The carriage was off before he’d entered the house, and she held her breath in the darkness, promising herself that she wouldn’t speak. Drinking him in—the height and breadth of him. The way his hair fell in disheveled waves on his brow. The way his whole body hovered on the edge of movement as he extracted his key and opened the door.
But he did not enter; instead, he stilled.
And turned to face her, peering into the shadows.
He couldn’t see her. She knew it. And still, he seemed to know she was there. He stepped into the street. “Come out.”
She could not deny him. Refused to. She stepped into the light.
He exhaled, her name a white whisper in the cold. “Mara.”
She shook her head. “I didn’t mean to come. I shouldn’t have.”
He came toward her again. “Why did you do it?”
To give you your life. Everything you wanted.
She hated the words even though they were the truth. She hated that they represented something she was not. Perfection.
So she settled on: “It was time.”
He was in front of her then, tall and broad and beautiful. And she closed her eyes as he raised his good hand to her face and stroked his fingers across her cheek.
“Come inside,” he whispered.
The invitation was too tempting to deny.
Once the door was closed behind them and she was at the foot of the staircase, he spoke again. “The last time you were here, you drugged me.”
A lifetime ago. When she thought she could make a stupid arrangement with no repercussions. When she thought she could spend weeks with him without coming to know him. To care for him. “The last time I was here, you scared me.”
He started up the stairs to the library where she’d left him unconscious. “Are you scared now?”
Yes.
“As I am without my laudanum, I don’t think it’s relevant.”
He stopped. Turned back to look down at her. “It’s relevant.”
“Do you wish for me to be scared?”
“No.”
The word was so firm, so honest, that she couldn’t help herself. She followed him up the stairs, as if on a string. He did not stop at the library, instead climbing the next set of stairs, up into the darkness. She hesitated at their foot, struck by the keen sense that if she followed him, anything could happen.
And then struck by the keen realization that she didn’t care.
Or, rather, that she might want it to happen.
How had this man consumed her so quickly? How had she gone from thinking of him as the enemy to thinking of him as something infinitely more terrifying in mere weeks?
How had she come to love him?
She could not stop herself. She followed him up to darkness. Up to the unknown. At the top of the stairs, he lit a candle and moved to a large mahogany door.
She really should speak.
“I think it best if I speak to your newspaperman,” she started up again. “Tell him the entire story—as was our agreement—and then leave you in peace, your perceived sins absolved. In fact,” she babbled, “I should really leave you now. I don’t belong here.”
He grasped the handle and turned to face her, the golden light of the candle flickering over his handsome face. “You’re not going anywhere until we speak.” He opened the door and let her enter before him.
She came up short just inside the room. “This is a bedchamber.”
He set the candle down. “Indeed it is.”
And what a chamber it was, utterly masculine with its heavy oak and its dark wall coverings and books everywhere—piled on tabletops and in one of the chairs by the fireplace, and stacks around the posters of the bed—
The massive bed.
“This is your bedchamber.” She stated the obvious.
“Yes.”
Of course he had a massive bed. He needed to fit in it. But this one rivaled the Bed of Ware.
She couldn’t take her eyes from it, from its great wooden posts and the web of slats that made up the utterly masculine headboard in beautifully wrought oak, and the lush coverlet that promised Heaven even as it was no doubt woven in Hell.
“We are to speak here?” The words came out on a squeak.
“We are.”
She could do this. She’d been on her own for twelve years. She’d faced far more terrifying moments than this one. But she wasn’t certain that she’d ever faced any moment more tempting.
She turned to him. “Why here?”
He was approaching, having left the candle on a nearby table, and his face was deep in shadow. Her heart began to race in her chest, and perhaps she should have been afraid. But she wasn’t. There was no threat in the movement. Only promise.
“Because once we have spoken, I’m going to make love to you.”
The frank, honest words tore the ground from beneath her, and her racing heart began to thunder, so loud in her ears that she was certain he could hear it. “You are?” she asked.
He nodded once. All seriousness. “I am.”
Good Lord. How was a woman to think, knowing that?
He continued. “And then I am going to marry you.”
Her hearing was failing her.
“You can’t.”
It wasn’t possible. She was ruined. And he was a duke.
Dukes did not marry ruined scandals.
“I can.”
She shook her head. “Why?”
“Because I wish to,” he said, simply, moving to light the fire. “And because I think you wish to as well.”