Moving in to kiss her, she pulled away. "Keep your face away from my head. I’m dangerous." She said and walked away, clearly still upset.
I moved to her side quickly and wrapped my arms around her, turning her to me. I kissed her before she could pull away from me. The kiss was meant to be loving, but immediately turned passionate. The taste of her on my lips was so amazing.
Sliding my tongue over her lips, she opened her mouth to me. I took full advantage, plunging my tongue into her mouth greedily. My hold on her tightened and I backed her to the wall, pressing my entire body against hers. Soon my hips were rocking into hers slowly.
"Aidan…" she mumbled against my lips. I kept kissing her, moving my mouth over her neck. "Aidan…" she panted out.
"Hmmm…?" I hummed against her neck.
"You need…oh god…you need to stop." She slid her hand into my hair and gripped as I lightly bit her collar bone.
"Mmhmm…" I mumbled against her neck and rocked my hips into hers again.
"Ai…" I covered her mouth with mine and brought my hand up to cup her breast, softly massaging. She pulled my hand away.
"Stop." She murmured against my mouth and pushed me away.
"What?" I asked confused, both of our breathing labored.
She blushed and then motioned to her chest. I looked down.
"Oh…I’m…I’m sorry." I pulled myself back from her.
"We can’t…uh…do anything…not for a couple of months." She looked uncomfortable with the conversation. "And…well…these." She motioned to her breasts, one with a wet spot on it now, "will sort of be off limits while I’m breast feeding."
I nodded, embarrassed at my lack of control.
"I’m gonna…uh…go change." She moved away from me as quickly as she could.
I was such a fucking idiot. I pressed my forehead against the wall, tapping my nose. "Shit." I groaned low. The pain in my nose was nasty.
Lilli returned with a different shirt on, attempting to walk passed me quickly, keeping her eyes away from looking at me.
"Hey." I grabbed her hand and walked with her down the stairs. "Don’t feel…look, I’m sorry that I started…I mean, I forgot that…"
"It’s okay." She shrugged, "just slightly embarrassing."
"Don’t be embarrassed." I squeezed her hand. "Should I be embarrassed that I’m jealous?"
"Jealous?" She looked confused. "You want to leak from your..?"
I laughed. "No, no, no. I mean that I am jealous that they get to put their mouths on you and I don’t." I smirked.
She smacked my arm.
"Don’t make it sound like that!" She laughed.
We sat at the dining room table where Rachel had set the food out. As we were eating, Jay announced that Sarah had arrived.
"Hey, Mom." Lilli went to stand up.
"Don’t get up. Eat, you’ll need it." She smiled.
"Please, sit and eat with us." I stood and pulled a chair out for her.
"Thank you." She smiled up to me.
We sat in comfortable conversation until the first cry in our home broke up the conversation. Lilli got up and I followed her.
"Someone is finally awake." I said halfway up the stairs.
"It’s Walsh." Lilli laughed.
"How do you know that?" I asked her.
"I can just tell." She shrugged and headed toward their room.
Sure enough, it was Walsh. Livy was lying quietly awake in her bed, though she was slightly fussy. Lilli changed Walsh and then sat in the chair with him, lifting her shirt to feed him. I changed Livy and then stood rocking her in my arms while watching Lilli.
It was the most natural thing to watch and yet it was so erotic. She was naturally good at this and it scared me that maybe I wasn’t as good.
"Can you hand me that receiving blanket?" Lilli pointed toward Walsh’s crib.
I walked over and looked around at the different blankets that were hanging and lying around. I heard Lilli giggle and turned around.
"The one with the ducks." She smiled affectionately.
I grabbed it and held it up. She nodded in approval. After handing it to her, she laid it over her shoulder and draped it down over Walsh.
"Why are you covering yourself?" I walked over and sat on the stool in front of her. She shrugged. I pulled the blanket back and she glared at me slightly.
"I like to watch. If I can’t feed them I want to be able to at least be a part of it this way." She sighed and relaxed back into the chair. "Besides, it’s not like I haven’t seen your…"
"Aidan." She hissed and then threw a bib at me. I laughed.
She handed Walsh off to me and gave me his receiving blanket with orders to burp him, though he may not burp. This stuff was just a tad bit confusing.
Lilli took Livy and placed her against her other breast. I sat patting Walsh as Livy fed. I was glad that I had taken the week off from work and planned to work mostly from home the week after that. Then an idea hit me.
"Lilli?"
"Hmm?" She looked up from Livy to me.
"What if we have your mother stay here this week?" Lilli’s brow furrowed. "She can help you out this week and I will work half days from home. Then, when your mom leaves, I will arrange for a full two weeks home."