“This is not how it was supposed to go,” he said. “We’ll order more gowns. Ones that fit properly. I’ll see to it myself.”
“That won’t be necessary.” She turned her back to him and lifted her hair from her neck. “Just let me out of this one.”
“You . . .” Rafe tugged at his neckcloth and cleared his throat. “You want me to remove your gown.”
Not just any gown, but a wedding gown. With that bed nearby.
“Undo the buttons, that’s all. I can’t breathe in it. I’ve learned to survive without a lot of things—cake, weddings, the respect of my peers—but I haven’t yet learned how to live without air.”
He hesitated, staring at the milky softness of her exposed nape and the row of tiny, silk-covered buttons that couldn’t possibly look any more innocent—and would cheerfully lead him straight into hell.
She braced herself against the bedpost with her free hand. “Please, Rafe. I’m starting to feel faint.”
With a silent curse, he reached for the top button. What choice did he have? He couldn’t allow her to suffocate. And as for him, he’d made his name on profligacy and bare-knuckle violence. He was already damned.
He struggled to grasp the tiny button between his thumb and forefinger without bracing his knuckles against her bare neck.
“Can you manage it?”
“I can manage it.” He gritted his teeth and willed his trembling fingers to be still. “It’s just that I broke this hand once, a few years ago.”
“I’m sorry.”
“You needn’t be sorry. Just be patient.”
She laughed a little, making him lose his grip again. “That’s the story of my life.”
At last, the first button slipped through its hole. His thumb slid beneath the fabric, brushing across the soft skin of her back.
There. Now they were under way. One button down, and . . .
He cast a glance downward.
. . . what seemed like several thousand to go. Good Lord. Did dressmakers earn wages by the button these days?
He focused his attention and concentrated on the task.
A few buttons more, and he was exposing her corset. Really, he was well acquainted with women’s undergarments. How many laced corsets had he seen in his life? Dozens, surely. Perhaps scores.
None had affected him like this one.
The band of linen and whalebone was cinched so tightly around the thin, white lawn of her shift. The fragrance of violets was everywhere. Not overwhelming. Violets weren’t the kind of flower to overwhelm. Their scent teased him. Cosseted his senses. Made him feel warm and safe.
And this wasn’t safe at all.
If she were any other woman in the world, he could have had her half-naked by now.
But if she were any other woman in the world, he wouldn’t have ached for it half so much.
He’d always had a taste for the forbidden. He’d always had a liking for her. Add in the thrill of innocent white lace against the delicate blush of her skin? His heart was thumping in his chest. Blood was rushing everywhere it shouldn’t.
With every button he loosed, his depravity grew. He wanted to spread his hands, smooth his palms over the small of her back. Lay claim to her. Press his lips to the hollow at the base of her neck. Hook his finger beneath those knotted laces and pull her tight against his swelling cock.
Damn it, Rafe.
He grabbed the edges and ripped the last few buttons free.
“There. Finished.” And not a moment too soon.
“My corset, too,” she begged.
Oh, God.
He stood back a pace, examined the knot, and found the end of the laces. When he caught the grommet between his finger and thumb, he felt like he held the loose thread of his sanity. One tug, and he’d be completely unraveled.
He pulled it anyway. He’d come too far to do anything else.
“Breathe,” he told her.