The Bone Orchard: A Novel

I didn’t mean to divert the conversation from Kathy, but Sarah interpreted the remark in a way I hadn’t intended. “I was so sorry to hear about your mom. Did you get my card?”

I hadn’t followed up any of the condolences I had received. Social niceties had never been my strong suit, as Sarah knew better than anyone. “Thank you, yes. I haven’t been back down here since she died.”

“Wait a minute,” she said. “Are you in Portland?”

“I just left the hospital. I’m parked on Congress Street.”

“I’m downtown, too!”

“Maddie told me you were living here.”

“Are you free? Do you want to get together?”

She didn’t mean “free” in the sense of having no romantic attachments, but that was where my mind immediately went. I had abandoned my sentimental ideas about Sarah Harris a long time ago, but the thought of seeing her again intrigued me. And it wasn’t as if Stacey cared what I did, text or no text.

“Sure.”

“Can you meet me for a drink? I’d love to catch up.”

I had expected she would invite me to her office at the charter school. A drink came with certain implications. Maddie Lawson had told me Sarah was involved with the school founder. How would he feel about his young girlfriend having a cocktail with an old flame? Other people’s romantic relationships were so mysterious. For all I knew, the guy was immune to jealousy. The same could not be said of me.

I ran my hand along my face, feeling the tiny scabs and the whiskers that I had meant to shave the night before. I realized that I didn’t care if Sarah saw me looking grungy. What was past was past.

“When and where?” I asked.

“How about five o’clock at the Top of the East?”

It was a rooftop lounge at a luxury hotel where we had once spent a wild New Year’s Eve. We were just college seniors, but we had splurged on a room so we wouldn’t have to drive back to Waterville after a night of bar hopping. One of us (probably me) had gotten the idea to have sex on every piece of furniture in the room. I woke up the next morning with cold sunlight streaming through the window, hungover, and sore in every part of my body. I had never been happier in my life.

There were dozens of bars Sarah could have suggested. I was astonished she’d picked one that came with so many suggestive memories attached.

“I’ll see you there,” I said.

* * *

I arrived fifteen minutes early and found a parking spot in front of the Immanuel Baptist Church on High Street. It was a great granite building with stained-glass clerestory windows and a towering bell tower. I’d never thought of the Baptists going in for Gothic architecture.

I entered the hotel and crossed the gilt-tinted lobby. I rode the elevator to the twelfth floor and asked the hostess for a table with a view of Portland harbor. The bar wouldn’t fill up until after five, but there were a handful of tourists seated on the couches and random guys in business suits with loose neckties getting a head start on their boozing. A woman dressed smartly in a black shirt and black pants came over to take my drink order, and I asked for a double bourbon on the rocks.

The view from the Top of the East was the best in Portland. I wasn’t remotely an urban person, but looking down on the brick buildings and the cobblestone streets, and then the port of Portland itself, bustling with fishing boats and island ferries, with the forts and lighthouses of Casco Bay in the distance, I could understand why Sarah had decided to make her home here. David DiPietro was the game warden whose district included the city. I could never imagine what sorts of calls he received. Help, there’s a raccoon in my trash cans! An owl just flew off with my house cat! The whole appeal to me of joining the Warden Service had been of making a life for myself in the woods. But maybe if I’d been assigned to Portland after graduation, Sarah and I would still be together.

There was no point in dreaming up alternate realities when I was having a hard enough time coming to grips with my actual life.

Sarah arrived late, as usual. Late enough for me to be halfway through my second bourbon, and feeling the warmth of the first one entering my bloodstream.

I watched her negotiate the tables between us, smiling, waving, and I thought she looked even better than the last time I’d seen her. She’d grown out her blond hair to shoulder length, and she was wearing a pinstriped gray suit that I never would have described as sexy until I saw her in it. Sarah had always been athletic. She’d been a competitive diver at Choate.

When I stood up, she gave me a hug—not too tight—and then held me at arm’s length, her hands squeezing my shoulders, smiling as she studied my face. “Maddie was right. Look at you.”

