“We’ll talk when we get home,” was Max’s alarming answer.
I wanted to push it, in fact, my palms were itching and words were on the tip of my tongue, I wanted so badly to push it. Something was wrong and I didn’t know what it was. I didn’t even know if I wanted to know what it was. I just knew I had to know. With effort, I kept silent all the way to the house.
Snow had started gently falling by the time we turned into the road that would turn into the other road that led to his house.
Max parked and jumped down. I did too.
He hit the front door far faster than me mainly because he wasn’t wearing high-heeled boots but this could also be attributed to the fact that his legs were a lot longer than mine.
I followed through the open door Max didn’t close. I closed it and my eyes went to him as I shrugged off my coat. He was in the kitchen heading to the fridge. I hooked my coat on a dining room chair and heard the hiss of a cap coming off a beer. I turned to the kitchen and saw him with his head back, taking a drink.
I stopped at the edge of the counter and watched as he dropped his beer hand and leaned into his other hand on the counter.
I pulled up the courage to start. “Max –”
But Max spoke over me.
“I know the situation was extreme but is it too fuckin’ much to ask you not to sit in another man’s lap when I’m standin’ in the room? Scratch that. Is it too fuckin’ much to ask it even if I’m in another fuckin’ state?”
I felt my mouth drop open and my stomach pitch.
“Sorry?” I whispered.
“For what?” Max asked.
Unnerved, I didn’t know what to say, so I stammered, “I… but… but it was Brody.”
“Don’t give a fuck who it was.”
“But –”
“Don’t give a fuck why you did it either, Nina, just don’t do it again. Yeah?”
“He… Max, he pulled me in his lap,” I reminded him. “Under the circumstances, I could hardly pull away.”
“No circumstances are the right circumstances for you to have your ass in another man’s lap.”
I shook my head, those short, quick shakes again.
“Are we… are we really talking about this?” I asked in disbelief.
“Positions reversed, Nina, you were in a room and I had a woman in my lap, would you like that?”
My stomach pitched again at the thought he planted in my head and at the fact he kept calling me Nina.
“No, of course not,” I told him.
“Point made,” he replied curtly.
“Unless it was Mindy or something,” I added.
“I fed Mindy baby food. You’ve known Brody a coupla days. That’s hardly the same fuckin’ thing.”
“In a way, it is.”
“What it is, is, I’ve known you a week and you’re fuckin’ me. You’ve known Brody –”
I lost my incredulity at our conversation and my mild confusion and the fear that I felt whenever he was angry at me and that red film covered my eyes again.
“Don’t you finish that!” I warned.
“Again, point made,” Max shot back.
I leaned in and snapped, “You’re impossible!”
“Yeah, you’ve mentioned that.”
I glared at him and he held my glare. Neither of us spoke, neither of us moved. I wanted to throw something at him but nothing was in reach and if I had to reach for something I could swear at that moment my entire body would shatter.
Regrettably, I was unable to hold his clear, angry gray eyes so I turned my head, looked into the house and realized there was really nowhere to go to escape him. Except one place. So I went there.
I stomped across the room, my boots loud against the wood floors. Then I stomped up the stairs. Then I stomped to the armchair to see my bag was gone and I stopped, staring at the chair. Then I stomped to the closet, threw open the door and turned on the light inside. I saw my limited amount of clothes hanging next to Max’s, my sweaters tidily folded on the fitted shelves again next to Max’s and my shoes lined up on the tilted rods also next to Max’s. My suitcase was folded up and tucked into a corner. All of my clothes had been laundered and, those that needed it, ironed and so had Max’s.
Caroline was good at her job.
I turned out the light, slammed the door and stomped to the bathroom. I opened the medicine cabinet and saw my toiletries tucked neatly away. Then I opened a drawer in the vanity and saw my makeup. So I stomped back to the door, saw my robe was on a hook at the back and I felt like shouting with glee when I saw it. Then I slammed the door and locked it.
Then I drew a bath and started the long, complicated procedure of giving myself a facial.
What I wanted to do was leave Max’s presence, his house and the state in which he currently resided.
Something else I wanted to do was walk downstairs and scream in his face.