“I’ll replace them,” I promised. My mouth found her neck again while my hand reached between her legs, finding her sex hot and wet. Had there ever been a time she wasn’t ready for me? “And I’ll tear those fuckers off, too.”
Raine’s giggle turned into a moan as I opened the front of my shorts quickly and slammed into her without warning. Holy fucking shit, it felt like it had been days instead of hours since I had been buried inside of her. It was home. It was heaven. And it was the only place I had ever truly belonged.
“I just couldn’t stand it, Raine…” I mumbled into her ear.
“What, Bastian?”
“You…not being mine. I can’t stand the thought. It fucking kills me to think that you’re not mine anymore.”
“I’m still yours,” Raine said, her fingers gripping the back of my head, holding my mouth to hers. “Always yours…that hasn’t changed.”
“Everything’s changed,” I whispered into her mouth, my eyes squeezing shut against the sudden pain throughout my body. I slammed her up against the wall, thrusting into her again and again, terrified that this might be the last time I ever touched her like this.
“Only the outside has changed,” Raine said. She cupped my face in her hands and held me fast – forcing me to look into her eyes even as I continued to fuck her against the wall. I don’t know how she managed to speak so coherently with me fucking her like that, but she did. “Do I feel different inside?”
“You feel…fucking…incredible,” I growled, shoving my hips harder against her.
“Inside everything is still the same,” she told me. “Everything I feel for you is on the inside, Bastian. Only what’s outside has changed. Inside, I still love you. I’m still yours.”
I tucked my head against her shoulder, hiding my face in her hair. One of my hands traced up her side and brushed the curve of her breast while the other gripped her ass firmly and lifted it to meet my body every time I pushed forward.
“I can’t lose you,” I cried into her hair. “I just can’t, Raine…it would fucking kill me if I lost you.”
“I’m right here, Bastian…oh God!”
“The whole store can fucking hear you,” I growled into her ear. “I bet they know my cock’s in you just from the way you say my name…oh, fuck…Raine!”
“Harder, Bastian…please!”
“Fuck, Raine!” I slammed into her again, not even able to comprehend how she could put up with my caveman approach of fucking her in the men’s dressing room at a department store, let alone ask for it harder. I wasn’t about to deny her what she asked for, but it still made me wonder what the fuck I had ever done to be worthy of her.
“Ohmygod…ohmygod…” Raine began chanting in a tiny, breathless whisper. Her heels dug into my ass, and her fingernails nearly clawed through my skin as I kept pounding into her until I felt her stiffen and clench around me. Not wanting to waste another moment, I let go, holding my hips tight against hers and growling low in my chest, forcing myself not to scream.
I held myself tight against her, which held her tight against the wall.
“Bastian…that was…” Raine took in a deep breath and then let it out slowly. “That was intense, to say the least, but I don’t understand why…”
“I’m fucking terrified, okay?” I interrupted. “I could…wrap my head around it – around you wanting me…around all of this – when we were there, but not now, not here. Not out here, where you have access to millions of other guys who aren’t as fucked up and worthless as I am…”
“YOU…ARE…NOT…WORTHLESS!” Though she didn’t actually yell the words, her tone was loud and fucking clear. The fingers she had buried in my hair tightened and pulled, twisting my head so I was looking right at her. “You are the most wonderful, beautiful man I have ever known. I love you, and that hasn’t changed just because there’s concrete under our feet instead of sand!”
“If you left me…” I couldn’t even finish the thought, let alone the sentence. My whole body tensed up again.
“I know you’re scared.” Raine’s fingers traced over my jaw, and her voice softened. “I understand that, Bastian. I don’t know what else I can do but tell you to have faith in me – in us. I want us to stay together.”
“I want to believe you, Raine – I really do, but…I just…”
“I know,” she said, her voice softening. “I know how hard it is for you to accept it, but I still love you and that’s not going to change.”
“I love you, too,” I mumbled back, feeling completely chastised and a little whipped. I didn’t mind feeling whipped, which also scared the fuck out of me.
“We’ll make this work,” Raine said, her lips trailing across my jaw. “We’re still together, Bastian. Even when we are in a crowd, we’re still together.”
I stepped back, my cock getting cold as it slipped out of her warmth. I lowered her gently to her feet and started to yank my pants up from around my ankles.
“Take those off,” Raine said with a sigh.
“Why?”