chapter 15 Stars, Hide Your Fires
Stars, hide your fires;
Let not light see my black and deep desires.
-Shakespeare, Macbeth
Consul Wayland,
I write to you on a matter of the gravest import. One of the Shadowhunters of my Institute, William Herondale, is upon the road to Cadair Idris even as I write. He has discovered along the way an unmistakable sign of Miss Gray's passage. I enclose his letter for your perusal, but I am sure you will agree that the whereabouts of Mortmain are now established and that we must with all haste assemble what forces we can and march immediately upon Cadair Idris. Mortmain has shown in the past a remarkable ability to slip from the nets we cast. We must take advantage of this moment and strike with all possible haste and force. I await your speedy reply.
Charlotte Branwell
The room was cold. The fire had long burned down in the grate, and the wind outside was howling around the corners of the Institute, rattling the panes of the windows. The lamp on the nightstand was turned down low, and Tessa shivered in the armchair by the bed, despite the shawl wrapped tightly around her shoulders.
In the bed Jem was asleep, his head pillowed on his hand. He breathed just enough to move the blankets slightly, though his face was as pale as the pillows.
Tessa stood, letting the shawl slip from her shoulders. She was in her nightgown, the way she had been the first time she had ever met Jem, bursting into his room to find him playing the violin by the window. Will? he had said. Will, is that you?
He stirred and murmured now as she crawled into the bed with him, drawing the blankets over them both. She cupped her hands around his and held their joined hands between them. She tangled their feet together and kissed his cool cheek, warming his skin with her breath. Slowly she felt him stir against her, as if her presence were bringing him to life.
His eyes opened and looked into hers. They were blue, achingly blue, the blue of the sky where it meets the sea.
"Tessa?" Will said, and she realized it was Will in her arms, Will who was dying, Will breathing out his last breath-and there was blood on his shirt, just over his heart, a spreading red stain-
Tessa sat bolt upright, gasping. For a moment she stared about her, disoriented. The tiny, dark room, the musty blanket wrapped around her, her own damp clothes and bruised body, seemed foreign to her. Then memory came back in a flood, and with it a wave of nausea.
She missed the Institute piercingly, in a way she had never even missed her home in New York. She missed Charlotte's bossy but caring voice, Sophie's understanding touch, Henry's puttering, and of course-she could not help it-she missed Jem and Will. She was terrified for Jem, for his health, but she was frightened for Will as well. The battle in the courtyard had been bloody, vicious. Any of them could have been hurt or killed. Was that the meaning of her dream, Jem turning into Will? Was Jem ill, was Will's life in danger? Not either of them, she prayed silently. Please, let me die before harm comes to either of them.
A noise startled her out of her reverie-a sudden dry scraping that sent a brutal shiver down her spine. She froze. Surely it was just the scratching of a branch against the window. But, no-there it came again. A scraping, dragging noise.
Tessa was on her feet in a moment, the blanket still wrapped around her. Terror was like a live thing inside her. All the tales she had ever heard of monsters in the dark woods seemed to be fighting for space in her mind. She closed her eyes, drawing a deep breath, and saw the spindly automatons on the front steps of the Institute, their shadows long and grotesque, like human beings pulled out of shape.
She drew the blanket closer around herself, her fingers closing spasmodically on the material. The automatons had come for her on the Institute steps. But they were not very intelligent-able to follow simple commands, to recognize particular human beings. Still, they could not think for themselves. They were machines, and machines could be fooled.
The blanket was patchwork, the kind that would have been sewed by a woman, a woman who had lived in this house. Tessa drew in her breath and reached-reached into the blanket, searching for a flicker of ownership, the signature of whatever spirit had created and owned it. It was like plunging her hand into dark water and feeling around for an object. After what felt like an age of searching, she lit upon it-a flicker in the darkness, the solidity of a soul.
She concentrated on it, wrapping it around her like the blanket she clung to. The Change was easier now, less painful. She saw her fingers warp and change, becoming the clubbed, arthritic hands of an old woman. Liver spots rose on her skin, her back hunched, and her dress began to hang off her withered form. When her hair fell in front of her eyes, it was white.
