TWELVE
The bluish-red hues of Monday evening’s dusk settled over Reggie’s house as she sat in the garage behind the wheel of Gram’s old Corvair, eating McDonald’s and listening to an oldies station on the push-button radio.
Comfort all around. She’d not deny it. French fries, chocolate shake, the Beach Boys, and Gram’s Corvair.
It’s where she came when she needed to think, pray, find harmony in her soul.
Drawing a long drink of cold chocolate richness from her straw, the sweetness cooling her turbulent emotions, she stared out the windshield through the open garage door toward the purple end of day and the amber rise of the streetlamp.
Who would help Mrs. Shaw with her flower beds if she went to Hessenberg?
“Care for some company?” Tanner peered through the passenger window.
Startled, Reggie steadied her racing heart with a deep breath. “Where did you come from?”
“Through the house . . . you didn’t answer the bell and the front door was unlocked.” He slipped into the passenger seat. “This is a fun old motorcar.”
“It’s was Gram’s. She bought it in ’68. Drove it for twenty years. Have you had dinner?”
“No, I—”
“They’re still hot.” Reggie passed him the fries.
Tanner reached for a few sticks off the top. “So this is what you do? Eat fast food in an old car?”
“Sometimes. When I need to go back to ground, figure stuff out.”
“Such an admirable quality, Regina. You take time to ponder a matter.”
“Heaven help the girl who didn’t ponder this matter. The one you dumped in my lap.”
Tanner took a few more fries. “May I ask you something? Why do you like old cars so much?”
Reggie set her milk shake on the console and reached for a napkin, wiping a bit of cold dew from her fingers. “After Mama died, Al had just retired and his wife, Miriam, had us over to dinner just about every night. Daddy loaded up Gram and me and off we went. Miriam was—and is—very kind to me. Motherly. Al had just purchased an old GTO to restore, so after dinner Daddy and Al went out to work on the car. I started tagging along to watch, helped if they let me. Miriam played gin rummy with Gram or watched TV.”
The words flowed easy and smooth, surprising Reggie because for the first time in seventeen years, she was vocalizing her memories. “The sounds of the garage, the clank of tools, the murmur of Daddy’s and Al’s voices, the gunning of an engine . . . it became home to me.”
“Home base.”
“After Gram died, I’d go out to the garage and sit in her car. For hours. Just thinking and listening to the radio, running down the battery.” She laughed softly. “Don’t you know I learned to use jumper cables early on.”
“I’m sure it was a difficult time for you, being so young, without a mum.”
“Then my dog died.”
“Then your dog died? I say . . .”
Reggie shook her head and gazed out the windshield. “Bonnie. A Sheltie. She was going on fifteen, so she had a good life. Just the timing was rotten.”
“Sounds like the makings of an American country song.”
“I’m saying . . .” she said, glancing at Tanner. “But no country song I ever heard ended with the girl being a real princess.”
“There’s a first time for everything. You should give it a go.” He seemed more relaxed than earlier. She liked this Tanner better than the formal, stiff, all-business one. He grabbed a few more French fries. It was as if he couldn’t quite decide who he was or what kind of man he needed to be.
“What’s your story, Tanner? Why did they send you?” Reggie reached for the volume knob as the announcer introduced Van Morrison and “Brown Eyed Girl.”
“My story . . . pretty boring. Parents. One brother. Boarding school. University. The law college—”
“You know, listing your life in bullet points isn’t telling me who you really are, Tanner.”
“—four years as a barrister, three as a staffer in the governor’s office, six months as Minister of Culture.”
“And yet I still don’t know why they sent you?”
“I know the entail.” He looked in the McDonald’s bag and took out a napkin, his tone back to a clipped, formal sound. “And I’m Minister of Culture.” He looked over at her, his face half in shadow, half in the light. “You, in essence, are our culture, Regina. The king needed an ambassador and he thought I fit the bill.”
“Are y’all friends?”
“We knew each other a bit . . . at university. Friends? I’d say not.”
“Do you, like, get fired if I refuse to go?”
“Lose my position?” He wadded the napkin into his palm. “No, but it won’t look smart on my record.”
“Then I’m sorry for putting you between a rock and a hard place.”
“As I am sorry for doing the same to you.” His expression sparked her heart with a strange new sensation. “You’re determined not to return with me?” he said.
No, not so determined. “Still thinking.” Would she return for Hessenberg’s sake or because she liked him?
Oh no, please, Reg.
See, Carrie was right. Reggie should’ve been boy crazy in junior high and killed all the juvenile love flutters. But no, she’d refused. So here she sat at twenty-nine infatuated with a man determined to ruin her life.
