I stood on wobbly legs and walked into the bathroom. I locked the door, stripped and climbed into the shower. I needed to sober up and wondered who the hell Lucy was. Did he know he’d shouted someone else’s name?
The only orgasm I’d had in months was the one Michael gave me in the barn, and if he’d allowed me, I would have sucked him off. The thought of having his penis in my hand, my tongue licking along his length and lapping up his creamy white cum, was one hell of a turn on. Shit, I shouldn’t be having these thoughts.
Out of the shower, I dried off and pulled my clothes back on, then took a deep breath before I opened the door and walked into the bedroom.
David was sitting on the bed after he’d obviously showered in the guest bathroom.
“Are you okay, Lily?” he asked.
How did I answer that? “I’ve been better.”
He patted the bed beside him, so I walked over and sat down.
David took hold of my hand and just held it. “I’m sorry, Lily. I really am. We’ve been drifting apart for a while, and I don’t know what to do to stop it. I really don’t want to lose you. Please promise me you won’t leave me.”
I’d started to get a headache as I sat listening to David. The truth was, I didn’t know whether or not to believe him, and did I mention Lucy? I should be pissed, but I wasn’t. I probably would have been if I hadn’t met Michael.
I turned my head to look at him. “Who’s Lucy?” He froze and his eyes nearly popped out of his head. So he did know a Lucy. “Who is she? And don’t even think about lying to me.” My voice came out harsh.
He looked at me and let go of my hand. “How –”
“You shouted her name when you came.”
“Fuckin’ hell.” He put his face into his hands. “God babe, I’m sorry. I didn’t know.” He sighed. “She’s the woman from the video.”
I was stunned, to put it mildly. “Are you serious?” He looked embarrassed, so I decided to leave it. My need to sleep the whiskey off, took precedence over the conversation. I’d had enough. “I need to sleep.”
He sagged in relief.
I climbed into bed and the last thing I remember was hearing David tell me he loved me. I had no response to that. I couldn’t lie and tell him I loved him too.
Chapter 24
MICHAEL
It had been twelve days and eleven hours since I’d dropped Lily at her apartment building after the day we’d spent together at my parent’s ranch house. Twelve days since I’d touched her. Twelve days since I’d brought her to orgasm. Twelve days of several cold showers.
The first day back in the office had felt odd. Lily, basically went out of her way to avoid any contact with me which only served to make me try harder. My attempts were short-lived when Lily ended up in tears. I’d felt like the world’s biggest bastard.
I was unable to cope with the sight of my Lily being in tears, so I’d jumped up from my chair and pulled her into my arms, half-afraid she would reject the contact. But she came willingly. I just held her while she wrapped her arms around me and cried. I whispered apologies to her over and over again until we both felt better.
Once she calmed down, she’d admitted to me that she was keeping her distance because it was safer that way. She really wanted to be with me, but she had some things to work out with David first and she thought it best to keep her distance, but I was making it difficult.
I was angry, not with Lily, but the bastard she called a boyfriend. He was still cheating on her behind her back and yet, still had some sort of hold over her.
It had felt good, too good, to hold Lily in my arms that day. Although it was only brief, I loved every minute of it. I just wish there had been no tears involved.
I placed a soft kiss to her lips and promised to keep my distance until she said otherwise. I also admitted that it was going to kill me and cause me a lot of cold showers. She assured me she wasn’t having sex with David. I surprised myself when I actually believed her. A relationship was built on trust, which was why I was trying to trust her completely.
Lily really got under my skin and the thought of her having sex with anyone but me made me want to hurt someone. Badly. As far as I was concerned she was mine and I had no intention of letting her go.
It was damn frustrating, having the woman who was warming my frozen heart living with someone else. The amount of times over the past twelve days that I’d nearly asked her to move in with me was in the triple digits. Keeping my mouth closed was proving very difficult for me, but for Lily, I would try.
Being a mere two days away from the McKenzie picnic at my parents ranch, I had no meetings planned. We had some last minute preparations to finalize and I was really looking forward to spending the day with Lily with no interruptions. It was crazy to crave something as simple as being in the same space with her. I knew my body would flare to life being so close to her, but I survived the last twelve days, so one more wouldn’t kill me. I hoped.