The scraping sound came again. A voice echoed in the back of Tessa's mind, a querulous old woman's voice demanding to know who was in her house. Tessa stumbled for the door, her breath coming short, her heart fluttering in her chest, and made for the main room of the house.
For a moment she saw nothing. Her eyes were rheumy, filmed over; shapes looked blurred and distant. Then something rose from beside the fire, and Tessa bit back a scream.
It was an automaton. This one was built to look nearly human. It had a thick body, clothed in a dark gray suit, but the arms that protruded from beyond the cuffs were stick-thin, ending in spatulate hands, and the head that rose above the collar was smooth and egglike. Two bulbous eyes were set into the head, but the machine had no other features.
"Who are you?" Tessa demanded in the old woman's voice, brandishing the sharp pick she had taken earlier. "What are you doing in my house, creature?"
The thing made a whirring, clicking noise, obviously confused. A moment later the front door opened and Mrs. Black swept in. She was wrapped in her dark cloak, her white face blazing under the hood. "What's going on here?" she demanded. "Did you find-" She broke off, staring at Tessa.
"What's going on?" Tessa demanded, her voice coming out in the old woman's high whine. "I ought to ask you that-breaking into perfectly decent folks' homes-" She blinked, as if to make it clear she couldn't see very well. "Get out of here, and take your friend"-she jabbed the object she held (A frog pick, said the voice of the old woman in her mind; you use it for cleaning horse's hooves, silly girl)-"with you. You'll find nothing here worth stealing."
For a moment she thought it had worked. Mrs. Black's face was expressionless. She took a step forward. "You haven't seen a young girl in these parts, have you?" she asked. "Very finely dressed, brown hair, gray eyes. She would have looked lost. Her people are looking for her and offering a handsome reward."
"A likely story, looking for some lost girl." Tessa sounded as surly as she could; it wasn't difficult. She had a feeling the old woman whose face she was wearing had been a naturally surly sort. "Get out I said!"
The automaton whirred. Mrs. Black's lips pressed suddenly together, as if she were holding back laughter. "I see," she said. "Might I say that's quite a fine necklace you're wearing, old woman?"
Tessa's hand flew to her chest, but it was already too late. The clockwork angel was there, clearly visible, ticking gently. "Take her," said Mrs. Black in a bored voice, and the automaton lurched forward, reaching for Tessa. She dropped the blanket and backed away, brandishing her frog pick. She managed to rake quite a long gash down the automaton's front as it reached for her and knocked her arm aside. The frog pick clattered to the floor, and Tessa cried out in pain just as the front door burst open and a flood of automatons filled the room, their arms reaching for her, their mechanical hands closing on her flesh. Knowing she was overpowered, knowing it would not do a bit of good, she finally allowed herself to scream.
Sun on his face woke Will. He blinked, opening his eyes slowly.
Blue sky.
He rolled over and stretched stiffly into a sitting position. He was on the rise of a green hill, just out of sight of the Shrewsbury-Welshpool road. He could see nothing all around him but scattered farmhouses in the distance; he had passed only a few tiny hamlets on his frantic midnight ride away from the Green Man, riding until he literally slid from Balios's back in exhaustion and hit the dirt with bone-jarring force. Half-walking and half-crawling, he had let his exhausted horse nose him off the road and into a slight dip in the ground, where he had curled up and fallen asleep, heedless of the drizzle of cold rain that had still been falling.
Sometime between then and now the sun had come up, drying his clothes and hair, though he was still dirty, his shirt a mess of caked mud and blood. He rose to his feet, his whole body aching. He hadn't bothered with any kind of healing runes the previous night. He'd gone into the inn-tracking rain and mud behind him-only to retrieve his things, before returning to the stables to free Balios and hurtle off into the night. The injuries he'd sustained in his battle against Woolsey's pack still hurt, as did the bruises from falling off the horse. He limped stiffly to where Balios was cropping grass near the shade of a spreading oak tree. A rummage through the saddlebags yielded a stele and a handful of dried fruit. He used the one to trace himself with painkilling and healing runes in between taking bites of the other.
The events of the night before seemed a thousand miles away. He remembered fighting the wolves, the splinter of bones and the taste of his own blood, the mud and the rain. He remembered the pain of the severance from Jem, though he could no longer feel it. Instead of pain he felt hollowness. As if some great hand had reached down and cut everything that made him human out of his insides, leaving him a shell.
