the only signs of inhabitance in the ordered minimalism. “I returned the car because Ubers are just easier, you know. Parking in LA is too much stress,” she says with a sigh as I follow her through to the eat-in kitchen.

She returned Emily’s car, and no one batted an eye. I don’t know what the hell is going on here but I resolve that I will not leave this apartment until I find out.

We enter a kitchen with its original 1960s design, mint green, with a round-edged sink, arched chrome taps, and a freestanding gas hob cooker. A ’60s housewife’s dream and clearly where the apartment’s millennial modernization stopped.

The woman clicks on the kettle and pulls out a chair at the Formica table, gesturing for me to do the same.

But I don’t.

She looks at me curiously. “Is something wrong,” she asks, “you seem a little…?”

I could just come out and say it. I could, or I could play along a little longer and see where this goes. There’s still the possibility I’ve gotten all this wrong. In which case I have hounded this poor woman, stalked her, reported her to the police, and now I’ve forced my way into her house to confront her with my own complete delusion.

“No, I’m fine.” I smile. “Just jet lag.” I pull out my seat and sit down opposite her. “So how’s the ex-boyfriend with the dislocated ankle?” I ask brightly, knowing full well that he’s completely made up.

She hesitates and then shrugs. “I’m sure he’s fine. He’s not in LA anymore.”

“Gone back to New York?”

“Yeah.” She nods. “You’re from London, right?” she asks, pleased with her knowledge.

“Yeah. Whereabouts are you from in New York?” I ask lightly, watching carefully for a hint of something in her eyes. She doesn’t disappoint: her eyes shift away from mine.

“Pretty central,” she answers quickly. “You know New York well?”

I shake my head. “Not really. Only been once.” I notice something out of the corner of my eye as the kettle rattles to a boil and clicks off behind her. It’s an ashtray. Clean and neatly tucked on a shelf. The woman rises and lifts a cafetière from a cupboard and sets about adding coffee. My eyes scan the kitchen table, counters, and shelves but find no lighter, no cigarettes, no butts.

“Could I bum a cigarette?” I ask, my voice slightly louder than anticipated.

“Sorry, I don’t smoke,” she replies, engrossed in her task and oblivious to the relevance of her answer.

And the words fly from me before I can stop myself. “Sorry, I don’t mean to be rude, but who are you?”

She turns to look at me, confused. “Sorry?”

“Who are you?” I ask simply.

She stares at me wide-eyed before answering. “I’m Emily,” she says, her confused gaze holding mine. She wants to know where I’m going with this, how far I’m going with this. But it’s telling that she doesn’t ask me why I would ask something like that. And if I was Emily I’m pretty sure that would have been my first question. But she remains silent.

“No, you’re not Emily, are you?” I ask. “I think we both know that.”

The woman blinks, dumbfounded, and I suddenly wonder if I’m acting completely mad. From her expression it’s impossible to tell if she’s been caught red-handed or if she’s terrified of the madwoman in her kitchen.

But I’ve come this far, so I continue. “Why are you pretending to be Emily?” I demand.

The woman’s gaze falters, her eyes darting past me to the door. She’s scared. I notice a tremble in her hand and my resolve wobbles.

When she looks back at me there is a nervousness to her, but no fear. She’s calculating what to do next. There’s a subtle tell, a look behind her eyes that I recognize from years of improvising scenes with other actors. A look that tells you that your scene partner is trying to preempt where you’re going in the scene so they can figure out their own path through it.

And it’s that tiny glimmer that, finally, tells me I’m right about all of it. This woman isn’t who she says she is.

I play my ace card. “You know I was the one who called the police, right?” Her confidence suddenly falters. She isn’t Emily. She isn’t. I push on. “If you don’t tell me what the hell is going on, I’m going to call the cops again, now, ok—”

Her fear crescendos into exasperation. “All right!” she blurts, suddenly slamming the packet of coffee she’d been holding down on the counter, her change of energy jarring me not nearly as much as her sudden change of accent from New York to a thick Texas twang. Jesus. I step back, spooked.

“Okay. Good for you,” she says, hands raised in angry surrender, her body language completely different, all hint of the person she was a moment before gone. “I’m not. Well done, you want a fricking medal? Unbelievable. You are one strange person; do you know that? I give up. I quit, okay? Happy?”

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