Over the past eight years, she’d studied not only foreign etiquette and world events, but agricultural news and land management, too. Her mother claimed it was all in service of becoming the perfect bride. She must be prepared to converse with her husband on any topic that might interest or concern him.
Clio hadn’t minded, truly. Reading all those newspapers and books helped pass the time while she was . . . waiting, on one thing and another. Chaperoning Phoebe with her tutors. Sitting through Daphne’s dressmaker fittings. Keeping vigil by Mama’s sickbed, after the doctors declared there was nothing more to be done. Clio read through it all.
Then came the day she learned that this castle belonged to her. And she realized that something else belonged to her, too. All that knowledge she’d accumulated . . . It was hers.
She was as prepared to manage an estate as Piers could have been, what with his incessant traveling. There was only one significant difference that set them apart.
Unfortunately, it was the one difference everyone—including Rafe—couldn’t seem to see past.
“You’re a woman.” He pronounced this statement as though it were the beginning, end, and sum of any argument.
“And you think a woman can’t run a brewery? Or is it just that you don’t believe in me?”
“It doesn’t matter what I think. It matters what all the farmers, brewers, and tavernkeepers think.”
“Until a few centuries ago, all brewing was women’s work. Even today, any sizeable estate brews its own small beer. It’s where we get yeast for the bread.”
“There’s a difference between making small beer for the servants’ hall and brewing ale for distribution.”
“I know there is. This is why I wanted you to sign the dissolution papers. If we’re to start brewing next year, we need to start building now. That means I need my dowry unencumbered, and the sooner the better. The architect won’t begin the drawings without payment.”
“Listen, if you’ve set your heart on opening a brewery on this property, all the more reason to marry Piers. His men of business could oversee everything.”
“I’m not marrying Piers. And I can hire my own men of business. Can’t you see? I want something that’s mine. A challenge.”
“When you marry Piers, you’ll have the title of marchioness. A house in London and a vast estate to manage. He’ll have diplomatic duties. There will be children. If that’s not enough, there are any number of worthy charitable ventures to which you could lend your time and your name. You won’t lack for challenges.”
“But this is different.”
“How so?”
She gestured with frustration. “This is a challenge where I have some chance to succeed.”
“What? That’s absurd. You’ll make the perfect Lady Granville.”
There it was. That bold, ridiculous word again.
Perfect.
“I mean what I’m saying.” He put his hands on her shoulders, turning her to face him. “Look at me.”
She looked at him. It wasn’t easy. He was so close and so large. She had to tip her head back, exposing the vulnerable length of her throat to the cool, damp air. Her pulse beat like an indecisive rabbit’s.
“I know it’s been a long wait,” he said. “I know there’s gossip.”
“Those are under—”
“Understatements. I know that, too.”
There he went again, finishing her sentences. Oh, he was in fighting form now. But this time, Clio wouldn’t back down. There was more to her than he believed. More than anyone suspected.
“Most of all,” he said, “I know what it’s like to be the dark horse. To have everyone betting against you, counting you out. And I know the vindication you’ll feel when you finally win. When you walk down the aisle in your big flouncy gown, on the arm of one of England’s great men, and all those gossips’ wagging tongues turn to ash. Believe me . . .” His big hands squeezed her shoulders. “Triumph is sweet. It’s so damned sweet.”
His green eyes were nearly black, and his voice was so earnest. And a deep, lonely part of her wanted to believe him.
“This was a mistake,” she said, backing away. “I don’t know why I try to explain anything to you.”