When he was done with his breakfast, he returned his stele to his saddlebag, stripped off his ruined shirt, and changed into a clean one. As he did so, he could not help but glance down at the parabatai rune on his chest.
It was not black, but silver-white, like a long-faded scar. Will could hear Jem's voice in his head, steady and serious and familiar: "And it came to pass ... that the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul.... Then Jonathan and David made a covenant, because he loved him as his own soul." They were two warriors, and their souls were knit together by Heaven, and out of that Jonathan Shadowhunter took the idea of parabatai, and encoded the ceremony into the Law.
For years now this Mark and Jem's presence had been all Will had had in his life to assure him that he was loved by anybody. All that he'd had to know that he was real and existed. He traced his fingers over the edges of the faded parabatai rune. He had thought he would hate it, hate the sight of it in sunlight, but he found to his surprise that he didn't. He was glad the parabatai rune had not simply vanished off his skin. A Mark that spoke of loss was still a Mark, a remembrance. You could not lose something you had never had.
Out of the saddlebag he took the knife Jem had given him: a narrow blade with the intricate silver handle. In the shadow of the oak tree, he cut the palm of his hand and watched as the blood ran onto the ground, soaking the earth. Then he knelt and plunged the blade into the bloody ground. Kneeling, he hesitated, one hand on the hilt.
"James Carstairs," he said, and swallowed. It was always this way; when he needed words the most, he could not find them. The words of the biblical parabatai oath came into his head: Entreat me not to leave thee, or to return from following after thee-for whither thou goest, I will go, and where thou lodgest, I will lodge. Thy people shall be my people, and thy God my God. Where thou diest, will I die, and there will I be buried. The Angel do so to me, and more also, if aught but death part thee and me.
But no. That was what was said when you were joined, not when you were cut apart. David and Jonathan had been separated, too, by death. Separated but not divided.
"I told you before, Jem, that you would not leave me," Will said, his bloody hand on the hilt of the dagger. "And you are still with me. When I breathe, I will think of you, for without you I would have been dead years ago. When I wake up and when I sleep, when I lift up my hands to defend myself or when I lie down to die, you will be with me. You say we are born and born again. I say there is a river that divides the dead and the living. What I do know is that if we are born again, I will meet you in another life, and if there is a river, you will wait on the shores for me to come to you, so that we can cross together." Will took a deep breath and let go of the knife. He drew his hand back. The cut on his palm was already healing-the result of the half dozen iratzes on his skin. "You hear that, James Carstairs? We are bound, you and I, over the divide of death, down through whatever generations may come. Forever."
He rose to his feet and looked down at the knife. The knife was Jem's, the blood was his. This spot of ground, whether he could ever find it again, whether he lived to try, would be theirs.
He turned to walk toward Balios, toward Wales and Tessa. He did not look back.
To: Charlotte Branwell
From: Consul Josiah Wayland
By footman
My Dear Mrs. Branwell,
I am not certain that I perfectly understood your missive. It seems incredible to me that a sensible woman such as yourself should place such reliance on the bare word of a boy as notoriously reckless and unreliable as William Herondale has time and again proven himself to be. I certainly will not do so. Mr. Herondale has, as shown by his own letter, raced away on a wild chase without your knowledge. He is absolutely capable of fabrication in order to aid his cause. I will not send a large force of my Shadowhunters on the whim and careless word of a boy.
Pray cease your peremptory rallying cries to Cadair Idris. Attempt to keep in mind that I am the Consul. I command the armies of the Shadowhunters, madam, not yourself. Fix your mind instead on an attempt to better keep your Shadowhunters in check.
Yours truly,
Josiah Wayland, Consul
"There's a man here to see you, Mrs. Branwell."
Charlotte glanced up wearily to see Sophie standing in the doorway. She looked tired, as they all did; the unmistakable traces of weeping were beneath her eyes. Charlotte knew the signs-she had seen them in her own mirror that morning.
She sat behind the desk in the drawing room, staring down at the letter in her hand. She had not expected Consul Wayland to be pleased by her news, but neither had she expected this blank contempt and refusal. I command the armies of the Shadowhunters, madam, not yourself. Fix your mind instead on an attempt to better keep your Shadowhunters in check.