Ruin? No, he isn’t here to ruin anything. Reggie peered at Tanner to discover he was peering at her. She flushed with a blend of embarrassment and desire.
“What of your father’s advice?” Tanner said after a moment. “Have you spoken any more to him of this situation?”
“He says I should go.”
“Brown Eyed Girl” faded and “Love Me Tender” drifted from the speakers into the car.
“Ah, the king of rock and roll,” Tanner said with a slight bow toward the radio.
Elvis’s smooth, velvet voice swirled around Reggie, making her mellow and nostalgic.
Love me tender, love me true . . .
The intimate melody, along with Tanner’s presence, made her melancholy. Then her eyes met his and . . . Oh boy. She hit the chocolate milk shake hard.
“Regina, is there anything I can say or do—”
“How long would I have to stay?” She cranked the engine to charge up the battery. The old motor grunted and hissed, then settled down to a smooth idle. “We just got that huge warehouse, rent free.”
“Stay? In Hessenberg? Several weeks. A month. Maybe more. Until the entail is executed and you’ve taken the oath and accepted your inheritance.”
Anxiety burned under her skin. “What exactly is my inheritance?” Was this who she really was to be? “And this is all imminent, right?”
“Yes, and there are other details . . . the business of government. As I said, you’ll be Head of State and therefore required to call for a government to be formed. As for your inheritance, it is the throne and the Grand Duchy of Hessenberg.”
Each detail layered her anxiety with panic. “I inherit a country?”
“That’s what dukes and duchesses are, Regina. Owners of lands, regions. In your case, a whole island nation.”
“But I can leave?”
“We pray you won’t, but yes, you can abdicate.”
“Abdicate. I couldn’t have cared less about that word a few days ago. Now it sounds ominous, full of failure.”
“But it’s how you can return home.”
“Then what? What happens to Hessenberg? Anarchy again?” The weight of Tanner’s request, of the nation’s need, rested on her heart, growing heavier with each breath.
“Your government will take over.”
“My government? Even when I’m not there?”
“The one you established after signing the entail will carry on. And yes, there will be turmoil.”
Reggie pressed the heels of her hands to her temples, shivering, trying to imagine the impossible. “When I was a kid, there was a big dirt pile at the end of the road. A bunch of us would run down there and play King of the Hill. It’s the only ground I ever wanted to rule.”
“And did you?”
She laughed softly, remembering. “I was the reigning champ.”
“I rest my case,” Tanner said.
“Beating other kids to the top of a dirt pile is not the same as running, or helping to run, a country.” She had a wild thought and voiced it. “By the way, how do I know you’re not some international criminal making all this up?”
He stared at her for a moment. “You’ve the documentation to prove I’m not, but I suppose you don’t know for sure. However, rest assured, if I were, as you say, an international criminal, my target would not be a garage owner in Tallahassee, Florida.”
His tone, his inflection, his voice all smacked her funny bone. “Touché.”
“Regina, don’t misunderstand. I know this is not easy for you.”
The bass thump of “My Girl” buzzed the speakers. I’ve got sunshine . . .
“Not easy? Tanner, I don’t want to go forward, but bubba, I’m not sure I can just stay in place. Certainly not go backwards.” The core question of her heart surfaced and confronted him. “No matter what I choose, I know the truth and my life is forever changed. Go or stay, I’ll always know I am . . . was . . .” She swallowed, the word stuck in her throat.
“A princess?”
“Yes, a princess ever after.”
“Will you come with me to Hessenberg? Please?”
She peered at him, his question drilling into her heart, deeper and deeper, scoring her very foundation. She must go see. She had to try. For Gram.
With this new truth and revelation rattling around in her heart, how would she ever be satisfied with anything less?
At half past midnight, Tanner rode in the back of a Mercedes limo through the quiet city streets of Strauberg, bluish-white streetlamps tinting the rain-soaked night.
He’d made it home. With the princess. Once she decided to go, she charged through her world, leaving no doubt in her wake. Perhaps a set of confused friends and coworkers, but seemingly no doubt. She claimed she was visiting Hessenberg for a few weeks to “check this thing out.”
Watching her prepare for the trip, Tanner gained perspective on his charge. Regina processed things, the largeness of her destiny, one mental bite at a time.
Now she sat across from him, crushed into the soft leather seat, her eyes at half-mast. He wasn’t sure what turmoil churned in her heart and mind, but she appeared peaceful.
“Did you sleep at all on the flight?” he asked when she looked at him.
