chapter One
The West Midlands, February 1820
Two and one half years later, shortly after the death of Mad King George III
Lady Penelope Bridgeman, Baroness Manton, alighted from the carriage, her sturdy black kid boots crunching gravel beneath them as she stepped onto the drive of Vickering Place.
At first glance, the seventeenth-century mansion looked like any other palatial spread. No fewer than a dozen chimney blocks jutted from the slate roof, each spouting puffs of smoke that spoke of toasty fires within, keeping the residents of the brown brick home warm in defiance of the chilly February winter.
Ivy strangled the west wing of the structure, as well as the walls leading up to the entrance of the main house. The vines were brownish green and barren now, but Penelope imagined they would be beautiful to behold come springtime. So would the large ornamental fountain that fronted the house when it was once again filled with water, as well as the acres upon acres of parkland that surrounded it when they were greened up and in bloom.
However, Penelope fervently hoped she would have no occasion to visit Vickering Place in the spring. Indeed, she wished she weren’t here now.
The carved oak door was opened for her before she even gained the top step of the stoop.
“Lady Manton.” A thin man, clad in a serviceable black suit, greeted her by her name, though they had never met. She supposed she shouldn’t be surprised. Visitors were likely regulated here and expected well in advance.
“Mr. Allen, I presume?” she inquired, pulling her dark wool cloak tighter around her as a frigid wind nipped across her nape. She stamped her feet in an effort to warm them, her eyes shifting involuntarily over the man’s shoulder to the roaring fire she could see blazing from a hearth within.
“I am he,” Mr. Allen confirmed stiffly, but he did not step aside to allow her inside. Penelope rubbed her gloved hands together and looked pointedly at him. Finally, the man relented. “Please do come in,” he said, but his tone was clear. He did not want her here.
She slid sideways past him before he could change his mind, grateful for the blast of warmth as she crossed the threshold into a well-lit foyer. Her eyes were immediately drawn to the painted ceiling that arced high above, depicting fluffy clouds in a blue summer sky that faded into the throes of a brilliant sunset around the edges.
She hadn’t expected such a cheerful scene.
A woman’s desolate wail sliced through the hall, raising the hair on Penelope’s arms, even covered as they were with layers of wool and bombazine. The high-pitched cry was cut off abruptly, leaving only an eerie echo ricocheting off of the marble walls of the foyer.
Penelope shivered. That was more in line with her expectation of Vickering Place. The illusion that the manor was still a country mansion fell completely away. Certainly the flocked wallpaper of gold damask and the plaster molding and expensive artwork that lined the walls spoke of its aristocratic history, but Vickering Place had been sold by its owner and converted to a private sanatorium for lunatics. A place where the wealthy sent their sons and daughters, their mothers and fathers, their wives and their husbands—for treatment, or simply to hide them away from society.
As Michael’s family had done to poor Gabriel.
Mr. Allen, she noted, seemed unruffled by the noise, almost as if he hadn’t even noticed. One grew used to it, she supposed. Allen extended an arm to usher her into what appeared to be his office, and as Penelope took a seat in a plush armchair across from his stark, imposing desk, she strove for a similar sangfroid even as her stomach churned with nerves.
“I’m afraid your journey may have been in vain, my lady,” Mr. Allen began, lowering himself stiffly into his own seat. “It seems his lordship has descended into a fit of mania this morning. When he gets like this, he can be very . . . dangerous. I cannot, in good conscience, allow you near him. For your safety’s sake.”
Penelope winged a brow high at the subtle condescension in the director’s nasally tone. She pursed her lips.
Mr. Allen, apparently misinterpreting the reason for her irritation, said defensively, “I did send a messenger to the inn where you are staying, but he must have just missed you. I am sorry you had to come all this way.”
Penelope barely resisted the urge to snort. The only thing he was sorry about was that she’d come at all.
She waved a dismissive hand. “Your man delivered the message in plenty of time. However—” However, what? She’d been a fool not to anticipate this sort of resistance. She’d gotten spoiled, working with her cousin Liliana, the Countess of Stratford, over the past year and a half, treating ex-soldiers and their families. No one ever questioned Liliana because she was a woman. Her cousin had a brilliant mind that commanded the respect of her peers, male and female.
Penelope, however, had neither Liliana’s intelligence nor presence. She chewed her lip, trying to imagine how her cousin would handle Mr. Allen. She took a deep breath and stiffened her spine. Well, she didn’t know exactly what Liliana would do, but she knew how her own formidable mother would handle the man if this were a domestic situation.
