CHAPTER 31
Alexs teeth sunk into my neck and with every pull of blood he took, I felt my womb contract in an inconceivable pleasure. The electricity was a tangible thing between us. You could hear the air crackling with arcs of power. From a far off place I heard the two of us moaning; I was underneath him and writhing in erotic pleasure as he ground his thick erection against me. I was trying to open his pants to free his hard length when I was suddenly pulled away from Alex and hauled up against Roberto.
"Olivia, come back to me Cara, please..."
I tried hard to focus on Robertos face. I felt disoriented. When things began to clear I saw we were stopped on the side of the road and were standing next to the car. I burst into tears. What had I become?
Roberto held me and stroked my hair, "Dont cry Olivia, this is not an easy situation."
Up ahead Cristoforo and Mark stopped and got out of the car, "Is everything okay Roberto?" Cristoforo called back.
"Yeah, were getting back in the car now." Roberto opened the front door for me to get in. I couldnt look back at Alex because I was still mortified over my behavior.
"Olivia? Are you all right? I didnt hurt you did I?" Alex asked from the back seat.
"No Alex, Im fine, thanks. Are you feeling stronger?"
"Why yes, thank you for asking. What the hell Olivia? We have to talk about whats going on between us."
Roberto got in the drivers seat and before pulling back on to the highway turned and said to Alex, "Now is not the time Alexander. We need to take care of business first. You are still weak and Olivia needs to get medical attention for her arm."
258 "Yeah, she is in pain, I can feel it. Our connection has grown stronger since I took her blood again." Alex said in a taunting voice directed Im sure at Roberto.
"Alex please, just let it go for the moment. Im tired and my arm is killing me." I pleaded with him.
Alex immediately sounded contrite, "Im sorry Baby; we can talk later. Is there anything I can do for you?"
"No." Roberto said quickly. We were quiet on the ride back to the safe house. I was lost in my troubled thoughts. I had thought my feelings were mixed up before?
Being with both Alex and Roberto at the same time, made me more confused than ever. I loved Roberto, just thinking about him and his quiet strength made me want to melt in a puddle at his feet. I could see myself having a life with him. Alex, he was fun, easy to be with.
He certainly cared about me. I had feelings for him. I wasnt sure it was love, but it was something. He was also very, very sexy.
When we pulled up in front of the safe house, it was still a couple of hours before dawn. We got out of the car and went in to the Cape Cod. I felt nervous because I wanted to settle matters before the guys would be going to sleep for the day.
"Roberto, would you mind if Alex and I went for a walk?"
Alex looked at me with narrowed eyes. "Are you kidding me Baby? You have to ask his permission to go for a walk?"
"Alex. Please!" I snapped at him. "There is no reason to act childish."
Roberto didnt help matters by butting in with, "Well. He is still a pup, so one can understand the rude behavior."
Alex sprang at Roberto, but thankfully Cristoforo grabbed him and stopped them from killing each other.
I went over to Roberto and looked pleadingly into
259 his eyes, "I need to talk to Alex. You understand?"
Roberto cupped my cheek with his huge hand, "Yes Piccolina, I understand. But I am worried about your arm. Shouldnt you get that taken care of first?"
I shook my head, "No, I need to do this before you sleep. I will go to the hospital after you go to sleep. Hopefully I will be back before youre up for the evening."
Roberto was looking at me intently. It seemed like he was trying to read my thoughts.
But he just nodded his agreement and turned to walk away. He took a few steps and turned back, pulling me into his arms and touching his lips to mine. "I love you. You are my light Cara." With that, he turned and walked away. I stood there for a minute with a sense of deja vue. It had been a little over a week ago that Alex had done almost the same thing. I went over to Alex who was waiting by the door. I was tired and hurting, but knew I had to settle things before I could rest. Alex and I walked to a small park that was nearby and sat on a bench. We had been quiet while we walked the air thick with tension. Now as we sat here, I suddenly burst into tears, damn, damn Sensay emotions. Alex gathered me in his arms, being careful not to jostle my broken arm.
"Olivia honey, dont cry. Shhh it will be okay." Alex crooned to me. After letting it out I gathered my strength.
"Alex, the first time you bit me, you bound me to you." I stated flatly.
He looked startled that I knew, "Yes, I did it because I love you. I loved you from the first minute I met you. When you ran into me back in the Platza lobby, I looked into your eyes and I saw my soul there Olivia. It sounds irrational I know, but its the truth. You and I are destined to be together."
"You gave me no say in the matter Alex. You took the choice out of my hands. That wasnt right. Is there a
260 way to break the bond?"
