Imitation

Chapter Nine

 

 

 

 

 

Titus isn’t at breakfast the following morning. There’s the usual note about exercise and Gus stands inconspicuously against the wall near the door while I eat my eggs. Maria’s voice is the only sound as she asks me how I slept and if everything tastes okay. She has warmed up to me since the day Titus hit me, though she’s never spoken about the incident directly. I am grateful to her for that.

 

My workout consists of the same routine as before: tennis with Sofia—who, unlike her mother, has not warmed up to me—then running the track followed by a shower and lunch. Linc shadows me but he doesn’t speak. I am tempted to try and smooth things over because I didn’t mean half of what I said in the wheat field, but he doesn’t give me a chance with the distance he keeps between us.

 

Two days pass. Titus leaves me alone. I am not allowed to leave but neither am I forced into a public appearance or party. I exercise. I eat. I play dress up to pass the afternoons.

 

On Wednesday, when I step off the track, Linc is there with a bottle of water. I take a swig and then continue my cool-down walk. He fades back into the shadows of the building and watches with folded arms.

 

Gus meets me at the door a few minutes later. He has keys in his hand and he’s looking over my shoulder at Linc as he speaks to me. “Mr. Rogen has decided you should attend the event at Houten’s tonight,” he says.

 

Behind me, Linc mutters a curse.

 

“What event at Houten’s?” I ask. Gus ignores me.

 

“Maria will meet you in your room after lunch to help you change,” he continues. “Linc, you’re with me for a security briefing, then you’re on protection detail with Williams.”

 

“Yes, sir,” Linc says. He doesn’t sound happy.

 

Gus nods at the door guard and together they disappear into the stairwell. Linc and I are alone in the gym.

 

“What event?” I ask again.

 

“There’s a charity dinner at a place called Houten’s tonight. You were invited but I didn’t think they’d actually send you.”

 

“Why not?”

 

“Because you always go to these. Which means your attackers will be looking for you.” He runs a hand through his hair and down his face in frustration. “Dammit, they’re dangling you like bait. This is insane.”

 

“Why is it insane? You’ve already protected me more than once.”

 

“Houten’s is … trickier. More exits, more vulnerable points.”

 

I don’t know what to say to that. If Linc is worried, I can’t help but worry too.

 

He exhales. “Come on, you better get upstairs.”

 

“Linc?” He turns from the stairwell door. “I’m sorry for the things I said.” His shoulders slump but he doesn’t respond. I can see he’s probably not going to. “Please, can we go back to being … friends?” I’m unsure if that’s what we were, but I call it that anyway and hope it’s not assuming too much.

 

“When you say things like that, it frustrates me. The old Raven would never apologize and you’re just … not her. And you don’t trust me enough to tell me why or how. And I can’t get past that.”

 

“I know,” I say. It is the closest I’ve come to admitting the truth.

 

He stares at me another moment and I’m sorry I brought it up because I can’t give him an answer he wants. “Come on,” he says finally.

 

Maria is waiting in my room with a steaming tray. A fresh gown that sparkles and shimmers and reminds me of water hangs over the mirror. Maria is full of energy as she bustles back and forth, ushering me into a chair to eat and then running a bath that smells like freesia and lilies.

 

When I emerge from my room hours later, Titus is waiting for me. He nods appreciatively at my dress and I see the relief on Maria’s face as she disappears around a corner toward the kitchen. I have to admit, the dress is magnificent. The way the fabric hangs and glitters makes me feel as if a waterfall is being poured over me at every step.

 

“Very nice,” Titus says, and though it’s probably meant to be a compliment I can’t help but feel as if he’s simply given me permission—not praise—to look like this.

 

“Tonight,” he continues, “Gus and Linc and a few others will accompany you but not inside. They would be too conspicuous and I want this dinner to solidify to the public that you are healed and well from your past injuries and your amnesia is gone. Do you understand?”

 

“I will be alone in the building?” I ask.