She adopted her best “lady of the house” tone, all clipped and commanding. “However, it is my understanding that Vickering Place is a private sanatorium. Your guests are here voluntarily, at the behest of their families, are they not?” She raised both brows now, staring Mr. Allen down. “At their very expensive behest.”
At his stiff nod, Penelope could almost taste her victory. She reached into her cloak, efficiently pulling out a packet of letters from Gabriel’s family, detailing their wishes. Her hand trembled a bit as she leaned forward and handed them across the desk. “Then I expect to see his lordship immediately. In whatever condition he may be in.”
It was Mr. Allen’s turn to purse his lips, which thinned to the point of almost disappearing as he skimmed the letters. Disapproval lined his features, but all he said was, “Very well.”
Penelope gave the director a curt nod and rose to her feet. She exited the office on her own, not waiting to see if he followed. He did, of course, and quite quickly. He seemed the type who would detest having her roaming around his domain on her own.
“This way, my lady.” Mr. Allen rattled a heavy set of keys, plucking the head of one between his fingers as the others settled with a jangling clank on the ring.
As they made their way down a wide hallway, another howl rent the air. A man’s this time, Penelope thought. The cry was accompanied by a harsh, rhythmic clanking, as if the poor soul banged something against metal . . . bars perhaps?
An ache pierced her chest. She couldn’t imagine Gabriel in a place such as this. The moment she’d met him, she’d sensed he was cut from similar cloth as Liliana’s husband, Geoffrey. Both ex-soldiers, both honorable and courageous. Gabriel had a commanding air, an independent and self-reliant streak that must chafe against confinement. It had to be driving him mad to be locked up so.
No, madness is what brought him here.
Penelope shivered. She’d have never believed such a thing about Gabriel two and a half years ago, but he was blood related to Michael, and if Penelope knew anything, she knew now that Michael had been mad.
The affliction had driven her husband to take his own life barely six months after they’d been married.
Penelope’s steps faltered. Oh Lord. What made her think she could be of any help to Gabriel Devereaux? She’d been worthless to Michael when he’d needed her. Worthless.
Mr. Allen halted, as if noticing his footfalls were now the only ones ringing on the marble floors. He turned to look over his shoulder. “Have you changed your mind, then, Lady Manton?”
Yes.
Penelope’s chest tightened, her breaths coming with great difficulty as the horror of another frosty winter day invaded her mind.
He’s not breathing! Michael!
Penelope shook her head, as much to dislodge the memories as to reply to the director. “No. No, of course not.” Yet her voice was much more assured than her feet. She had to force them to get moving again.
Mr. Allen fixed her with a doubtful look before turning back to lead the way once more.
She was not that naïve young society wife anymore, Penelope reminded herself. For the past two years, with Liliana’s encouragement, she’d thrown herself into studying the inner workings and maladies of the mind. At first, it had been a way to distract herself from her grief, but then she’d realized she had a gift.
People of all classes had often told her she was easy to talk to, so when Liliana had suggested she spend time just talking to the ex-soldiers served by the private clinic that she and her husband, Geoffrey, had built, it had been easy to say yes. And that one yes had turned into a calling, one that had met with some success.
Which was why Lady Bromwich, Gabriel’s mother, had visited Penelope in London and begged her to visit him. Well, that, and the marchioness knew she would keep news of Gabriel’s condition private. She’d been married into their family, after all, and they counted on that loyalty for her silence.
Mr. Allen stopped before a massive wooden door, its brass knob polished to a high shine. He pulled the door open easily, revealing the heavy iron bars that had been installed to barricade the entrance of the suite of rooms that had recently become Gabriel’s home.
The director slid the key into the lock, twisting it with an efficient click. The bars swung open noiselessly, too new yet to creak with rust.
Penelope schooled her features, trying to prepare herself for anything. She smoothed a nervous hand over her widow’s weeds, her mood now as somber and dark as the colors she always wore.
What kind of Gabriel would she encounter beyond that threshold? If his affliction was similar to Michael’s, he could be flying high, gregarious and grandiose, awake for days with no end in sight. Or he could be a man in the depths of despair, wallowing in a dark place where no one could reach him, least of all her.
Was she ready to be faced with the stuff of her nightmares?
Penelope swallowed hard. Yes. Because Gabriel was still alive, still able to be saved. Whatever she must do, she would do it, if only as penance for what she hadn’t been able to do for Michael.
Penelope stepped into the room, at least as far as she could before shock stilled her feet. “Oh . . . my . . . God,” she whispered, amazed she could push even those three short words through the sudden tightness of her throat. “Gabriel?”
