I try to convince myself that’s what her disappearance the other day was about, but I can’t escape the thought that it had something to do with Brendan. I’ve suggested we video call him a few times, but she always has an excuse.
At five, I pack up and leave to meet her. Once again, Charlie’s not at the register, and now I’m not only annoyed and frustrated, I’m sad.
I miss him, and I’m tired of us hiding from each other.
Steeling myself, I duck into the office. He looks up, startled, from where he’s leaned against the bulky mahogany desk on the right side of the room, reading. His eyes, his posture, everything reads jungle cat. If by some strange, ancient curse, a jaguar was turned into a man, he would be Charlie Lastra. After a seconds-long staring contest, he remembers himself and says, “Did you need something?”
Last year, I would’ve thought he was being snotty. Now I realize he’s cutting to the chase.
“We should schedule a time to talk through the next hundred pages.”
His eyes bore into me until there’s smoke lifting off my skin. I’m an ant beneath his sunlit magnifying glass. Finally, he looks away. “We can just do it over email. I know Libby’s keeping you running.”
“It needs to be in person.” I can’t take this tension between us anymore. Avoiding him is only making this worse, and I hate feeling like I’m hiding. With Libby, the way to get to the heart of things might be a slow, cautious obstacle course, but this is Charlie, and Charlie’s like me. We need to bulldoze through the awkwardness. I miss him. His teasing, his challenges, his competitiveness, his care for my overpriced shoes, his smell, and—
Shit, I didn’t expect the list to be so long. I’m in deeper than I realized. “Unless you’re too busy!” I add.
He flashes his first smirk-pout of the week. “What could I possibly be busy with?”
His plans with Amaya surge to the front of my mind. I picture him sweeping her over a puddle to save her shoes, flicking open an umbrella to protect her blown-out hair.
“Maybe that Dunkin’ Donuts grand opening,” I say. “Or the divorce proceedings for that couple who fought at town hall.”
“Oh, they’ll never split up,” he says seriously. “That’s just the Cassidys’ foreplay.”
Foreplay. Not a word I would’ve chosen to introduce to this conversation.
“Does tomorrow work for you?” I ask. “Late morning?”
He studies me. “I’ll reserve us a room.” At my expression, he laughs. “At the library, Stephens. A study room. Get your mind out of the gutter.”
Believe me, I think, I’ve tried.
19
LIBBY HOISTS ME out of Hardy’s cab, toward the sound of chatter, and positions me for optimal drama. “Ta-da!”
I pull down the scarf-cum-blindfold she made me wear and blink against the pink and orange of dusk. I’m facing an elementary school’s marquee.
TONIGHT, 7 P.M.
SUNSHINE FALLS COMMUNITY THEATER PRESENTS:
ONCE IN A LIFETIME
“Oh,” I say. “My. God.”
She lets out a wordless shriek of excitement. “See? Local theater! Everything New York has, you can find right here too!”
“That is . . . quite the leap.”
Libby giggles, hooking an arm around me. “Come on. The tickets are general admission, and I want to get popcorn and good seats.”
I’m not sure there’s such thing as “good seats” when you’re choosing from rows of folding chairs in a school gymnasium. The stage is elevated, meaning we’ll be craning our necks for the length of the play, but as soon as the house lights drop, it’s clear the seating arrangement is the least of this production’s issues.
“Oh my god,” Libby whispers, gripping my arm as an actor shuffles out in front of the painted apothecary backdrop. He wanders to the prop counter and gazes wistfully at a framed picture there.
“No,” I whisper.
“Yes!” she hisses.
Old Man Whittaker is being played by a child.
“What about the drug abuse?!” Libby says.
“What about the overdose?!” I say.
“He can’t even be thirteen, right?” Libby whispers.
“He has the voice of a ten-year-old choirboy!”
Someone harrumphs near us, and Libby and I sink in our chairs, chastened. At least until Mrs. Wilder—the owner of the lending library—comes onto the stage and I have to turn my bark of laughter into a cough.
Libby wheezes beside me. “Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god.” She’s not looking at the stage, just staring at her feet and trying not to explode.
I drop my voice next to her ear: “What do you think the age gap is between these actors? Sixty-eight years?”
She clears her throat to keep a handle on her would-be laughter.
The woman playing Mrs. Wilder could easily be Old Man Whittaker’s grandmother.
Hell, maybe she is. “Maybe little Delilah Tyler will be played by the family Rottweiler,” I whisper. Libby flings herself forward over her belly, hiding her face as her shoulders quake with silent laughter.
Another dirty look from the woman to our right. Sorry, I mouth. Allergies. She rolls her eyes, looks away.
Into Libby’s ear, I whisper, “Uh-oh, Whittaker’s mommy is mad.”
She bites my shoulder, like she’s trying not to scream. Onstage, Little Boy Whittaker grabs his back and winces out the F-word at the pain of his character’s chronically pinched nerves.
Libby squeezes my hand so hard it feels like she might break it.
“It is very clear,” she whispers haltingly, “that small, bearded child has yet to experience physical pain.”
“That boy has yet to experience the dropping of his testicles,” I reply.
As if to disprove this, his next line sends his voice lurching, cracking into a squeak that makes Libby scrunch her eyes shut and cross her legs. “I will not pee myself!”
We stare at our feet, erupting into silent shivers of laughter every few minutes. It’s the most fun I’ve had in years.
Whatever else is happening, with Brendan, with the apartment, with my sister, right now, we’re us, like we haven’t been for a long time.
* * *
The second the play ends, Libby and I sprint out. We’re both about to lose it and would rather do so privately. Halfway to the marquee, a cheery voice stops us.
“Nora! Libby?” Sally Goode cuts a trail toward us, alongside a blond behemoth of a man using a wheelchair. Her dimpled smile is Charlie-esque; the cloud of jasmine and marijuana in which she arrives is not. It’s hard to imagine structured, sharp-edged Charlie being raised by this woodsy, freewheeling waif.
“Fancy seeing you here!” Libby sings.
“Small towns and all that,” Sally says. “I don’t think y’all have met my husband?”
“Clint,” the man offers. “Pleasure to meet you.”
“Nice to meet you,” Libby and I say in unison.
He asks, “What’d you think of the play?”
Libby and I exchange a panicked look.
“Oh, don’t make them answer that.” Sally swats his arm, smiling. “At least not before the salon. You gotta come—we always have friends over for drinks and pie after a show.”
“This is a regular occurrence?” My sister almost chokes over the words. We’re still too slaphappy to be having this conversation.
“They do four shows a year,” Sally says.
Clint’s brow lifts. “Is that all? Seems like a lot more.”
Libby swallows a laugh, but a squeak still makes it out of her throat.
“Please say you’ll come,” Sally pleads.
“Oh, we couldn’t intrude—” I begin.
“Nonsense!” she cries. “There’s no such thing as intruding in Sunshine Falls. Or did you not just watch the same play as us?”
“We definitely watched it,” Libby mumbles.
Sally hands her purse to her husband and digs through it for a scrap of paper and a pen, then jots down an address. “We’re just on the other side of the woods and up the path from you.” She hands the paper to Libby. “But there’s a street and driveway that runs right up to our house, if you don’t feel like tromping through the dark.”
She doesn’t wait for an RSVP or even a reply. They’re moving off, the crowd bottlenecking behind us.
“Oh, Boris did wonderfully,” an older gentleman is saying. “And only eleven years old!”
Libby squeezes my hand, and we take off down the sidewalk, giggling like preteens high on Mountain Dew.
* * *