 

I can’t help the nerves that are building in my stomach at the thought, especially after what Linc said earlier.

 

“Your security team will be downstairs and you’ll be wired so they can hear everything going on. Daniel will be there, as well as plenty of others willing to spend any amount of time you’ll give them. You’ll be fine.” He leans down and lowers his voice and adds, “Just be her.” He straightens and pats my cheek in a way that feels like a slap. “Your bruises healed nicely. Let’s not come home with new ones, all right?”

 

I am not sure if he means from an attack or from his own hand if I screw this up. The thought of either has me balling my fists at my sides and digging my nails into my palms. Footsteps sound behind me and I turn to find Gus and Linc.

 

“Have fun, darling,” Titus says loudly enough for them to hear. Then he moves away to speak to Gus in a low voice.

 

Linc joins me in front of the elevator. He takes in all of me and his jaw goes slack. My pulse quickens.

 

“Is it okay?” I ask quietly.

 

“It is … more than okay,” he says, his voice hoarse.

 

I want to ask him to elaborate but then Gus joins us and Linc presses the button, and we file into the elevator. The last thing I see before the doors close is Titus, a twisted smile pasted on his angular face.

 

The moment we step off the elevator, I know something is wrong.

 

The doorman is missing and half the lights in the lobby are out. I hesitate as we step off the elevator and I feel Linc’s hand on my arm, gently pushing me behind him. With one hand, Gus motions us forward. With the other, he is talking rapidly into his radio, calling for backup.

 

“Come on, the car is waiting,” he says to us.

 

Through the glass front I can see a black car idling by the curb. Normally, our driver is standing there, waiting to open the door, but I don’t see anyone now. Still, Gus tugs me forward. I exchange a look with Linc. His expression is grave and determined as he searches our surroundings.

 

“Boss,” Linc begins.

 

“I see it,” Gus says. “Keep moving. We need them to show themselves.”

 

We walk quickly across the hollow lobby and my breaths are coming so fast, my chest aches with the pressure of too much oxygen. The absence of a doorman doesn’t deter Gus. He shoves through the door without bothering to hold it for us. With one hand, Linc holds the door for me. His other hand slips into mine.

 

Behind me, the stairwell door bursts open and several more of our security detail pour out and race across the lobby. They are not fast enough.

 

The moment my feet hit the sidewalk, a hand closes over my shoulder and I am ripped from Linc’s grasp. I stumble backward until I slam hard against a chest and the hand on my shoulder becomes an arm wrapped around my throat. Another encircles my waist.

 

I have a full view of Gus and Linc—and the men they are fighting off—as I am pulled farther and farther away from them. Linc’s movements are a blur as he manages to sidestep an uppercut punch and produce a gun from some hidden place on his body. He points it at my captor for a split second before realizing I am the barrier between his bullet and my freedom. He lowers the barrel and his attention is redirected as he’s forced to dodge another swing.

 

I am yanked again, this time into an alleyway, and abruptly released. The momentum sends me hard against the wall of the building. My back hits first, driving the air from my lungs, and then my head. The pain is instant and splitting, and I cannot see through the cloudy darkness that blurs my vision. I swing out but my fists connect with empty air.

 

I blink furiously, but it’s not in time to avoid the fist that crashes into my stomach. Then another. The only thing keeping me on my feet is the force of the fists holding me against the hardness of the wall.

 

The blows cease and my knees buckle. I begin to crumple. A pair of arms dart forward and I flinch but it’s not another punch. Instead the hands slip underneath my arms and yank me up so that I’m somewhat on my feet.

 

“Raven Rogen,” a voice says. The fact that it is female startles me enough for my eyes to open. I struggle to focus on the face swimming in front of me. The orange hair is like a burning halo framing a face that is strikingly familiar.

 

“I know you,” I mumble.

 

“You don’t know anything,” she says.

 

“I met you … gave you my autograph.”

