Norma Jean

chapter 15



Creed



I know you probably have your opinions about me already. I’m sure they aren’t good, but I feel the need to clear a few things up with you.

First I only found out I was Macy’s father the day I kidnapped her. It was the only way I could think of to get back at Chance and Norma. I had no intentions of hurting her. I might have questionable morals but hurting a kid is something I would never do. Let alone my own kid.

Second, I did not rape Cassie. I have enough women dropping at me feet, I don’t need to force them to have sex with me. I think she has this f*cked up way of trying to save herself some reputation. All that bullshit about her not having sex with anyone around the time she f*cked me, is some of the craziest stuff I have ever heard. I know for a fact she had sex with one of my buddies at the same party she hooked up with me. How do I know that? I walked in on them, duh.

I never really spent any time around Macy so I didn’t see that she looks so much like me. You could take a picture of her as a baby, hold it up next to one of mine and you wouldn’t be able to tell the difference. That’s how I pieced it together. My mom was so drunk that day, but she asked why she was seeing a little “me” walking around. Things kind of clicked after that.

I already played the part of the bad guy, so why not throw me under the bus. In some sick way I think Cassie was trying to protect her brother from finding out she is a complete whore. Still is in fact, but that’s neither here or there.

Third, I didn’t kill Norma’s grandmother. The whole town of Duke knows she is the secret keeper and I went to her house to find some shit out. When I got there, she was already dead. I knew the police were looking for me in connection to Macy’s disappearance so I couldn’t risk just giving them a ring. So I called Norma. Yeah I got totally pissed when Chance answered and I acted like a dumb ass. I shouldn’t have been flipping that lighter where he could hear me. Now everyone thinks I killed Norma’s grandmother. Something I never wanted to be called is a murderer. Unless it was deserved. Now I have the headlines screaming this right above my name. It leaves me so unbelievably pissed off. I honestly want to kill someone.

I only showed up at that old ladies house to find out what in the hell happened to my mom. She isn’t missing or anything but I can remember a time when my mom loved life. She would get up every day, put on makeup, tell me she loved me, and go to work. I know my dad passed, and that he was a sorry son of a bitch. I was old enough to remember him. But what’s wrong with my mother is more than that. Something so f*cked up happened to her, she won’t quit drinking and doing drugs. I’ve sent her to rehab, hell the woman has even had her custody of me taken away. Nothing will change her. Not one damn thing.

I used to let it get to me, but now I’m I just checking to make sure her dead body isn’t rotting on the bathroom floor. I think it would be a relief to both of us, if I found that one day. Though I think God is punishing her for something, and that’s the only reason she hasn’t overdosed.

So yeah that’s what I was doing there that night. Since she was long gone by the time I got there, I never did find out what my mother is hiding. Maybe she truly did kill my dad like most people think. That is one day I never want to relive.

I came home from school and there he was lying dead on his bedroom floor. There was a quarter sized bullet hole in the middle of his head. No gun in sight. They have yet to find the murder weapon to this day.

I could believe she killed him. He ruined her life, slowly but surely. First she popped me out at a young age, and her parents forced her to marry him. So there wasn’t any love between them, not that there ever was. Then he started to beat her every single day. She learned to hide it with makeup and excuses but everyone knows what was really happening to her. Not that anyone tried to do anything about it.

I think around the time that he died, it got so bad he wouldn’t even let her leave the house. He was always accusing her of cheating on him. Not that I see why it mattered, he was screwing anything he could. My dad and Chance’s used to hit up every bar they could find for a little piece of ass. I had to tag along some times. So yeah I knew Mr. Duncan was cheating way before Chance did. Maybe I should have said something, but why ruin his life like that? He was my best friend. Does that make me a bad person? Probably.

Fourth and final. I love Norma Jean Davis more than life itself. You can believe me or think I’m lying I don’t really care. It’s the truth and probably the most honest thing I have ever done. My love might not be pure like Chance’s. I did things I’m not proud of, but she’s mine. I don’t know how she could love a man like Chance. One who made fun of her every day for months, one who it took years to figure out the beauty of that girl.

