It would be easy. Quick.
But he hadn’t managed it. He’d stood there with his legs numb, heavy, useless, for what felt like hours, until he began to fear that he’d never move again—he’d be frozen in this position, in the darkness, forever.
At some point the porch light had clicked on, and Dodge had seen a heavy woman, with a face like a pulpy fruit, wearing a tentlike nightgown and no shoes, maneuver her bulk out onto the porch and light up a cigarette. Luke’s mother.
All at once, Dodge could move again. He had stumbled toward his bike. It wasn’t until he was four blocks away that he realized he was still holding the knife and he had dropped the baseball bat, probably on the lawn.
It had been two whole years, almost to the day. Ray’s house looked even more run-down in the daylight. The paint was shedding like gray dandruff. On the porch were two tires, a few smelly armchairs, and an old porch swing hanging on rusty chains, which looked like it would collapse under the slightest pressure.
There was a doorbell, but it was disconnected. Instead Dodge banged loudly on the frame of the screen door. In response, the TV inside was abruptly muted. For the first time, it occurred to Dodge that it might not be Ray who answered the door, but that pulpy-faced woman from two years ago—or a father, or someone else entirely.
But it was Ray. He was wearing only basketball shorts. For a split second, he hesitated, obviously startled, just behind the screen.
Before Dodge could say anything, Ray kicked open the screen door. Dodge had to jump back to avoid it. He lost his footing.
“What the fuck are you doing here?”
The sudden motion had screwed Dodge up. He was already off balance when Ray grabbed him by the shirt and then shoved him. Dodge stumbled down the porch stairs and landed in the dirt on his elbows. He bit down on his tongue.
And Ray was above him, in a rage, ready to pounce. “You must be out of your mind,” he spat out.
Dodge rolled away from him and scrambled to his feet. “I’m not here to fight.”
Ray let out a bark of laughter. “You don’t have a choice.”
He took a step forward, swinging; but Dodge had regained his balance and sidestepped him.
“Look.” Dodge held up a hand. “Just listen to me, okay? I came to talk.”
“Why the hell would I want to talk to you?” Ray said. His hands were still balled into fists, but he didn’t try and swing again.
“We both want the same thing,” Dodge said.
For a second, Ray said nothing. His hands uncurled. “What’s that?”
“Panic.” Dodge wet his lips. His throat was dry. “Both of us need it.”
There was an electric tension in the air, hot and dangerous. Ray took another quick step forward.
“Luke told me about your little threats,” Ray said. “What kind of game do you think you’re playing?”
Ray was so close, Dodge could smell cornflakes and sour milk on his breath. But he didn’t step back. “There’s only one game that matters,” he said. “You know it. Luke knew it too. That’s why he did what he did, isn’t it?”
For the first time, Ray looked afraid. “It was an accident,” he said. “He never meant—”
“Don’t.”
Ray shook his head. “I didn’t know,” he said. Dodge knew he was lying.
“Are you going to help me, or not?” Dodge asked.
Ray laughed again: an explosive, humorless sound. “Why should I help you?” he asked. “You want me dead.”
Dodge smiled. “Not like this,” he said. And he meant it, 100 percent. “Not yet.”
Sometime around midnight, when Carp was quiet, dazzling in a light sheen of rain, Zev Keller woke in the dark to rough hands grabbing him. Before he could scream, he was gagging on the taste of cotton in his mouth. A sock. And then he was lifted, carried out of bed and into the night.
His first, confused, thought was that the cops had come to take him away. If he’d been thinking clearly, he would have realized that his assailants were wearing ski masks. He would have noticed that the trunk they forced him into belonged to a navy-blue Taurus, like the kind his brother drove. That it was his brother’s car, parked in its usual spot.
But he wasn’t thinking clearly. He was panicked.
Kicking out, watching the sky narrow to a sliver as the trunk closed over him, Zev felt something wet and realized that, for the first time since he was five years old, he’d peed himself.
At last he realized too that despite everything, the game was ongoing. And that he had just lost.
WEDNESDAY, JULY 13
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