 

“Signature sample, you mean. Very handy with the right technology. We had to be certain.” She leans in until our noses almost touch. “I know your secret,” she whispers.

 

Farther away, someone shouts. It pulls both of our attention, though I can’t see far enough to identify the owner of the voice. More shouts. Feet pounding.

 

She turns back to me but I continue to crane my neck past her to the shouting. I hope help has arrived at last.

 

“Looks like we’re doing this the hard way. Time for light’s out.”

 

I look back at the girl just in time to see her petite fist slam into my temple. Then her hands cup my cheeks and my head is slammed against the wall. There is a sickening thunk and I know she’s broken the skin. Her hands slide lower to my throat and begin to squeeze. I manage two very short breaths before my oxygen is cut off. I thrash wildly, kicking and clawing for purchase. Anything that will make her let go. But it’s not enough. Within moments, darkness edges into my peripheral vision and widens until it’s all I see.

 

Fog encroaches, threatening to take me under but I refuse. I am vaguely aware of a commotion beside me. A small scuffle. I kick out and my toe connects with her shin. She grunts. The pressure around my throat releases. By the time I understand it, the redhead is gone and Linc is kneeling over me.

 

One of his hands cradles my back and the angle at which he holds me sends a sharp jolt up my side. The other is pressed tightly against the back of my scalp. Too hard. I wince against the pain that is not unlike the migraine I experienced a few days ago.

 

When it’s obvious I’m awake, Linc’s voice breaks. “Raven,” he says. It’s half whisper, half desperate cry.

 

“Linc.” My lips form the word but the sound is garbled to my ears.

 

He shakes his head and shushes me. “Don’t talk. Your throat … it must hurt.” His expression is full of agony, his tone soft and smooth, like a blanket. I shiver. He shakes his head again. “Josephine is on her way down. Just sit tight. Don’t try to move, all right?”

 

I shake my head once but the pain pinches sharply so I lie still. With measured movement, Linc frees one arm while still holding pressure against my head with the other. Gently, he brushes my hair away from my face, smoothing it sideways and sweeping it behind my ear. I don’t realize it’s the right side until his glance catches on the ink.

 

“I didn’t know you had a tattoo.” His hand stills and he leans closer, inspecting. “Is that a … tree?”

 

I am blissfully grateful he’s instructed me not to speak. Behind Linc, footsteps sound, and we both stiffen. He glances back, his body blocking my view. I don’t breathe until I feel him relax.

 

“Raven?” I recognize Josephine’s voice at the same moment she bends down and her face swims into focus. “Oh my God.” Her gaze sweeps down my neck and chest and her jaw slackens. Her reaction to my appearance is almost as bad as the pain.

 

Beyond her, I can make out the blurry shapes of more security guards as they finally arrive from upstairs or wherever Titus has summoned them from. Gus’s white hair shines in the glare of a streetlamp as he moves between the men. None of them approach us but many glance my way with twisted expressions.

 

“Does it hurt terribly?” Josephine asks, calling my attention back to her, to the pain.

 

I open my mouth, prepared to attempt an answer, but Linc beats me to it. “I don’t think she should talk. Her chest and neck look badly bruised, Jo.”

 

Josephine nods. “What happened?”

 

“She was strangled,” he tells her in a strained voice.

 

“Who …? Did you catch them?”

 

He shakes his head. “A couple of her thugs but not the ringleader, the one who had Raven.”

 

“A girl did this?” Josephine asks. The disbelief is clear.

 

“Well, not alone, obviously,” Linc says. I want to laugh at the defensive note in his voice but I don’t. Nothing about this is funny. Then the face of my attacker appears in my mind—the memory of that burning halo of hair.

 

I struggle to sit forward, determined to tell them what I know, but Josephine’s hands gently push me back. “Don’t try to move just yet, darling. Let me have a closer look.”

