“No.”
They’d already completed four laps of the castle wall’s perimeter. It wasn’t nearly enough. Rafe still felt her softness clinging to his fingertips. He still tasted her on his lips. He still heard her soft moans and sighs echoing in his ears.
At this rate, he would be running hard all night. Even then, he’d never run far enough to leave his guilt behind.
What he’d done with Clio this afternoon had been so wrong.
It had also been beautiful, tender, and sublime.
But wrong, nonetheless. And entirely his fault.
Over the years, he’d learned to rein in his impulses, pull his punches. But when she’d let that lacy frock slide down her body, revealing the thinnest linen shift the Devil could weave . . . Inviting—nay, pleading for his touch . . .
He shouldn’t have given in to the temptation.
Miss Lydia Fairchild had taught him that lesson in his youth. The chestnut-haired daughter of a gentleman farmer, she’d pulled Rafe into the orchard one spring afternoon and drawn his hand beneath her skirts. His first touch of pure woman. He’d been overwhelmed by her warmth, her willingness. The way her hair smelled of apple blossoms.
Most of all, how she’d wanted his touch, at a time when he’d felt unwanted everywhere.
After an hour or so of enthusiastic groping, Rafe had managed a weak, guilt-inspired offer to speak with her father. In response, she’d laid her fingers to his cheek and laughed. Her parents had arranged a match with a country squire some twenty years her senior. She only wanted a few thrills with the local hellion first.
She wasn’t the last, either. Over the years, women had come to him for all sorts of reasons—pleasure, curiosity, rebellion, escape—but love and marriage weren’t among them.
Just as well, he’d told himself. He had too much devilry in him. If he wanted to keep his mind sharp, Rafe needed to be in constant motion. Staying in one place made him restless, prone to rash mistakes. He was incapable of settling down.
But that didn’t keep him from envying men who did. And wanting something more than a quick, hard . . .
Well, just wanting something more.
When he reached the corner, he paused and jogged in place, waiting for Bruiser to catch up.
“You need to order more gowns,” Rafe said. “Better ones. Ones that fit.”
His trainer leaned over, clutching his side and making a pained face. “I already did. But it will take a few days.”
Damn it, he didn’t have a few days.
Rafe boxed the waning afternoon, throwing jab after jab at the sinking sun. As if he could punch the orange disc hard enough to drive it into the sky, and it would stick there—just like the tankard embedded in that plaster wall. Then this day would go on forever, and he wouldn’t have to face the promises he’d made.
“There has to be something else,” he said. “Something we haven’t tried.”
“We’ve been through it all.” Bruiser threw out an arm and leaned against the wall, gasping for breath. “Flowers, cakes, ceremony, gowns. There’s only one thing I can think of that she’s missing.”
“What’s that?”
“Love.”
Rafe cursed.
“You heard her the other night,” Bruiser said. “She wants love. And devotion and compromise. Funny, isn’t it, how women seem to want those things, when they’re saying words like ‘Till death do us part.’ Now, if Clio—”
“Miss Whitmore.” Rafe threw a vicious right hook.
“If Miss Whitmore believed that Lord Granville loves her, this whole endeavor might be different.”
Rafe let his arms drop. “My brother is just like our father. Granvilles are swayed by emotions the same way Alps are rocked by a breeze. How am I supposed to convince her that Piers is in love?”
“I don’t know, Rafe. But there’s a time-honored method I’m going to submit for your consideration. For thousands of years now, men have used it to great effect. It’s called lying.”