Alex looked wounded, "I never heard of one. Binding is forever with our kind."
I felt panicked. "Forever? And you didnt even ask me? What about Roberto? What if he wants to bind himself with me? Can you bind with more than one person?"
Alex looked hard at me, "No, the only way Ive heard a binding can end is one of the bound dies. Do you want to kill me now Olivia?"
"Yes, no, of course not. Im going to have to tell Roberto. I lied to him. I dont know why. I never lie. What do I do if he wants to bind with me? Crap!"
Alex snorted. "I wouldnt worry about it right now Olivia. He hasnt bit you yet. I would be able to tell if he had. Roberto is old school and pomp and circumstance mean a lot to him. I dont think hell bite you anytime soon. But if you truly want to be free of me I will research if there is a way to break the binding; besides my death that is. But I will ask one thing of you Olivia, search your heart. My love for you is beyond this earth."
At my skeptical look, he took my face between his hands, "Can you tell me you dont feel it?"
"I dont know Alex." I whispered. "Im still getting used to this new world filled with vampires and wolves and hocus pocus."
Alex smiled, "Wolves huh? Bullet?"
I gasped, "How do you know about Bullet?"
"Im bound to you. And you are a powerful Sensay. Youve shared your dreams with me. While they were torturing me, those dreams kept me going. I think that Bullet is an agent of the Great Spirit and hes here to help you."
"Roberto said the same thing to me. How is it you all know so much about this?" I asked him curious.
Alex shook his head at me, "You still dont get it do you? You are destined to be powerful beyond words
261 Olivia."
When I continued to stare at him he said, "You will be a queen among your people. You will one day be talked about in revered tones by all the species of the evolved. Youll also have great responsibility to our kind. Its not going to be an easy journey for you."
"First Roberto says Im a prophet and now you tell me Im a queen. You guys are nuts! I am a physical therapist!!"
Alex laughed at me. "Youre a very powerful physical therapist then. Your powers are just now starting to emerge and once they do, you will need to train night and day to learn how to wield them."
"Roberto says he cant train me, that I need to go find ,,my people Im still not quite sure who my people are."
Alex studied my face for a minute, "Yes you do. Bullet showed you the way. Remember? You have to trust and follow him."
I thought about my dream where Bullet was leading me away from the water and through the forest. I remembered too the danger that I felt.
"Alex, in my second dream the one by the lake, did you sense some sort of danger creeping up on me?"
Alex took a minute to reply, "Yes."
"Do you think it was a warning about Juan?"
Alex seemed to reply carefully, "Its possible. Its hard to interpret these things. You will learn to better analyze these visions after youve had training, I imagine."
I sat for a moment, thinking about all he had said. I still couldnt picture myself this powerful queen like person. I was getting curious though to meet ,,my people. I sighed; sitting here thinking about other things wasnt going to solve my immediate problem. I had to do this.
"I am in love with Roberto and he loves me."
He surprised me when all he said was, "I know."
262 I looked at him waiting for something more, "Is that all you have to say?"
Alex stood up, "What do you want me to say Olivia?"
"I dont know, I guess I expected something else thats all."
"Well, Im sorry. I was expecting something else too. Like for you to be more intuitive. To know whats real. Being a Sensay you would think you would be able to hear what your heart knows is true."
Alex turned to walk away. This was what I had wanted. I should be glad he understood. But instead I found myself grabbing his arm. "Alex, I dont want us angry with each other. I want you to be my friend."
He turned and pulled me into his arms. "I will always be here for you. Olivia, I once told you I wont give up on us and I wont. Im in love with you now and forever. If I find a way to break our bond and if that is what you want then I will do it, for you, that is how much I love you." He lowered his head to kiss me but I turned away. I was afraid of what it would do to me. I honestly didnt trust myself from begging him to make love to me.
Alex ran a hand through his blond hair making it tousled and very sexy. "Lets get you back Baby. You need to take care of that arm."
We walked back in silence both of us sad. When we got to the door Alex took my hand to stop me from going in, "Olivia if you ever need me. If youre in any kind of trouble, call me okay?"
I shook my head that I would. I didnt trust myself to speak. I was very close to crying. It felt like my heart was breaking.
Alex said, "You go in, Im going to hunt. Im still a little bit weak from earlier."
He didnt look weak and I didnt feel weak. I think he needed to get away from me, which made me want to
263 cry more.
He walked halfway down the sidewalk and turned back to me and said, "Can I ask you something?" I nodded yes at him. "When was the last time you sang Olivia?"
I didnt answer. I stared at him until he turned and walked away. I stood there looking at the empty sidewalk, remembering the last time I sang. The night I spent with Alex.