“Who can sleep at forty thousand feet over the Atlantic?” She sat forward, tucking her hands under her legs and peering out the rain-dotted window. “It looks so quiet out there.”
“This is Market Avenue, the business district of the city. There’s little activity after nine. Two streets over is where the nightlife happens. Restaurants and pubs.”
“The city has an old feel.” She moved to power down the window. A gust of cold, wet air swooped into the limo.
“If you think four hundred years is old, then so it is.”
She laughed and stuck her arm out the window, cutting the breeze with her hand. After a moment, she pulled inside, shivering, and raised the window.
“Are you glad to be home?”
“I don’t know . . . I rather enjoyed Tallahassee. I’d have liked to see a football game.”
“They are fun. My friends and I never missed one in college. Maybe next time you’re in town, in the fall, we can get in a game.”
“It’s a deal.” He warmed with the notion he might be in her future falls. “I played rugby myself in university.”
“Rugby.” She smiled with surprise. “Hmm, somehow I can’t see you in the middle of a scrum.”
“Yes, well . . . there you go.” He refrained from saying more, guarded against crossing the line between personal and professional. Too many times in the past twenty-four hours he had found himself bumping up against propriety. She made it too easy to talk, open up his heart, be her friend. It started the night she barged into his hotel with the fairy tale and the signet ring. Her wild-eyed wonderment and confusion about what was happening endeared her to him.
The limo slowed for a caution light, and the edge of the blue streetlamp lit the shadows in the back of the limo.
He liked her. There, heart, are you happy? He’d admitted something romance-related to his emotions. But make no mistake, he’d erected safety walls long ago, and they must be maintained. For personal security and professional decorum.
“Are you married?” she asked.
He focused on her as the car moved on, away from the city and toward the palace on the hill. “Pardon?”
“Are you married?” She pointed to her ring finger. “No ring, but that doesn’t mean anything these days.”
“I’m not. Married. No.”
“Divorced? Kids—”
“So many questions so late in the evening?” He tried to make light of it, deter her attention, but his words felt forced. He didn’t want to lie to her. But he could not confess his deepest and darkest sorrow. No matter how much he loved talking to her.
“Regina, I’ll have my assistant print out a schedule and information for you, including my phone number. But for now, I’ll come around in the morning after breakfast to collect you. We’ve a ten o’clock meeting with the king, Brighton’s prime minister, and the governor of Hessenberg in my office.”
“Wow . . . so many important people. And me.” She pressed her hand to her middle and blew out a low, slow breath. “Is it too late to change my mind?”
“Until you take the oath and are set in officially as Princess of Hessenberg by the king and archbishop, you can leave at any time without consequences.”
“Welcome to Hotel California.”
He laughed. “Hardly. You can check out, leave, and return home. But you’re here now, so you might as well give it a go. As you say, now that you know the truth, how can you return to who you were?”
The limo climbed and maneuvered through narrow country lanes, winding up a hillside.
“We’re almost to Meadowbluff Palace.” Tanner opened the window to the driver. “Please open the roof, Dickenson.”
The top panel over Regina’s head slid back and the moon peeked inside.
Regina drew a deep breath. “I smell the ocean.” She stood on the seat and stretched to see above the car. “Oh, we’re so high. The lights below are so beautiful.”
Tanner hesitated, then squeezed in next to her, watching as Meadowbluff loomed on the pearly horizon. He’d made it. Brought the princess home.
“What’s the name of the bay again?”
“Braeleon.”
“Braeleon Bay,” Regina repeated. “What does it mean?”
“I have no idea.”
“Fine Minister of Culture you are.” She bumped him with her elbow, rattling the stones in his emotional walls, then stretched farther over the top of the car to peer down. “It’s a straight drop.”
“We’re going up a mountain,” Tanner said. “From where the palace sits, a watchman can see the southern ports and all exposed roads. On the other side of that ridge”—he pointed to the dark line behind the palace—“there’s a watchman post for the northern ports and roads.”
“So the palace is a safe place.”
“Yes, guarded by the watchmen.”
The limo dipped with the road, shoving Regina against him. He wrapped his arm about her waist to steady her, then found he didn’t want to let go.
“We’re nearly there. Let me ring ahead to make sure everyone is ready.” He ducked inside the car, quite sure Regina could hear every boisterous beat of his heart.
The place around her waist where Tanner held on to her was still warm after he ducked inside the car.
She’d registered and tucked away how different Tanner’s touch felt from Mark’s, but for now her energy, her emotions, her thoughts were not on romance but on the palace and the night-scape ahead of her.
