WHEN THANKSGIVING COMES, Tova and Cameron set a table for three.
It would’ve been four, but Avery backed out, promising to swing by later with pie. Apparently, she decided to keep the paddle shop open on Thanksgiving Day but didn’t want to make any of her employees work. People starting their holiday shopping on a holiday, how ridiculous. But Avery always says that the shop is doing so well this year, on the upswing, like Sowell Bay itself. She probably didn’t want to pass up a day of decent sales. Cameron said he understood, and anyway, he sees her all the time.
Marco might come with Avery today. Cameron’s voice had dropped, serious, when he explained this to Tova. He bought a green Nerf football on his way home from work the other day. Marco might want to toss it around on the beach, he said. Maybe. If he doesn’t, no hard feelings.
Ethan claims his seat, arriving half an hour early for turkey supper. Sometimes it seems he spends every free minute in Tova’s condo. But, in truth, Tova doesn’t mind. Mostly, he sits in her living room, in the recliner next to the little curio shelf where she displays her Dala Horses. Ethan loves listening to records on Will’s old turntable, an apparatus he treats with almost religious reverence. Although Tova never desired an education on rock music, she’s receiving one. It’s nice to have Ethan around.
When Ethan shrugs off his jacket, Cameron yelps. “Where’d you get that?”
“Oh, this?” Ethan’s eyes twinkle. He runs a hand over his belly, which strains against a yellow T-shirt that’s clearly a bit small. Garish lettering across the chest reads MOTH SAUSAGE.
Good heavens. What is a Moth Sausage?
Cameron’s eyes are still saucers. “That’s mine! I haven’t seen it since—holy shit, did my luggage finally come?”
“You mean that ruddy green duffel is your luggage?” Ethan winks. “Thought it was just my lucky day when I found it on my porch this morning.”
“Finally.” Cameron laughs. “That bag has been all over the world. I’ll bet it’s got some stories to tell.”
After the turkey and gravy have been eaten, Ethan, Cameron, and Tova leave a scandalous mountain of dirty dishes in the sink and bundle up for a walk down the waterfront, where Puget Sound shivers like a great gray ghost beyond the pier. The old ticket booth with its diagonal-cracked window sits alone under a blanket of clouds.
In front of the aquarium, they stop, all three admiring the new installation. A bronze statue with eight arms, a heavy-looking mantle. Round, inscrutable eyes on either side of its head.
The aquarium had balked at her hefty donation, but Tova insisted. Too much cash sitting unused in a bank account. Now, she passes the new statue three times a week, when she arrives for her volunteer position, passing out pamphlets and standing in front of the giant Pacific octopus tank, helping visitors understand the creature. Pippa the Grippa is still quite shy, spending most of her public-facing time as a pink blob suctioned to the glass in the corner of the tank. Living up to her name, Tova supposes. But that’s okay. When it’s slow, Tova talks to her while surreptitiously wiping away stray fingerprints on the glass. She can’t help herself.
A couple of tanks down, the sea cucumber population now remains stable. To Terry’s great relief, Pippa appears disinclined to roam the hallways, collecting lost artifacts.
Secretly, this makes Tova happy, too. Marcellus was, in fact, an exceptional octopus.
They continue along the waterfront, past the jetty. Marcellus’s jetty. The tide is high, clinging snug to the seawall like someone drawing blanket to chin on a cold winter night. Gentle waves play peekaboo with the mussel-crusted boulders that line the wall. Cameron and Ethan have been yapping about football for the last half hour, so Tova tunes them out.
If they kept going up the shore, they’d eventually pass underneath her old house, perched up on the hillside. Sometimes Tova walks there at dusk, and often when she passes the house, the big attic window glows golden through the trees. Once, she was certain she saw a string of paper dolls fixed to the window.
She has returned to the house only one time. A woman with a Texas accent called her cell phone, having obtained the number from Ethan. It seemed the woman had come through the checkout lane at the Shop-Way with a stack of cat food cans, and mentioned that there was a gray cat that wouldn’t leave her yard. Now, Cat loves hunting rock crabs on the beach under Tova’s deck when the tide is out. He prefers being outdoors, as if he doesn’t quite trust that this new place is home, and Tova can’t blame him. It’s a difficult adjustment. But as the weather gets colder, he seems increasingly resigned to spending more time inside the condo, curled on the davenport or sitting in front of the window, yellow eyes fixed on the seagulls that wander the skies.
When they circle back to the pier, Tova slips away and stands at the railing, alone. To the somber bay that took them both, a cherished son and an exceptional octopus, she whispers inscrutably: “I miss you. Both of you.” She taps her heart.
Then she turns and heads back to the others. They ought to get back to the condo.
Avery is coming for pie. And there’s a Scrabble game to win, after all.
Acknowledgments
My grandmother collected owls. The china cabinet on the red shag carpet in her dining room was crammed full of them. As a kid, I spent a lot of time on that carpet. I lived next door and had free rein to dart across our shared backyard and duck through the screen door into their kitchen, where there were always homemade cookies and no one stopped me from skating across the linoleum in my socks.
This was the 1980s, and these owls were old-school, not like the twee pastel birds that now decorate baby showers. My grandmother’s figurine owls had heavy eyes and sharply pointed beaks. Like real owls, they conveyed little emotion.
I never knew why she loved owls, but year after year, until she passed away, I wrapped gift boxes with owl-themed brooches and tea towels. In some ways, Tova is modeled after my Grandma Anna. Tova’s life events are fiction, but she and my Grandma Anna are both stoic Swedes. Unruffled. Endlessly kind, yet emotionally inscrutable. Apt to sink talons into a solitary branch and remain there, owl-like. As a descendant of this culture, I sometimes struggle to communicate touchy-feely things. But I’m going to try, because I am grateful to so many people for the fact that this book is in your hands.
First, an ocean-sized thanks to Helen Atsma, my amazing editor at Ecco, whose editorial vision for this story hit the mark from our very first meeting. Helen, you have a knack for pruning out the weak parts and letting the narrative shine, and I am so grateful for your guidance. Also, huge thanks to Miriam Parker, Sonya Cheuse, TJ Calhoun, Vivian Rowe, Rachel Sargent, Meghan Deans, and everyone else at Ecco for your brilliance, kindness, and patience.
Similarly, to Emma Herdman and her team at Bloomsbury UK, your enthusiasm has been so inspiring, and I feel so fortunate to be working with such an accomplished team across the pond.
A tidal wave of thanks to my agent, Kristin Nelson, who changed my life with an email in the fall of 2020. Thank you, Kristin, for having a sense of humor when, during our first video call, my four-year-old son repeatedly appeared onscreen to complain about wanting a juice box. I still can’t believe I’m lucky enough to count myself as one of your clients. My gratitude extends to everyone at Nelson Literary Agency, with special thanks to Maria Heater, who reviewed my query letter, realized there was an octopus narrator, and wrote in the margin: “This is either brilliant or bananas.”