Keep them in check. She fumed. As if they were all children and she no better than their governess or nursemaid, parading them in front of the Consul when they were washed and dressed, and hiding them in the playroom the rest of the time that he not be disturbed. They were Shadowhunters, and so was she. And if he did not think that Will was reliable, he was a fool. He knew of the curse; she had told him herself. Will's madness had always been like Hamlet's, half play and half wildness, and all driving toward a certain end.
The fire crackled in the grate; outside, the rain sheeted down, painting the windowpanes in silver lines. That morning she had passed Jem's bedroom, the door open, the bed divested of its linens, the possessions cleared away. It could have been anyone's room. All the evidence of his years with them, gone with the wave of a hand. She had leaned against the wall of the corridor, sweat beading on her brow, her eyes burning. Raziel, did I do the right thing?
She passed her hand over her eyes now. "Now, of all times? It isn't Consul Wayland, is it?"
"No, ma'am." Sophie shook her dark head. "It's Aloysius Starkweather. He says it is a matter of the greatest urgency."
"Aloysius Starkweather?" Charlotte sighed. Some days simply piled horror on horror. "Well, let him in, then."
She folded the letter she had written as a response to the Consul, and had just sealed it when Sophie returned and ushered Aloysius Starkweather into the room, before excusing herself. Charlotte did not rise from her desk. Starkweather looked much as he had the last time she had seen him. He seemed to have calcified, as if while he was getting no younger, he could get no older either. His face was a map of wrinkled lines, framed with a white beard and white hair. His clothes were dry; Sophie must have hung his overcoat downstairs. The suit he wore was at least ten years out of fashion, and he smelled faintly of old mothballs.
"Please be seated, Mr. Starkweather," said Charlotte as courteously as she could to someone who she knew disliked her, and had hated her father.
But he did not sit down. His hands were locked behind his back, and as he turned, surveying the room around him, Charlotte saw with a flash of alarm that one of the cuffs of his jacket was splattered with blood.
"Mr. Starkweather," she said, and now she did rise. "Are you hurt? Should I summon the Brothers?"
"Hurt?" he barked out. "Why would I be hurt?"
"Your sleeve." She pointed.
He drew his arm away and gazed at it before huffing out a laugh. "Not my blood," he said. "I was in a fight, earlier. He took objection ..."
"Took objection to what?"
"To my cutting off all his fingers and then slitting his throat," said Starkweather, meeting her eyes. His own were gray-black, the color of stone.
"Aloysius." Charlotte forgot to be polite. "The Accords forbid unproved attacks on Downworlders."
"Unprovoked? I'd say this was provoked. His folk murdered my granddaughter. My daughter nearly died of grief. The house of Starkweather destroyed-"
"Aloysius!" Charlotte was seriously alarmed now. "Your house is not destroyed. There are still Starkweathers in Idris. I do not say that to minimize your sorrow, for some losses are with us always." Jem, she thought, unbidden, and the pain of the thought pushed her back into the chair. She rested her elbows on the table, her face in her hands. "I do not know why you came to tell me this now," she murmured. "Did you not see the runes upon the door of the Institute? This is a time of great sorrow for us-"
"I came to tell you because it's important!" Aloysius flared up. "It regards Mortmain, and Tessa Gray."
Charlotte lowered her hands. "What do you know of Tessa Gray?"
Aloysius had turned away. He stood facing the fire, his long shadow cast across the Persian rug on the floor. "I am not a man who thinks much of the Accords," he said. "You know it; you have been in Councils with me. I was brought up to believe that everything touched by demons was foul and corrupt. That it was the blood right of a Shadowhunter to kill these creatures and to take what they had as spoils and treasure. The spoils room of the Institute in York was left in my charge, and I kept it filled until the day the new Laws were passed." He scowled.
"Let me guess," said Charlotte. "You did not stop there."
"Of course not," said the old man. "What are man's Laws to the Angel's? I know the right way of doing things. I kept a lower profile, but I did not cease taking spoils, or destroying those Downworlders who crossed my path. One of those was John Shade."
"Mortmain's father."
"Warlocks cannot have children," snarled Starkweather. "Some human boy they found and trained up. Shade taught him his unholy tinkering ways. Won his trust."