Meadowbluff, with its gables and turrets, was framed perfectly by the towering Cliffs of White just like in Gram’s fairy tale.
Reggie followed the straight line of the cliffs down to the water. A ghostly stream of moonlight draped across the surface of the bay and lapped against the shoreline, which was buttoned to the earth with a row of pearly-diamond lights.
Reggie ducked inside the car. “It’s beautiful.”
“Yes, quite.” Tanner read his iPhone without looking up.
“Is everything all right?”
He set his phone aside, popping on a smile. “Indeed.”
“What’s down at the bottom of the mountain? By the bay?”
“Docks. Restaurants. Hotels.”
Reggie settled back in her seat. “Thank you . . . for having him open the roof. The view truly is breathtaking.”
“Welcome to Hessenberg and Meadowbluff Palace, the childhood home of your gram, and your inheritance.”
Gram. Palace. Princess. All so surreal. Reggie was Mary Poppins, jumping into a watercolor painting with the power of one word. Inheritance.
The limo paused at the gate and Reggie peeked out the top again, watching the high, ornate wrought-iron bars swing wide.
Down the paved pebble drive, Reggie propped on her elbows, the breeze in her face. The palace windows were lit and bright, every one of them, spilling light onto the manicured grounds and flower gardens. Floodlights splashed illumination on a high, arching front portico and round columns.
When the limo pulled up, Reggie reached for her bag and slung the strap over her head. Treat this as an adventure. One moment, one day at a time. Sooner or later, she’d pop out of the fairy tale painting and back to real life.
Reggie stepped under the palace portico, feeling minuscule in the presence of the grand structure. “I could fix a lot of cars in this place.”
“You could,” Tanner said, urging her toward the broad stone steps with a light touch on her elbow. “But know that the marble floors are four hundred years old.”
“We can throw down a tarp.” He didn’t laugh. And after she heard her words, she agreed. They weren’t funny.
Following him up the steps, turning, observing, she wished she knew as much about European architecture as she did about cars and accounting.
At the door, Tanner pushed a button. “Most of the living is done on the second floor. But the dining hall is on the main floor. Jarvis should be able to get you squared away.”
“And who is Jarvis?” Her legs quivered, suddenly a bit weak from the length of her journey.
“Your butler and house manager.” Tanner glanced back at the driver coming up the steps with her one little roller board suitcase. “Dickenson is your driver.”
“Pardon? Driver?” She glanced at the older man with round cheeks coming up the steps. She twitched with the urge to step back and help him by reaching for her suitcase. “It rolls,” she said when he got to the top. “Tanner,” she said, leaning toward him. “I can drive myself.”
“Dickenson will drive you until you get familiar with the city.” Matter-of-fact, no debate. “You have other staff as well. Two ladies-in-waiting, four maids, two chefs, and two footmen. For now.”
“I’m one person. I don’t need a staff. I can feed myself. And I’m not even sure what a lady-in-waiting does. Or a footman.”
Tanner angled toward her as the door, twice the width and height of any ole door she’d ever seen before, glided open, exposing a grand, glowing foyer and peeling back the first mystery of life inside a palace.
“Regina, you’re not in Tallahassee anymore, working in an old red barn. You’re in Hessenberg as our Princess and future Grand Duchess. Welcome to your life as a royal heir.”
THIRTEEN
September 16, 1914
Meadowbluff Palace
I write tonight with a heavy heart, pouring out words to understand what is happening in our world.
Everything is changing. The world is at war. Brothers have taken up arms against brothers. I find I am at a loss on how to pray. On what to believe.
The worst is Rein. Word is he has abandoned Hessenberg and Uncle’s declaration of neutrality and enlisted in the Kaiser’s army.
Uncle and Cousin Wilhelm are quite at odds with one another, and I see Rein’s choice, if it’s true, as a betrayal of Hessenberg, of Uncle, and of me.
He messaged me this afternoon, asking me to meet him at the stand of trees on the edge of the meadow, eight o’clock sharp. I should have asked Mamá’s permission, but I felt sure she would deny me. And rightfully so.
Yet I have to see him. My heart must know Rein did not join sides with Germany. If by chance Uncle does enter the war, it most certainly will not be with the Axis. Others may fight against their country, their brothers, but how can Rein?
It’s unthinkable that he’d raise arms against Uncle’s army, or Brighton’s, and spill his countrymen’s blood.
So tonight I slipped out of the palace unnoticed and arrived at our meeting place, searching the shadows and the open meadow for him. I love him so much. And I am quite certain he loves me. I held hope that all would be well. Everything would sort out.