 

She pulls a stethoscope from her bag and presses the cold metal to my skin. I flinch. Not because of the coolness but because even the light contact of the metal pressed against me reignites the sharp pain of my raw and bloodied skin.

 

“It’s all right,” she murmurs over and over, her voice doing that sing-song thing again where I don’t so much hear the words as feel safe and comforted by the sounds they make. A small light is shined directly into my pupils and then pulled away. I blink and squint until it disappears. I am asked to recite mundane facts. Date, time, my address. I stumble over my full address but manage to get out the correct alias in a garbled whisper.

 

When it’s over, I sit back. My throat burns and my chest aches.

 

“What do you think?” Linc asks when Josephine has thoroughly looked me over.

 

“Believe it or not, I don’t think anything’s broken,” she says. “This bruising to her windpipe is another story. And her chest and neck are pretty battered.”

 

My confusion is dulled by pain. How can my body hurt this badly and not be broken?

 

“Can we move her?” Linc asks.

 

“Let me give her something first,” Josephine adds. She reaches into her bag and produces a syringe identical to the one she used the day of my headache. Without being told, I stretch out my arm, exposing the vein in the crook of my elbow and will her to hurry.

 

She takes the time to swab my skin with a white cotton cloth and then the needle pricks as it enters and she depresses the plunger. I begin to count. At five, the pain recedes. At eight, it is bearable. At ten, I can breathe again.

 

“Better?” Josephine asks.

 

“Nod, don’t speak,” Linc reminds me. We both shoot him a look. “It might not hurt now but those drugs are only so strong.”

 

I decide it’s better to be safe than sorry and nod my agreement.

 

“Good, let’s get you inside,” Josephine says. She looks to Linc. “This would be easier with a gurney. A wheelchair. Something.” There is a hint of frustration I’ve never heard from her before. She’s usually so patient.

 

“He doesn’t want her to appear weak. You know there’s a crowd gathered at the door,” Linc says. “Half of them are reporters.”

 

“Isn’t there a back way in?” she asks.

 

“There is. He’s ordered us to bring her in the front. He wants them to see her walk away from this.”

 

“What the heck does he think she is? Some sort of superhero?”

 

Linc doesn’t answer. I see them exchange a look before finally turning back to me. “Do you think you can walk?” Josephine asks me gently.

 

We all know there’s no other choice but to say yes. I nod.

 

They talk me through how we’re going to do it and then gingerly, with one of them on each side, they pull me to my feet. The drugs have dialed the pain back enough that I manage to keep my legs under me. Josephine produces a towel and directs my hand to the place where pressure should be applied to stem the flow of blood. Then we are ready.

 

Adrenaline fuels my steps. I am determined to see this through. The thought of being in my own bed, the soft sheets, the mountain of blankets … Maybe Josephine will give me another shot and I can sink into oblivion and forget about what happened for a few hours.

 

“Wait,” Linc says, pulling us to a stop at the mouth of the alley. Already, I can hear the volume of the crowd gathered around the corner.

 

“What’s wrong?” Josephine asks.

 

“I think you should let me lead her inside. You can cut a path for us to get through.”

 

“Linc, I don’t know, she’s really unsteady.”

 

“You know it will only make her look weak to be carried by both of us.”

 

Josephine doesn’t argue.

 

“Raven?” Linc says. “Do you think you can walk well enough for Josephine to let go?”

 

I think long and hard about his question before answering. I do not want to say yes only to stumble and fall halfway there. But I know that Linc won’t let that happen. He will hold me up. I nod.

 

“Good girl. These people will be looking for weakness. Your attackers could be among them. You need to appear strong. Can you do that?”

 

I nod again.

 

Josephine slides her arm free from where she’s wedged it underneath my own. I lean harder on Linc to compensate. I waver and then recover as he pulls me closer against him. When I am ready, I put one foot in front of the other and we begin.

 

The men part for us as we pass. I see Gus watching but I turn away from him. He is no better than Titus, standing by and watching others try to kill me, only picking up the pieces when it’s clear they have failed. I hate him almost as much as I hate Titus Rogen. And that’s no small thing.