For a brief second, Penelope wondered if she were the mad one. Because what she was seeing couldn’t possibly be real.
Gabriel—a very naked Gabriel, she couldn’t help but note with widening eyes—was cornered in the far side of the room, nearly trapped by two attendants who steadily approached him. With a strength and quickness that didn’t seem human, Gabriel lashed out to his left and snagged the corner of a heavily carved rococo chaise longue with one hand, pulling it toward him as if it weighed nothing. A high-pitched screech grated as the wooden legs dragged in screaming protest across the floor. He angled it on the diagonal in front of him, effectively creating a barricade from the grasping attendants.
“Curse you, you devils,” Gabriel rasped in a scratchy voice that pricked at Penelope’s heart.
The stark fear in his eyes turned that prick into a full-fledged pierce. Poor Gabriel was looking at the men as if he truly saw them as the demons he called them.
“I am burning alive already. Does that not satisfy your thirst for revenge?” he cried, muscles and tendons straining against the skin of his neck.
Penelope could only watch in horror as Gabriel snatched a pitcher of water from a nearby sideboard and tipped it back. He gulped noisily, not seeming to notice that most of the water missed his mouth, running down his unclothed skin in dripping rivulets that pooled on the floor at his bared feet. Penelope’s gaze followed the trail of liquid as it traversed lean muscle, over his chest, where tiny droplets clung to the dark hair there, down his stomach to . . .
Dear God, he truly was completely nude—
A blur of black linen blocked Penelope’s view as Mr. Allen stepped in front of her. “My lady, I must insist you leave this instant—”
An explosion of glass shattered against marble, jerking both of their attention back to the drama unfolding in the corner. Gabriel had smashed the empty pitcher against the floor, and shards of crystal skittered in all directions.
Well, she’d be hanged before she allowed Mr. Allen to toss her out of the room. She took advantage of the distraction to dart farther into the parlor so that the director would have to choose between bodily removing her or helping his staff members to contain Gabriel.
Allen shot her a dark look over his shoulder but moved towards the fracas. She thought to offer her assistance, but there was little she could do with Gabriel when he was in the grips of full-blown mania.
“Ah, Christ,” Gabriel groaned. “Am I to have no relief?” Water glistened on his skin as he glared accusingly at the men who were slowly skirting either side of his barricade, crystal grinding beneath their boots. “If your thirst cannot be quenched, then neither shall mine be? Is that the way of it?”
“My lord,” Allen said soothingly, raising his hands as he advanced on the chaise longue from the center. “You know we never deny you sustenance.”
“Trickery!” Gabriel accused. “Water that does nothing to wet the throat. Clothing that burns.” He scratched at his arms, and Penelope winced at the white lines that appeared on otherwise swarthy skin. Was that why Gabriel had shed his clothes? Because they’d irritated his skin?
What madness was this? She’d never seen anything like it.
Penelope held her breath as the attendants and Mr. Allen closed in on her cousin-by-marriage, a man on either side with the director standing near the center of the chaise. Her heart sped, thumping against her throat as if she were the one trapped. She prayed they did not hurt Gabriel in their bid to subdue him.
One of the men lunged for him then, attempting to catch him about the waist. She gasped as Gabriel leapt vertically, pulling his knees high as his feet landed upon the chaise in a move most reminiscent of a large cat. The attendant missed, falling to the ground with a surprised grunt.
“My lord!” Mr. Allen shouted, then raised his hands in what Penelope assumed he meant as a soothing gesture. “My lord,” the man said again, more calmly as Gabriel straightened. “Please, there is nowhere for you to go.”
Penelope’s gaze darted to the other attendant, who was creeping behind the chaise while Mr. Allen had Gabriel’s attention.
“We mean you no harm,” the director said, his voice a soft lull.
But she could see that Gabriel was beyond words. The skin on his face was pulled taut in a terrified grimace. He wasn’t even looking at the director at all, she realized, but rather at the floor. He looked as if he longed to run for it, but was afraid to step down. His eyes darted to and fro, clearly seeing something that wasn’t there. Something that frightened him terribly.
“No,” he groaned. “No! Stop tormenting me so. There was nothing more I could have done!”
The intensity of his fear raised gooseflesh on Penelope’s skin as tears pricked hot against the backs of her eyelids. What on earth did Gabriel think he saw?
Just then, the second attendant clipped his boot against the leg of the chaise, alerting Gabriel to his presence behind him. He tensed, crouching low on the chaise again. Mr. Allen chose that moment to make his move.
And so did Gabriel.