"It's unlikely the Shades stole Mortmain from his parents," said Charlotte. "He was probably a boy who would have died in a workhouse otherwise."
"It was unnatural. Warlocks should not have human children to raise." Aloysius stared deep within the red embers of the fire. "That is why we raided Shade's house. We killed him and his wife. The boy escaped. Shade's clockwork prince." He snorted. "We took several of his items back with us to the Institute, but none of us could make head or tail of them. That was all there was to it-a routine raid. Everything according to plan. That is, until my granddaughter was born. Adele."
"I know that she died at her first rune ceremony," said Charlotte, her hand unconsciously going to her own belly. "I am sorry. It is a great sorrow to have a sickly child-"
"She was not born sickly!" he barked. "She was a healthy infant. Beautiful, with my son's eyes. Everyone doted on her, until one morning my daughter-in-law woke us with a scream. She insisted that the child in her cradle was not her daughter, though they looked exactly alike. She swore she knew her own child and this was not it. We thought she had gone mad. Even when the baby's eyes changed from blue to gray-well, that happens often with infants. It wasn't until we tried to apply her first Marks that I began to realize my daughter-in-law had been right. Adele-the pain was excruciating for her. She screamed and screamed and writhed. Her skin burned where the stele touched her. The Silent Brothers did all they could, but by the next morning she was dead."
Aloysius paused and was silent for a long time, gazing, as if fascinated, into the fire.
"My daughter-in-law nearly went mad. She could not bear to remain in the Institute. I stayed. I knew she had been correct-Adele was not my granddaughter. I heard rumors of faeries and other Downworlders who boasted that they had had their revenge on the Starkweathers, had taken one of their children from them and replaced her with a sickly human. None of my investigations yielded anything concrete, but I was determined to find out where my granddaughter had gone." He leaned on the mantel. "I had nearly given up when Tessa Gray came to my Institute in the company of your two Shadowhunters. She could have been the ghost of my daughter-in-law, so similar did they look. But she did not appear to have any Shadowhunter blood. It was a mystery, but one I pursued.
"The faerie I interrogated today gave me the last bits of the puzzle. In her infancy my granddaughter was replaced with a kidnapped human child, a sickly creature who died when the Marks were applied, because she was not Nephilim." There was a hard crack in his voice now, a fissure in the flint. "My granddaughter was left with a mundane family to raise her, their sickly Elizabeth-chosen because of her superficial resemblance to Adele-replaced with our healthy girl. That was the Court's revenge on me. They believed I had killed their own, so they would kill mine." His eyes were cold as they rested on Charlotte. "Adele-Elizabeth-grew to womanhood in that mundane family, never knowing what she was. And then she married. A mundane man. His name was Richard. Richard Gray."
"Your granddaughter," Charlotte said slowly, "was Tessa's mother? Elizabeth Gray? Tessa's mother was a Shadowhunter?"
"Yes."
"These are crimes, Aloysius. You should go to the Council with this-"
"They do not care about Tessa Gray," said Starkweather roughly. "But you do. You will listen to my story because of it, and you may help me because of it."
"I may," said Charlotte, "if it is the right thing to do. I do not yet understand how Mortmain comes into this story."
Aloysius moved restlessly. "Mortmain learned of what had happened and determined that he would make use of Elizabeth Gray, a Shadowhunter who did not know she was a Shadowhunter. I believe that Mortmain courted Richard Gray as an employee in order to grant himself access to Elizabeth. I believe that he loosed an Eidolon demon upon her-my granddaughter-in the shape of her husband, and that he did it in order to get Tessa on her. Tessa was always the goal. The child of a Shadowhunter and a demon."
"But the offspring of demons and Shadowhunters are stillborn," Charlotte said automatically.
"Even if the Shadowhunter does not know they are a Shadowhunter?" said Starkweather. "Even if they carry no runes?"
"I ..." Charlotte closed her mouth. She had no idea what the answer was; as far as she knew, the situation had never occurred. Shadowhunters were marked when children, male and female, all of them.
But Elizabeth Gray had not been.
"I know the girl is a shape-shifter," said Starkweather. "But I do not believe that is why he wants her. There is something else he wants her to do. Something only she can do. She is the key."