 

We pass through the last of the security perimeter and I see the onlookers. They are blocking traffic where they’ve crowded the street in front of Rogen Tower. The doorman is back, looking rumpled and scratched but otherwise intact. He looks beside himself with all of the bodies pressed in around him.

 

“Bad news travels fast,” Linc mutters.

 

Just along the front is a narrow pathway for me to pass by the cordoned area. It is so close to the surging crowd, I can feel some of them reach out and touch me as we pass. They all shout questions. Flashbulbs go off.

 

It is obvious why Titus wanted me to walk. These people are like vultures, claiming they want to see you well but ready to swoop in and devour you the moment you show vulnerability. I will not show them weakness. To do so would confirm everything Titus thinks about me.

 

I keep my head down, allowing my hair to curtain my face and as much of my neck as possible. Still, I can hear the gasps and whispers from those in the front as they see my bruised and bloody flesh. I know it must be bad.

 

After what feels like hours, we reach the lobby door. It is swept open with gusto as the doorman is finally allowed to complete his only task. We enter, and I can feel the moment it shuts again. The noise and swirling air cuts off abruptly and leaves a quietness broken only by the sound of our labored breaths as I hobble toward the elevator.

 

Josephine rushes ahead and presses the call button then races back to where Linc and I continue our trek, slow and steady. She hovers beside me, matching her pace to mine but never touching me. I can feel the stares of the crowd boring into my back through the glass front doors.

 

On the ride up, all I can think about is the redhead’s words: I know your secret.

 

When the elevator doors open, Josephine tucks her arm underneath mine and they lead me down the hall. By the time we reach my bedroom, I am terrified. I still haven’t seen or heard anyone since stepping off the elevator. Even Maria is conspicuously absent.

 

As I’m helped into bed, I am aware of the gown that still clings to me, though it hangs precariously off one shoulder and has holes all along the bottom hem. Neither Linc nor Josephine comments on it as they go to work bandaging my head.

 

They tuck me in and pull the covers up tight against my chin. Only then, with the silken sheets rubbing against my bare arms, do I realize I am shivering.

 

Linc and Josephine retreat and for a moment, I am scared they will leave me but they only hover near the door and exchange whispers.

 

“He’s going to be furious,” Linc says. “But I couldn’t just leave her there and keep going.”

 

“You did the right thing,” Josephine tells him.

 

He snorts. “That all depends on who you ask.”

 

“Who do you think she is, the girl who did this?”

 

“I don’t know. I didn’t get a very good look at her. That red mane of hers is pretty recognizable, though. Shouldn’t be hard to spot again.”

 

“You think she’s the one behind all of these attempts?”

 

“Maybe,” he says. “Gus will do a whole workup, I’m sure. Not that any of it will take into account her safety.” His voice turns to a growl on the last part. Something inside me flutters at his concern.

 

Josephine’s voice is full of understanding when she says, “But that is obviously why she has you.”

 

Linc doesn’t answer but I can hear him shift his weight and I know they are still there. I begin to drift on a cloud of medication and exhaustion when a sharp knock sounds. The door opens.

 

Titus steps in, jarring me awake. Some of the pain returns. He engages Josephine in hushed conversation. Then it is Linc’s turn. Titus’s expression is deadly serious but there is no trace of stress or worry, only concentration. He asks Linc something and then scowls at the response. Before I can guess what it is, Titus breaks away and strides toward the bed.

 

“Raven, how are you feeling?” he asks, peering down at me with an expression devoid of concern.

 

“I’ve advised her not to speak until I can evaluate any possible damage to her throat,” Josephine says.

 

Titus waves a hand at her response, never even looking at her. “Raven?” he repeats. “How are you feeling?”

 

I lick my lips and open my mouth. The croak that comes out is nothing like my voice but it is sound nonetheless. “It hurts.”