He flew. Leapt, really, but with an energy that seemed inhuman. With the added advantage of the chaise’s height, he easily cleared the top of Mr. Allen’s head, who had bent to try to capture him. But how did Gabriel think he was going to—
The tinkling of thousands of crystal teardrops rang in the air as Gabriel’s outstretched hands found purchase in the lowest tier of the massive chandelier above them. His momentum turned the chandelier into a pendulum, swinging him away from his captors.
Penelope watched in awe as the fast-moving glass caught the weak winter sunlight from the mullioned windows and cast shards of colored light dancing upon the walls. Dozens of snuffed candles lost their mooring, raining down like wax-covered twigs in a particularly vicious windstorm. Light and shadow played against Gabriel’s naked skin, muscles flexing as he held fast.
Lord, he’d be beautiful to paint.
Penelope blinked. Goodness, where had that inappropriate thought come from?
So shaken was she that she didn’t even register that Gabriel was swinging right toward her until far too late. She threw up her hands to protect her face at the last moment, but nothing could protect her from the force of fourteen stone slamming her to the hard marble floor.
“Oh!” Pain exploded in more places than she could feel at once. Everything hurt. Her backside, mostly, which had taken the brunt of the impact. But her left shoulder had come down hard next, and the back of her head smarted terribly, as, curiously, did her chest.
She blinked to clear her vision, glancing down to find the top of Gabriel’s head, his face buried directly in a rather delicate position. So that is what had caused that sharp jolt of agony. His forehead must have collided into her breastbone when he landed atop her. She winced. That was going to leave a bruise for certain.
As other sensations returned to her stunned system, she realized she lay quite pinned beneath Gabriel’s larger frame. His naked, still dripping wet frame. Even the layers of her widow’s weeds couldn’t shield her from feeling him against her or from the moist heat that seeped through to her skin.
“Mmph,” she groaned. She bent her elbows and planted her palms on either side of herself in an attempt to wriggle free.
Gabriel’s head jerked up then. His eyes fixed on her, and Penelope couldn’t contain a gasp. She’d never seen pupils so dilated. They reminded her of an eclipse—only one where the new moon passes between the earth and the sun, not quite blacking out the larger star entirely. Instead, the warm gold-flecked iris that remained made a fiery ring around the enlarged black pupil. The effect was startling. And unsettling.
They both went entirely still. Indeed, it seemed if the very world did. Even the scuffling of the other men in the room seemed to slow and fade away. Her heart beat wildly in her chest, as wild as the man lying atop her.
“Penelope?” he rasped, sending a jolt of sympathy rushing through her. He blinked several times, either trying to focus or in disbelief that she was actually here. Probably both. For all that they’d been friends once, they hadn’t seen each other since Michael’s funeral.
“Yes. Yes, I—”
Gabriel tightened his arms around her in a sudden grip that forced any remaining breath from her lungs, as if she were the lone buoy in a turbulent sea.
He held her tight to him for a brief moment. But at the clumping of three pairs of boots rushing toward them, Gabriel released her and whipped his head around to glance behind him.
He jerked his gaze back to her. “Penelope,” he said again, his voice urgent and harsh. “Help me.”
“I will,” she vowed, just as urgently, even though she had no idea if she even could. What she’d just witnessed was much worse than she’d been led to expect.
Gabriel tensed, shifting his weight so he could scramble away from his pursuers. She tensed, too. If he kept running, kept fighting, she wouldn’t be able to help him. No one could in his current state.
“I will,” Penelope whispered once more, knowing there was only one thing she could do.
She wrapped her arms and legs around him, locking them as best she could around his larger, thrashing form, and held on for dear life. She had to keep him here long enough for Mr. Allen and his men to reach them.
When Gabriel realized her intent, he let out a howl of angry betrayal that sent a shiver coursing through her. Belatedly, Penelope wondered at her foolishness. Gabriel could snap her in two if he so wished. The man she’d known would never have done such a thing, but he was clearly not in his rational mind. Even Michael, who had loved her, had hurt her in his mania. She cringed, but tightened her grip on Gabriel all the same.
Penelope panted with effort. Dear God. She wasn’t certain she could hold on to him much longer. The muscles of her arms and thighs trembled with strain and ached like the very dickens.
“Shhh,” she crooned. She tried to turn her death grip into more of an embrace, meant to soothe. “’Twill be all right, I promise,” she whispered, even though her voice trembled with what very well might be a lie.
Gabriel struggled for a few more seconds but then relaxed with a groan of defeat.
Had her vow to help him been a lie, too? After what she’d just witnessed, she was very much afraid Gabriel was beyond help.
As he was pulled from her arms, Penelope prayed she was wrong about that.