She did not reply, instead saying, “Trotula, enough.” The dog returned to all-paws, but did not stop staring up at her new love with her enormous, soulful gaze. Pippa could not fault her traitorous nature. “It seems she likes you.”
“I have a special talent for ladies,” he said in a warm, kind voice she at once loved and loathed. A vision of Sally Tasser flashed. And the prostitute at the card table that evening. And Knight’s pretty daughter.
She swung her legs off the side of her bed. “So I’ve seen.” His attention snapped immediately to her, but she changed tack. “This room is on the third floor.”
Another man would have hesitated. Would not have instantly understood. “I would have climbed farther to see you.” He paused. Then, “I had to see you.”
The ache returned. “You could have fallen. Hurt yourself.”
“Rather that than hurt you.”
She looked down at her lap, hands twisted in the white linen of her nightgown, and whispered, “You once told me that if Castleton hurt me, he wasn’t doing it right.”
He stilled. “Yes.”
She met his eyes. “You’re not doing it right.”
He was across the room in an instant, on his knees at the side of the bed, his hands on hers, sending rivers of excitement and heat and elation through her even as she knew she should push him away and return him, immediately, out the window through which he came, three stories be damned.
“I shouldn’t be here,” he whispered. “I should be anywhere but here.” He bowed his head, his forehead coming to rest on their hands. “But I had to see you. I had to explain.”
She shook her head. “There is nothing to explain,” she said. “You are marrying another.” She heard the hitch in her voice, the slight hesitation between the first and second syllables of another. Hated it.
Closed her eyes. Willed him gone.
Failed.
“You told me you wouldn’t marry. Another lie.”
It was as though she hadn’t spoken. He did not deny it. “You’ve been crying.”
She shook her head. “Not on purpose.”
One side of his beautiful mouth rose in a crooked smile. “No, I don’t imagine it was.”
Something about the words, soft and filled with humor and something else, made her suddenly, startlingly irritated. “You made me cry,” she accused.
He went serious. “I know.”
“You are marrying another.” She repeated the words for what seemed like the hundredth time. The millionth. As though if she said them enough, they would lose their meaning. Their sting.
He nodded. “As are you.”
She’d been engaged for as long as they’d known each other. But somehow, his impending marriage was a greater betrayal. It was illogical, she knew, but logic did not appear to have a place here.
Another reason she did not like it.
“I hate that I’ve made you cry,” he said, his fingers flexing over hers.
She stared down at the place where their hands were intertwined, loving the play of freckles over his skin, the soft down of the ginger hair there, between the first and second knuckle. Her thumb rubbed across his index finger, and she watched the strands move, stretching and bending before they snapped back to their original place, instantly forgetting her touch.
She spoke to those hairs. “When I was a child, I had a friend named Beavin.” She paused, but did not look at him. He did not speak, so she continued, not entirely knowing where she was going. “He was kind and gentle, and he listened ever so well. I used to tell him secrets—things that no one else knew. Things that no one else would understand.”
His grip on her hands tightened, and she met his gaze. “But Beavin understood. He explored Needham Manor with me. He helped me discover my love for science. He was there on the day that I stole a goose from the kitchens and dissected it. I blamed him for it. And he never minded.”
His gaze darkened. “I find I don’t care much for this perfect companion, Pippa. Where is he now?”
She shook her head. “He went away.”
His brows snapped together. “Where?”
She smiled. “Wherever imaginary friends go.”
He exhaled harshly, lifting one hand to her temple, pushing a mass of hair back from her face. “He was imaginary.”
“I never understood why others couldn’t see him,” she whispered. “Penny used to humor me . . . pretend to interact with him, but she never believed in him. My mother tried to shame him away.” She shrugged, then said, simply, “But he was my friend.”
He smiled. “I like the idea of you and your imaginary friend dissecting a goose.”
“There were a great deal of feathers.”
The smile became a laugh. “I imagine there were.”
“And not near as much blood as one might think,” she added. “Though I did scare a maid nearly to death.”
“In the name of science.”
She smiled then. “In the name of science.”