“. . . unaware,” Lissa finished, “that t-t-tonight we’d be d-d-dumped. ”
“Speaking of,” Chloe said to me, “how’d that go?”
“Don’t ask,” I said.
Lissa was full-out crying now, her face buried in my shoulder. Over Chloe’s head I could see Bendo was fully packed, with a line out the door. “Let’s get out of here,” I said to Jess, and she nodded. “This night has sucked anyway.”
Chloe dropped down into the front passenger seat, punching in the car lighter as Jess cranked the engine. Lissa blew her nose in the paper towel I handed her, then settled into small, quick sobs, curling against me. As we pulled out I patted her head, knowing how much it had to hurt. There is nothing so bad as the first time.
Of course we had to have another round of Zip Drinks. Then Chloe left, and Jess pulled back out into traffic to take me and Lissa to my house.
We were almost to the turnoff to my neighborhood when Jess suddenly slowed down and said, very quietly, to me, “There’s Adam.” I cut my eyes to the left, and sure enough, Adam and his friends were standing around in the parking lot in front of the Coffee Shack. What really bugged me was that he was smiling. Jerk.
I glanced behind me, but Lissa had her eyes closed, stretched out across the backseat, listening to the radio.
“Pull in,” I said to Jess. I turned around in my seat. “Hey Liss?”
“Hmmm?” she said.
“Be still, okay? Stay down.”
“Okay,” she said uncertainly.
We chugged along. Jess said, “You or me?”
“Me,” I told her, taking a last sip of my drink. “I need this tonight.”
Jess pushed the gas a little harder.
“You ready?” she asked me.
I nodded, my Zip Diet balanced in my hand. Perfect.
Jess gunned it, hard, and we were moving. By the time Adam looked over at us, it was too late.
It wasn’t my best. But it wasn’t bad either. As we whizzed by, the cup turned end over end in the air, seeming weightless. It hit him square in the back of the head, spilling Diet Coke and ice in a wave down his back.
“Goddammit!” he yelled after us as we blew past. “Lissa! Dammit! Remy! You bitch!”
He was still yelling when I lost sight of him.
After a sleeve and a half of Oreos, four cigarettes, and enough Kleenex to pad the world, I finally got Lissa to go to sleep. She was out instantly, breathing through her nose, legs tangled around my comforter.
I got a blanket, one pillow, and went into my closet, where I stretched out across the floor. I could see her from where I was, and made sure she was still sleeping soundly as I pushed aside the stack of shoe boxes I kept in the far right corner and pulled out the bundle I kept there, hidden away. I’d had such a bad night. I didn’t do this all the time, but some nights I just needed it. Nobody knew.
I curled up, pulling the blanket over me, and opened the folded towel, taking out my portable CD player and headphones. Then I slipped them on, turned off the light, and skipped to track seven. There was a skylight in my closet, and if I lay just right, the moonlight fell in a square right across me. Sometimes I could even see stars.
The song starts slowly. A bit of guitar, just a few chords. Then a voice, one I knew so well. The words I knew by heart. They did mean something to me. Nobody had to know. But they did.
This lullaby is only a few words
A simple run of chords
Quiet here in this spare room
But you can hear it, hear it
Wherever you may go
I will let you down
But this lullaby plays on. . . .
I’d fall asleep to it, to his voice. I always did. Every time.
Chapter Three
“Aiiiieeeeeee!”
“Mother of pearl!” “Oh, suuuugggaaarrr!”
In the waiting room, the two ladies on deck for manicures looked at each other, then at me.
“Bikini wax,” I explained.
“Oh,” said one, and went back to her magazine. The other just sat there, ears perked like a hunting hound, waiting for the next shriek. It wasn’t long before Mrs. Michaels, enduring her monthly appointment, delivered.
“H-E-double-hockey-sticks!” Mrs. Michaels was the wife of one of the local ministers, and loved God almost as much as having a smooth, hairless body. In the year I’d worked at Joie Salon, I’d heard more cussing from the back room where Talinga worked her wax strips than all the other rooms combined. And that included bad manicures, botched haircuts, and even one woman who was near perturbed about a seaweed body wrap that turned her the color of key lime pie.