“However you’re having it is fine.”
I fetch the bourbon from the living room and bring the bottle to the kitchen to pour. “It’s a trade-off,” I say when I pass him a glass with a few ounces of bourbon and two cubes of ice. “I like it slightly chilled, but if you savor it too long the ice melts and it gets watered down.”
“Then we’ll have to drink fast,” he says, then tilts his glass and tosses it back.
“Sorry, dude. I’ve already done the wasted thing with you. I’m going to sip mine.”
“A shame. You’re entertaining when you’re drunk.” His hand slides into his pocket.
“No way. Don’t even go there.”
He smiles back at me, and it’s a nice moment. Just me and Damien Stark kidding around in my kitchen. Who would’ve thought?
He pours himself another glass. “I do have one more reason for coming here tonight,” he says. “I wanted to check on you, and I wanted to give you the painting. But there’s something else, too. I have a proposition for you.”
I let the words sink in, trying to analyze my feelings about them. Proposition. That could mean so many things. Something to do with C-Squared. With me. With me and Damien.
I swallow. The best course—the safest course—is to thank him for the present and tell him that I don’t even want to hear this latest twist. And yet …
And yet I want to. I’m playing with fire, and I know it.
But the sad truth is that part of me wants to get burned.
“I’m listening,” I say, and then I toss my bourbon back, too. I’m not sure what it is that I’m trying to prove to him, but I meet his eyes with satisfaction.
“Another?” he asks dryly.
“Why the hell not?”
He pours me the drink, then moves close to hand it to me. I stay rooted to the spot. I can feel his heat. I could reach out right then and run my hand over his chest. I could watch as my skin cracked and burned from the fire that is Damien Stark. I don’t, but I have to clutch my glass hard against the impulse.
“I’ve scoured Los Angeles and Orange County. I’ve looked at the online collections of galleries all over the country. I haven’t found what I’m looking for.”
“For your new house. We’re talking about the artwork you want to hang in the house you’re building?” Of all the possibilities, this is not one that would have occurred to me.
“I’ve finally figured out what I want, and yet it doesn’t exist. Not yet, anyway.”
He’s eyeing me with such deliberate intensity that I start to feel nervous under his gaze.
“I’m not really following you.”
“As I said, I have a proposition. You.”
“Ah. Um. I’m still not following you.”
“I want a portrait. Of you. I want a nude.”
My mouth opens, but I can’t quite form words.
“The view is from behind. You’re at the foot of a bed, facing a window that looks out over the ocean. Sheer curtains billow around you, caressing your skin. You stand at an angle, so we can see the swell of your breast, the barest hint of a nipple. But your face is turned away. Your identity is a secret. It’s known only to me. And, of course, to you.”
His words crash over me like waves, their pull as strong as the tide. I feel the tug of them between my thighs, and the unmistakable wetness as well. I want this—to be on display, and not just for Damien’s pleasure, but for all the world to see. Anonymous, and yet known. It’s not the kind of thing a girl like me is supposed to want. It’s wild and wanton and even though I know Damien would say that it’s art and it’s beautiful, there’s no denying that it’s a little bit naughty, too. The pretty princess up on display.
Except that’s not who I am. And that’s sure as hell not what I am.