He was looking up at the trees as he said this, his face brightened by the moonlight. Maybe it was the beer, or the fact I’d already said the wrong thing twice. But I figured I had little left to lose. So I said, “Even you, huh?”
Now he did look at me. “I was the fat, pimply kid up until pretty recently. You don’t just forget.”
I shook my head. “I still can’t believe that.”
“It’s documented.” Another sip. “Despite my best efforts to destroy any and all evidence.”
Distantly, I heard Layla laugh. “I would think you’d want the proof. That maybe it might, you know, make you proud. Seeing where you came from.”
“I’d be prouder if I had never let myself get to that point,” he said.
“Can’t change the past.”
He reached up, sliding his finger under the chain around his neck. “Doesn’t mean you should dwell on it.”
Eric wasn’t the only lightweight: the beer was hitting me now. I finished it off, then put it down beside me. “What’s the story with that coin?”
“Coin?” I nodded at it, and he looked down. “Oh. It’s actually a pendant of a saint. My mom gave them to all of us when we were kids.”
“A saint?”
“Yep.” He pulled it out, angling it to the moonlight. “Bathilde. Patron saint of children. I guess she figured we’d need all the help we could get.”
I moved closer, barely able to make out a figure and some tiny words on the pendant. “It’s nice.”
“Yeah. But it’s also a reminder.”
“Of what?”
“When I was at my heaviest, this thing choked me. I mean, seriously. It left welts. I didn’t want to take it off. I wouldn’t. I needed all the help I could get.”
“Protection,” I said.
“Something like that.” He let it drop. “Now I keep it on so I don’t forget what I lost.”
It was weird, hearing this. Like no longer having something could be a good thing, and the proof of it as well. I was used to the opposite, when absence equaled heartbreak. Suddenly, I had a million questions, and between the beer and the dark, I felt like I could ask them. But then Eric came around the corner, his guitar in hand.
“Sorry to interrupt,” he said. I heard a slur in his voice. “But you’re kind of being impolite all sequestered over here.”
“How many beers have you had?” Mac asked him as I slid off the carousel, taking my can with me.
“An infinitesimal amount,” Eric replied. But I noticed, as we fell in behind him, that his steps were anything but sure.
“Eric’s using his big words,” Mac reported to Layla and Irv, who were now sitting opposite each other in a chariot. She had plenty of room next to her; he barely fit, as if the metal might give way at any moment.
“Dead giveaway,” Layla said. “No more beer for you, Bates.”
“He gets super verbose when he’s buzzed,” Irv explained to me. “One of his many tells.”
“I am perfectly compos mentis,” Eric protested, sitting down a bit bumpily on the grass. He strummed his guitar. “I’ll prove it by entertaining you with a musical interlude. Sydney, come join me here on the terra firma and tell me what you want to hear.”
“Oh, for God’s sake.” Layla held up a hand. “Please stop before you embarrass yourself.”
“Too late,” Irv said.
Eric, undeterred, patted the grass beside him. “Come. Enjoy my aural stylings.”
I felt so bad for him that I actually went. As soon as I sat down, he leaned into me, strumming the guitar. “I once knew a girl, Sydney was her name . . . She was so pretty, she drove me insane . . .”
“Can I have another beer?” I asked. Irv snorted. Mac tossed me one.
“Met her at school, there on the wall,” he crooned. “Sat down beside her, gave it my all . . .”
“O-kay,” Layla said, getting up from the chariot. “I think it’s time we head back. Mom’s going to be wondering where we are.”
“I’m in the middle of an original composition,” Eric protested.
“You’ll thank me later,” she told him as Mac picked up the duffel bag, filling it with our empty cans. Irv stepped off the carousel, and it made a sound like a sigh of relief. Beside me, Eric had thankfully stopped singing, although he was still picking out a few sloppy chords. “Before we go, though, one ride?”
“One ride,” Eric mumbled. “On the inside. Be my bride and let it ride . . .”
Irv looked at Mac, who shrugged. “Okay,” he said. “Climb on.”
Layla clapped her hands, then got back on the carousel, hoisting herself up onto one of the horses. “Come on,” she said to me. “You have to try this.”
I was buzzed now, feeling the beer and a half as I walked over and joined her. My horse was a small one, and I felt unsteady as I got on, trying to remember the last time I’d ridden a merry-go-round.
“Ready?” Irv said.