Snatching up the broom, I sweep up my mess as Joey steps into the back.
“I think you need a break. Your language is getting a bit out of control back here.” He bends down to hold the pan for me, dumping what he collects into the trash.
“It is not,” I scoff, sweeping another pile into the pan, although I am a fool to argue. I know how loose my tongue has been today.
“The last customer heard you.”
I wince, my grip tightening on the handle as Joey straightens. Shit. “Oh.”
“Yeah.”
Leaning the broom back against the wall in the corner, I brush my hands down my apron. The hard edge of my silent, might as well be dead, phone scrapes against my palm. My teeth clench.
“Unfuckingbelievable,” I utter, ripping off my apron and tossing it against the wall below the hooks. It falls into a crumpled pile on the floor.
“Strange that he still hasn’t stopped over here.” Joey leans against the worktop. “Are we sure he’s alive?”
Oh, I’m sure. His car is parked in a different spot than it was yesterday. That means he went out last night, or at least some point before I made it in to work today.
Early night, my ass.
“Being too busy to call or stop over here yesterday is one thing, but standing me up for coffee and then not communicating with me all morning is bullshit. Especially when he’s always over here, and always texting me cute, funny little messages. Now I get nothing? No contact? What the hell?”
“What happened the last time you saw him? After your delivery that day, did he act weird?”
I pinch my lips together.
No. No, he didn’t act weird. I acted weird.
The room swirls around me as I begin to pace. Adrenaline surges through my body. “I told him I needed a minute. I couldn’t . . . think. It might have been a panic attack. I don’t know. I was freaking out, Joey. You know that, I told you. But I said a minute. Not two fucking days.”
I shake my hands out at my sides. My feet carry me from one side of the kitchen to the other, and back again.
Where are you?
“Maybe a minute in Australia is longer?”
I stop near the fridge, glaring at Joey. “Really?”
He gives me an even look. “What? It’s possible. Have you called him?”
When I don’t answer, he shakes his head, muttering, “Of course you haven’t. Because that would be the logical thing to do, right? Contact him and figure out what’s going on.”
Figure out what’s going on. Contact him.
Call him? No. I’ll do one better.
If he’s changed his mind, he can tell me to my fucking face.
With determination fueling my steps, I grab some cash out of my wallet and dart out of the kitchen. “I’m taking my lunch!” I yell out, pushing through the door and stepping out onto the sidewalk.
Joey calls out something behind me, something motivating.
My spine straightens.
Yes. Feminine power. Why didn’t I do this earlier?
I sprint across the street, grateful for my choice of flat, comfortable footwear, and pull on the studio door handle.
Locked.
“You have got to be kidding me.”
I knock several times on the glass. I pound on it. Maybe he’s upstairs hanging out between classes. Hiding out from me.
Pulling away. Needing his own minute.
Growling when he doesn’t materialize in front of me with a believable explanation for his sudden absence from my life, I tug my phone from my pocket and dial his number.
It doesn’t ring. His voicemail picks up.
“Oh, really? Is that how we’re going to play this?”
Anger sizzles in my blood. I’m furious. With myself, for not contacting him yesterday. With him. More myself though, and that only dials up my rage. I asked for this, and now I’m reacting because he’s only giving me what I thought I wanted.
He couldn’t fight me a little? Show some defiance?
Damn him for being so understanding.