 

He nods, as if that’s the only obvious answer. “Josephine will give you another injection to help you sleep. You did well tonight. Rest and we will speak more tomorrow. There’s a party in the evening I want you to be prepared for.”

 

“A party?” My croak is louder this time.

 

“Sir, tomorrow?” Linc says from his place near the door.

 

Titus ignores both of us and smiles his crooked smile. “As I said, we’ll talk in the morning. Get some rest.”

 

I am too disgusted to argue with him. He nods at Josephine before closing the door behind him. It isn’t until after he’s gone that I realize I still haven’t told anyone what the redhead said to me about my secret. But right this moment, I don’t want to. The only one I trust to save me is Linc. He’s also the one person I can’t afford to tell the truth.

 

Josephine is the first to speak, muttering incoherently under her breath. It is another break in her otherwise patient exterior, and I wonder just what she thinks of Titus Rogen. Linc’s thoughts are more obvious. His hands are fisted at his sides and he stares at a spot on the wall only he can see. Josephine has to shake him to get his attention. Even then, he flinches as if he might strike out at her. She shrinks back and his shoulders relax.

 

“Sorry,” he tells her.

 

“No harm, no foul,” she says as she crosses to the bedside. She props her bag on the blankets beside me and begins searching through it with both hands. “Linc, I’m going to need your help, if you don’t mind.”

 

“What do you need me to do?” he asks, coming around to my other side. His gaze flickers to my neck and the ink there. I look away.

 

Josephine hands him several packets of plastic, completely oblivious. “Unwrap these and lay them here. I want to take some swabs for testing,” she says.

 

My mouth, nose, and ears are swabbed with cotton that she places inside twist-top canisters. My vitals are taken. Twice. Then she peels the blanket away and directs Linc to adjust two different lamps to improve the lighting around me.

 

I lie very still while her fingertips trail lightly over my chest and neck.

 

“I’m going to apply a cream to some of these bruises,” she says to me. “It’s going to hurt.”

 

“Okay,” I whisper.

 

“I can give you another injection to help you sleep, but it would be more effective if you can wait until I’m done with the cream. Can you do that?”

 

“I’ll try.” My voice is barely above a whisper but Josephine nods in understanding. She reaches into her bag and begins pulling out supplies.

 

On my other side, a hand slips into mine. I look over at Linc, then down at our joined hands. His fingertips rest lightly against my palm, his hand weightless against me. He is afraid to hurt me. I curl my fingers around his and squeeze. He squeezes back and smiles, but it’s pained.

 

Josephine wasn’t lying about the cream. It hurts. The moment her hand touches my skin, the burning erupts. I shift and squirm, biting my cheek to remain still and not make it worse.

 

Her touch is feather-light against my skin and still it leaves a trail of fire behind. I have yet to see the damage for myself but I know it cannot be pretty if the pain returns so readily.

 

“How are you doing?” she asks, still intent on what she’s doing below my collarbone.

 

“Fine,” I lie.

 

I tighten my grip on Linc’s hand.

 

“It’s over,” she says finally.

 

My cheeks are stained with moisture. Linc is watching me. His relief matches mine.

 

Josephine forces a smile. “You did very well,” she says. “And that cream will help. By morning, it won’t feel as raw.” She frowns. “Nothing I can do about the bruising,” she adds.

 

“It’s going to be bad,” Linc agrees, his voice a growl. “How can he expect her to go out tomorrow night?”

 

I don’t hear Josephine’s response. The pain is building again, leaving behind a roaring in my ears. I don’t realize I’ve made a sound until their conversation cuts off and they glance at me. Josephine scoots closer, a syringe already in her hand.

 

“I’m going to give you that second injection now,” she says.

 

I nod, which I hope she takes as a signal to hurry. I squeeze my hands together as the medicine is forced into my vein and like before, I count to ten. A soft sigh escapes my lips as the pain recedes. My eyelids become heavy with the weight of the medicine and I let them close, enjoying the sensation of floating for as long as it will have me.