“Rein, I’m here.” Uncle’s ragtime melodies drifted across the lawn, playing through the open music parlor windows.
“Rein,” I called again, a bit louder. If he stood me up, I thought, he’d rue the next time we were together. I was just about to leave when strong, powerful arms snatched me from behind. “Miss me?”
My heart leapt to my throat. I pounded his chest with my fist. “You frightened me, you silly boy. And yes, I missed you.”
“Sorry, darling. I was trying to surprise you.” He kissed my cheek and I felt utterly warm all over, as if I might swoon.
“Well, be more tender about it in the future.” That’s when I noticed his attire.
“Rein, you’re wearing a German uniform.” My legs quivered. I felt positively ill.
“Alice,” he said, stepping fully into the moonlight so I could see his lean, handsome face, his eyes intense like a hawk’s. ““I’ve joined with the German hussars.”
“Rein, how can you enlist against Hessenberg? Against Uncle?”
“Your uncle is a coward. He’ll not fight. Mark my words, before it’s all said and done, Hessenberg will be in this war. The Kaiser will see to it.”
“But he doesn’t want to fight. Especially with the Kaiser. Why did you not join Brighton’s army, or England’s?”
“Ha. Brighton? Those traitors. Right in there with your cowardly uncle. No, I’d not fight for the likes of them. I followed my German heritage. Of my father and grandfather.” He gripped my arms and fear quelled my feelings of love.
“Rein, you are on royal Hessenberg soil. Uncle could arrest you for treason against the crown if you’re found out.”
“Treason? No, Alice, he is the treasonous one, betraying all of Hessenberg. Betraying you. He’s throwing away your very way of life.”
“Are you mad? Uncle would never betray me! His own heir? You’re full of propaganda, Rein!” How I despised arguing with him, but I could not let his words go unchallenged.
“Am I? Then why won’t he fight?” His laugh chilled the last warm sentiments I ever felt for him. “He’s no leader, Alice.” Rein snatched my arm again, his fingers digging into it. “Come with me. You won’t be safe in Hessenberg.”
“I most certainly will be safe. This is my home.”
Marry me, Alice. After the war, we can return to Hessenberg.”
“Marry you? Uncle would never allow it.”
He released me at last, and I stumbled back, catching myself against a tree. How could I have been so blind and deceived?
“The world is changing, Alice. There won’t be kings and princes, grand dukes or ruling royal families when we finish the fight. All men will be equal. The revolution is happening.”
“You’re a fool, Rein Friedrich. The House of Augustine-Saxon has stood for four hundred and fifty years. We were not toppled by other revolutions and wars. We will not be toppled by this one.”
“This is the war to end all wars, Alice. No more kings sending troops into battle to save their precious throne.”
Everything became clear. So very clear. “You say you love me, but yet you mock my very existence.”
“Mock? No. I’m offering you a place in the new order.” He looked down at me, speaking in a secretive tone, giving me gooseflesh. “New leaders will emerge. Come with me, Alice. You’ll be the wife of a military officer for the most powerful nation on earth. A noblewoman among the superior race.”
“A noblewoman? When I am already the rank of a royal princess?”
“You won’t be a royal princess when this is all over, Alice. The royal houses will fall.”
“My dear Rein.” I dusted him from my hands, from my heart, displaying more courage than I really had. “No war can erase my birth nor my title. I am now and always will be Her Royal Highness, Princess Alice of Hessenberg. A princess is defined not by her title alone but how she lives her life. Never, ever speak to me again with such disrespect. I am not your bar wench or lower-wharf whore whom you can beg to run off with you in the night. You want my hand? Discard this horrid uniform, stand before my uncle like a man and ask. Not that I would say yes, mind you.”
“I’ll ask him for nothing but his royal scepter.”
“Get out!” I shoved him into the shadows. “Get out of my meadow.”
“You’ll regret this, Alice.” He snatched at my arm and shoved his half of my cipher pendant into my hand. My gift to him. Cut in half to show we shared our hearts.
“I most assuredly do.” I clutched the pendant to my chest and willed myself not to weep. My love, my Rein, is a traitor.
’Tis where we ended our short love affair. With angry words and broken dreams. But oh, my heart.
I didn’t cry until I returned to my suite where I tore our picture, our one and only picture, and threw it to the ground. Then I had immediate determination to save the photo as a reminder of this day, of love’s foolishness. To never let my heart be deceived again.
My cipher pendant will serve as the same.
Yet as I slipped into bed, Rein’s words about Uncle and some entail with Brighton lingered in my thoughts. I felt grieved, as if something happened that neither Uncle nor I will never be able to undo.
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