“I need a haircut and a shave.”

“You look good with actual hair.”

She’d never been a fan of my biweekly crew cuts. “What about the beard, though?”

“I don’t usually like them. I’m not sure I would have recognized you if we’d passed on the street. It’s so great to see you again, Mike.”

She took a seat, and I did the same. She was wearing lipstick and eye shadow, heavier than before. She brought her elbows up on the tabletop, intertwined her fingers, and smiled at me. I didn’t notice a ring.

“You look beautiful, by the way,” I said.

“Even with long hair? I thought you liked it short.”

“I think we had plenty of misconceptions about each other.”

She let her gaze turn toward the window and the cityscape below. “I’m not sure what made me think of meeting you here.”

“We had a nice time in this hotel.”

She glanced back at me with one corner of her mouth turned up. “Nice isn’t the word I’d use. It was room two twenty-seven, I seem to remember.”

The server reappeared, and Sarah asked for a Dark and Stormy, a cocktail she never used to order. She was looking at me with wide blue eyes, as if I were a strange new creature she had never encountered before.

“Your beard makes you look like your father,” she said.

“People keep telling me,” I said.

“He was a good-looking guy for someone his age. What happened to your face, though?”

“I was shot the same night as Kathy.”

“Wait. You were there?”

“The guy blew out my windshield as I was driving up to her house.”

The skin tightened above her eyebrows. “I thought you weren’t a warden anymore.”

“I was just visiting.”

She leaned across the table, giving me a whiff of her perfume, which smelled expensive. “Are you allowed to tell me what happened?”

“I can do whatever I want now,” I said with a smile. “I’m a civilian.”

“I still can’t believe you quit the Warden Service. Never in a million years would I have imagined that happening.”

“People change,” I said.

“That’s no explanation.”

The waitress returned with Sarah’s drink and asked if I wanted another Jack Daniel’s. I was tempted—something about being with Sarah again in this place made me want to let myself go—but I passed. I had a long drive back to Appleton.

I thought I had gotten away with not answering Sarah’s question, but as soon as the server left the table, she returned to the topic. “What happened to you, Mike? On the one hand, you seem like the same guy I lived with in Sennebec. And yet you’re totally different, too.”

“It’s just the beard. It makes me appear older and wiser than I really am.”

“That’s why I mean,” she said, tapping my chest with her painted fingernail. “Where did that guy come from?”

“Which guy?”

“The funny one.”

“I was always funny.”

“Trust me,” she said. “You weren’t. Look, it’s OK if you don’t want to talk about it.”

I threw back my head and laughed.

“What?” she asked, genuinely perplexed.

“You’re not going to stop asking me questions until your curiosity is satisfied. That’s one thing that hasn’t changed about you, Sarah.”

“I always thought we were mutually curious,” she said with a sly grin. “It was something we had in common.”

“One of the only things we had in common.”

“I don’t know about that.”

“I’ll make you a deal,” I said. “Let’s talk about you for a while and then we can return to the subject of my radical transformation. Tell me about this school you’re working for.”

She took a long sip of her fizzy rum drink. “I’m afraid I’ll just bore you.”

“I need a diversion from the past few days.”

She set the glass on the table. “Well, it’s called the Coracle School, and it’s for kids ages two to six. Do you know what a coracle is?”

“Like the Welsh boat?” I didn’t understand the connection but didn’t want to interrupt her by saying so.

“It’s circular in shape,” she said. “The philosophy behind Coracle is just so progressive and revolutionary. When I talk about it, people say, ‘Oh, it sounds like the Montessori approach,’ but it’s totally leading edge. Maria Montessori died seventy years ago, and we’ve learned so much about neuroscience since then. The Coracle curriculum comes out of proven discoveries in how a child’s brain develops. I mean, we now know that three-year-olds become more interested in structured activities.” She had been speaking faster and faster. Suddenly, she caught herself. “I just realized I was giving you my fund-raising pitch. It’s the curse of being a development director.”