I stil ed and Eric’s eyes hit me.
Oh my God, did Mace really just say that? My brain asked me.
“You fucked him?” Eric asked me.
Yep, Mace real y just said that.
Oh man, I was gonna kill Mace.
“Eric,” I whispered. I didn’t know why I found this upsetting outside of what Mace just shared and how he shared it. First, I’d been holding back from Eric. And, second, I wasn’t his girlfriend, I was his assignment (I didn’t know the Feds went that far but there you go).
But I did find this upsetting mainly because he looked like I slapped him across the face.
Eric closed his eyes and looked to the side; the teeth clench was evident again.
“You need to find another assignment.” Mace wasn’t in the mood to go with the vibe which would warn just about anyone (except Mace) to back right the fuck off.
anyone (except Mace) to back right the fuck off.
Eric opened his eyes and they were scorching hot with anger, not just at Mace, but at me.
“Eric, this is complicated,” I told him quietly.
“I know it is. I know a lot about you, Stel a. I know you fel for him and he fel for you. I also know he walked out on you.
I also know that there’s been no one since him. No one, but me. Lastly, I know you were holding back from me but I didn’t think it was because you’d fuck him the minute you got your chance. I thought it was because you figured you’d get fucked over again if you opened up to anyone,” Eric explained, not nicely but it was an explanation.
“Careful with your words.” Mace decided to focus on the
“not nice” part.
“You didn’t open up to me!” I defended myself, ignoring Mace and focusing on the “explanation” part.
“I got a job to do. Opening up to you wasn’t part of my directive,” he lashed out.
A different kind of imaginary gut kick, this delivered by Eric.
“Thanks a lot,” I snapped.
“Fal ing for you wasn’t either,” Eric returned.
There it went again, my breath taking off, this time, to Wyoming.
Mace’s body tensed.
Shitsofuckit!
I opened my mouth to speak but it was too late, Eric turned, opened the door and started to walk out.
He stopped and looked back at Mace. “Take better fuckin’ care of her this time.”
fuckin’ care of her this time.”
Then he slammed the door and was gone.
Chapter Seven
Blackbird
Stella
I stared at the door not sure how I felt about what just happened; only sure it was unhappy and unpleasant and maybe a little sad.
Mace held onto me.
“Get out,” I said quietly, stil staring at the door.
“Tel me you didn’t fuck him,” Mace replied.
I closed my eyes, hard, and swal owed. This was to obtain a measure of control in order not to scream at the top of my lungs.
Then, again quietly, I repeated, “Mace, get out.” Mace didn’t let go. Mace didn’t move. Mace didn’t speak.
We stood that way, his arm stil around me, me stil pressed back to his front, both of us staring at the door, both silent, for what seemed like a long time.
Then his head came to my shoulder and he moved my hair away with his chin.
At my ear, he said (now his voice was quiet), “First night I was with you, you came hard and you came fast. The night I got back from Hawaii, you did the same. This morning, the same. Every time in between, it took a little more effort to get you to purr for me, Kitten.”
I held my breath. His words shook me. Simply what he said but also how much he remembered. I didn’t even think guys remembered shit like that.
“You didn’t let him fuck you,” he finished softly and he sounded relieved.
“Keep going, Mace, this is great. Pretty soon, I might hate you.”
Entirely unaffected by my words, he kissed my neck, let me go and whistled between his teeth for Juno. I heard Juno trundle off the bed and her claws on the wood floors as she approached us.
I watched him take the leash from the workout bag.
“What are you doing?” I asked.
“Juno needs out. We’re goin’ for a walk. We’l be back.”
“No you won’t. I just kicked you out,” I reminded him.
Mace stopped a foot in front of me. Juno was there so he bent, clicked on Juno’s leash and straightened. He leaned into me, kissed my disbelieving mouth lightly then he and Juno were gone.
I found myself staring at the door again.
Then I found myself wanting to cry.
My boyfriend I didn’t want just broke up with me (I was pretty sure that was what just happened) and I was thinking maybe now I was wrong about not wanting him. My ex-boyfriend that I wanted back thought we were back together and now I was thinking I was wrong about wanting him back (I wasn’t sure at al about that). And someone I didn’t even know wanted me dead.