I’ve known since I was five, what kind of wonderful she is. There was this dog who had gotten run over and I found her one afternoon sitting by it crying her eyes out. I never said anything to her but I watched as she sat with that dog until it took its last breath and then she buried it in a shallow grave in the woods. I couldn’t help thinking what a kind person she was.

So I watched her from that moment on. Yeah I should have stood up for her when Chance picked on her, but it’s like this. I was 12 and only worried about popularity. Chance was a big shot and if you didn’t follow him then you were nothing. At home I was nothing, I wasn’t about to become that at school too. Though I found it so courageous that she never did anything to him. Well not until high school graduation day. I was as surprised as Chance about what she had planned. Though I knew it was all a farce. She believed me that day when I told her Chance was cheating.

Which between you and I, is something that man would never do. I have to say that Chance is a completely different person than the one I blindly followed all those years ago.

That is why I was so pissed the day he asked her out. I wanted to be that. The one she said yes to. The one she is in love with now. So I did what I do best. I f*cked it all up and I’m not sorry for that. I love everything that girl represents and I will until my last dying breath.

I know you’re reading this and rolling your eyes. I don’t care. Yeah I hit her, I made her have sex with me in public, and I even made her sell drugs. Oh she didn’t tell you that? Little tramp. I had her running drugs for me through her dorm. She wasn’t happy about it, don’t get me wrong, but I had to have something over her head. Something she couldn’t just leave me for. I don’t feel bad for that.

Though I feel bad for all the shit I put her through. I honestly guess I have my father’s blood running through my veins. I felt like I couldn’t trust anything that came out of her mouth because I knew she wasn’t in love with me. Not like she loved Chance. He was her entire world and I couldn’t get over my anger about it. I wanted to smash her face in and his. Chance doesn’t deserve the goodness that is Norma Jean.

And Chance doesn’t deserve to be breathing simply for the fact that he has touched what is mine. I won’t let that go so easily. He couldn’t truly hold on to her anyway. I mean I took her out from right under his nose, and I don’t feel bad about it at all.

Maybe I am a bad person and maybe she doesn’t deserve either of us, but I don’t care. I cheated on her yeah, but I couldn’t get over the fact that she didn’t want to have sex with me. I only let her go because they say if you set them free……. I had every hope she would return to me. But she didn’t. She went and f*cked that a*shole in my bed. That won’t go unpunished and both of them are lucky if I let them walk out of this alive.

To say I’m pissed is an understatement. I’m out for blood, but only their blood. No one else will get hurt in all this but those two. They think they are so clever. Well Chance does. Norma knows I can find her. She knows me better than anyone else. Which is also something I love about her. She gets me when no one else ever has.

Do you really think I wouldn’t know where my former best friend and Norma’s ex-boyfriend lived? Chance is honestly the dumbest person if he thinks that. Yeah I know all about little Declan Sage. Just like the rest of us, he has daddy issues. I think that’s why their little posse was formed. Not because they all have really f*cked up love lives, but because they all have issues with their fathers. Chance more so than the others.

I also know about little Marcus Sage. Teagan Harper. Caden Harper. I know where every one of the above persons are located at any given second. How do you ask? Because I have several good friends following them right now. I also have one following Chance and Norma and I know they are at the skating rink. Which is the lamest date I have ever heard of. I think Chance is confused about his sexuality.

All I have to do is sit and wait for the perfect moment. One moment when they have no idea. I’m going to let them settle in to a comfortable little lie. I’m going to wait until they don’t see it coming. They will be sitting there thinking they are safe and bam! I’ll come and take it all away.

I can’t wait to get my girl alone for punishment. I have the perfect place picked out. Neither one of them will see it coming. I also can’t wait for Chance to come looking for us…and find us. He’ll wish he never touched what is mine. They both will regret their relationship until their last dying breaths.

So yeah waiting will be hard, but it will be so worth it. My misery will be over and I won’t have to worry about what Norma Jean is up to. Something I don’t think I have ever gotten rid of. This worry and the need to know what she is doing.

The girl is a plague.