 

The mattress shifts as Josephine rises. I listen as she moves about, straightening up and gathering her things. A moment later, I feel a strand of hair brush along my shoulder as she bends over me. “Get some rest,” she says. “I’ll be back in the morning to check on you.”

 

I give a small nod, not wanting to spoil the relief I feel by talking or moving more than I have to.

 

“You were very brave tonight,” she adds.

 

Then she is gone.

 

Linc is beside me, his hand still in mine. I don’t want him to go. The idea of him leaving makes me afraid for the first time since I was dragged into the alleyway.

 

“Don’t go,” I whisper.

 

I open my eyes just as he raises his to my face. I know he was staring at my chest again. I’m sure there’s an irony there but I can’t bring myself to joke with him right now. The idea of laughing hurts.

 

“I won’t,” he promises.

 

The drugs make my limbs heavy, my thoughts thick. I have trouble keeping my lids open and after a few moments, I let them close and just lie there, half awake, half falling off the edge. Oblivion sounds good.

 

When the mattress shifts and Linc’s hand slides free of mine, I bolt upright—and immediately regret it. I cry out and he is there immediately, guiding me back with gentle hands. “It’s okay, I’m not going anywhere,” he says. He sits next to me, shoulder to shoulder, and slides his hand back into mine. Even with the blanket and a few inches of space between us, my nerve endings hum at his closeness. Or maybe it’s the medicine.

 

I begin to relax again.

 

“I recognized her,” I whisper after a moment.

 

“Who?”

 

“The girl who attacked me tonight. I’ve seen her before.”

 

He stills beside me but don’t look, unsure how far I want to take it. How much can I tell him?

 

“Where?”

 

“That first party I went to, with Taylor, when you saved me on the rooftop. She was there in the lobby when I arrived. Gus saw her too.”

 

“Gus saw her?” he repeats. I can tell this is new information to him.

 

“Yes. And there was a boy with her. I don’t remember him as well. He stayed farther back.”

 

Linc is quiet for a long time. I wonder what it means if Gus hasn’t said anything about that night. “What did she want?” he asks finally.

 

“She asked for my autograph. She took my picture.”

 

There is an odd note to his voice when he asks, “Did you give it to her?”

 

“Yes.” I try to shrug but it hurts and the motion is jerky and awkward. “She seemed so …”

 

“Harmless?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“I think that’s the point.”

 

There’s something in his voice. Hesitancy, though I can’t understand why. I recognize it because I have the same feeling. I don’t tell him what she said to me about my secret. Instead I say, “She got away tonight.”

 

It’s not a question but he answers anyway. “Yes.”

 

“Who is she, Linc?”

 

He doesn’t respond and I wonder if he knows more about this girl than he’s let on. There is something he doesn’t want to say. “Where did you get that tattoo, Raven?”

 

The change of subject is unexpected. My brain is foggy from the drugs and I can’t remember which lie I should tell. “I’ve had it since the beginning,” I mumble.

 

“The beginning of what?”

 

“Of me.”

 

“So, you’ve had it since you were born? You were given a tattoo as a baby?”

 

“No. I … not a baby.” An alarm bell sounds in the back of my mind. I am dangerously close to a line that, once crossed, cannot be uncrossed.

 

Linc knows it, and he presses. “What does it mean?”

 

I decide to tell as much of the truth as I can and hope it satisfies. I am too muddled, too exhausted to lie. “The tree represents life.”

 

“And the numbers along the branches?”

 

I curse inwardly. He’s seen more of it than I thought. But I cannot tell him about the numbers. “Linc, I’m tired.”

 

“You’re not a very good liar, Raven.” He isn’t angry, only resigned. We both know the truth will come—eventually. Only, not tonight. Not like this.

 

I sigh and lean my head on his shoulder. “I know.”

 

 

 

 

 

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