"The key to what?"
"It was the last words the faerie spoke to me this afternoon." Starkweather glanced at the blood on his sleeve. "He said, 'She is to be our vengeance for all your wasteful death. She will bring ruin to the Nephilim, and London will burn, and when the Magister rules over all, you will be no more to him than cattle in a pen.' Even if the Consul does not wish to go after Tessa for her own sake, they ought to go after her to prevent that."
"If they believe it," said Charlotte.
"Coming from your lips, they must," said Starkweather. "If it came from me, they would laugh me off as a mad old man, as they have done for years."
"Oh, Aloysius. You far overestimate the trust the Consul has in me. He will say I am a foolish, credulous woman. He will say the faerie lied to you-well, they cannot lie, but twisted the truth, or repeated the truth as he believed it."
The old man looked away, his mouth working. "Tessa Gray is the key to Mortmain's plan," he said. "I do not know how, but she is. I have come to you because I do not trust the Council with Tessa. She is part demon. I remember what in the past I have done to things that were part demon or supernatural."
"Tessa is not a thing," Charlotte said. "She is a girl, and she has been kidnapped and is probably terrified. Don't you think if I could have thought of a way to save her already, I would have done it?"
"I have done wrong," said Aloysius. "I want to make this right. My blood runs in that girl's veins, even if demon blood does as well. She is my great-granddaughter." He raised his chin, his watery, pale eyes rimmed with red. "I ask only one thing of you, Charlotte. When you find Tessa Gray, and you will find her, tell her she is welcome to the name of Starkweather."
Do not make me regret that I have trusted you, Gabriel Lightwood.
Gabriel sat at the desk in his room, writing paper spread out before him, pen in hand. The lamps in the room were not lit, and the shadows were dark in the corners, and long across the floors.
To: Consul Josiah Wayland
From: Gabriel Lightwood
Most Honored Consul,
I write to you today at last with the news that you requested of me. I had expected it to come from Idris, but as chance would have it, its source is much closer to home. Today Aloysius Starkweather, head of the York Institute, came to call upon Mrs. Branwell.
He set the pen down and took a deep breath. He had heard the bell of the Institute ring earlier, had watched from the stairs as Sophie had ushered Starkweather into the house and up to the drawing room. It was easy enough after that to station himself at the door and listen to everything that passed within the room.
Charlotte did not, after all, expect to be spied on.
He is an old man gone mad with grief, and as such he has created an elaborate set of fabrications with which he explains to himself his great loss. He is certainly to be pitied, but not to be taken seriously, nor should the policy of the Council rest upon the words of the untrustworthy and the mad.
The floorboards creaked; Gabriel's head jerked up. His heart was pounding. If it was Gideon-Gideon would be horrified to discover what he was doing. They all would. He thought of the look of betrayal that would bloom across Charlotte's small face if she knew. Henry's bewildered anger. Most of all he thought of a pair of blue eyes in a heart-shaped face, looking at him with disappointment. Maybe I have faith in you, Gabriel Lightwood.
When he set the pen back to the letter, he did so with such ferocity that the pen nearly tore through the paper.
I regret to report this, but they spoke together of both Council and Consul with great disrespect. It is clear that Mrs. Branwell resents what she sees as unnecessary interference in her plans. She met Mr. Starkweather's wild claims, such as that Mortmain has bred demons and Shadowhunters together, a clear impossibility, with sheer credulousness. It appears that you were correct, and that she is far too headstrong and easily influenced to head an Institute properly.
Gabriel bit his lip and forced himself not to think of Cecily; instead he thought of Lightwood House, his birthright; the good name of the Lightwoods restored; the safety of his brother and sister. He was not really harming Charlotte. It was only a question of her position, not her safety. The Consul had no dark plans for her. Surely she would be happier in Idris, or in some country house, watching her children run over green lawns and not worrying constantly about the fate of all Shadowhunters.
Though Mrs. Branwell exhorts you to send a force of Shadowhunters to Cadair Idris, anyone who makes the opinions of madmen and hysterics the cornerstone of their policies lacks the objectivity to be trusted.
If necessary, I shall swear by the Mortal Sword that all this is true.
Yours in Raziel's name,
Gabriel Lightwood