Never Marry Your Brother's Best Friend (Never Say Never, #1)

Breathe, Luna. In, 2, 3, 4. Out, 2, 3, 4.

I don’t know how long I sit there talking myself off the razor edge of anxiety when there’s a gentle knock at the door. “Luna, dear?”

“I’m sorry,” I say again. I don’t think I can say it enough at this point.

“Everyone else is gone. It’s just me and you. Why don’t you come out here and let me make you a glass of tea?”

Elena is being too kind, triggering fresh anxiety to shoot through me. I shake my head, though she can’t see me.

“You gonna make me bust this door down? I’ll do it if I have to. I can also pick a lock if need be. It’s a good skill to have,” she says conversationally.

What?

“How . . . how do you know how to do that?” I ask. It doesn’t matter, but I think that’s probably why she threw that information out there to begin with.

“Open the door and I’ll tell you while I teach you.”

A lockpicking lesson? Now? The absurdity of it makes a small smile creep up my lips.

Almost as if she knows, Elena adds, “These old locks are pretty easy, but I’m not too good with the new-fangled ones. Never had a reason to pick one of those, I guess.”

“Why did you pick the old ones?” The question escapes without my even planning to speak.

“Because I’m a nosey old cuss, mostly,” she laughs. “Hated being out of the know about a thing, so I used to break into my daddy’s office and my momma’s bathroom. Oh, and the barn, but that was one of those spinny combination locks. Combination was my parents’ anniversary. Easy as pie.”

She’s totally distracted me with her story, so I jump a foot when the door swings open. Elena stands there, proud as you please, with a bobby pin in her fingers. “You want that lesson or you want some tea before your brother gets here? Either way, you’re getting up off that floor.”

She holds her hand out to help me up, and though I take it to be polite, I don’t pull on her a bit. I get up on my own, and Elena looks at me with something resembling approval. But that can’t be right. There’s no way after I lied and hid in her bathroom.

“Come on, then. I think I’m gonna take a shot of whiskey in my tea. You too?” She turns and walks off, leaving me to follow or not.

I shuffle after her, my Converse squeaking on the marble floor. “I’m sorry,” I tell her again as she pours a shot . . . make that two . . . into a glass sitting on a tray on the coffee table. I guess Nelda’s already been here. I feel guilty over her hard work fixing dinner and nobody eating it. Sitting down in the corner of the couch, I wish I could curl up but know better than to get my shoes on the furniture. Still, if I could become one with the arm of the couch, I would.

“Enough apologies, dear. You want a skinny shot or a heavy-handed one like mine?” she asks, holding up the bottle of amber liquid.

“Uh, skinny?” I don’t think I’ve ever had tea and whiskey before. The pour she makes is lighter than her own, but still longer than I would’ve done.

She holds it out and then clinks her own glass to mine before sitting down. She takes a big sip, swallowing several times, and then sighs in bliss. When she looks at me expectantly, I take a tiny taste. It’s not half-bad, just a bit whooo on the alcohol. “Thanks.”

“Okay, so tell me what all’s the truth and what all’s a lie. It appears I need a check-up on my bullshit-o-meter.”

I take another drink of the tea instead, finding the burn of it going down less painful than the sour acid of the truth of what I’ve done. Eventually, though, the whiskey works its magic and loosens my tongue. I don’t know what all I say to Elena, but this time I know it’s all true.

I laugh lightly as I tell her about how bad Carter is at remembering a damn thing about art. I plead with her to understand as I explain how much I wanted to see Thomas’s collection and how special it is to someone like me. I cry when I tell her about how Carter took care of me when I had a panic attack. I blush as I share that his kisses make me warm inside, all the way down to my toes, and that when his blue eyes lock onto me, I feel like I’m beautiful.

“Even if that’s not really true. I mean, I know what Claire meant. Carter’s . . . Carter. And I’m . . . me. We’re not exactly a match made in heaven.”

“You shut your mouth up. I may not be a walking lie detector, given the current situation, but I can see how that boy looks at you. Nobody needs to understand your love but you two.”

I choke out a bitter laugh. “Love? I don’t think so. Carter would never fall in love with me. And despite being married to him, I don’t think a man who’d go to these lengths for a business deal is right for me, either. Money’s never been important to me like that. We don’t make sense.”

“Never say never,” she replies.

The doorbell rings, and Elena gets up. “I’ve got it, Stanley!” she shouts. Quieter, she tells me, “He’s around here somewhere, probably knows everything that’s happened. If I’m nosy, that old fella is Pinocchio.”

She disappears, then reappears a moment later with Zack in tow. “See, just like I told you, she’s fine. Sipping on some truth serum tea.” She winks at me, and I realize that her offer of tea wasn’t entirely friendly, after all. She had ulterior motives too.

Sitting down beside me, Zack asks, “What happened?”

“Claire saw you and me and thought . . .” A shiver of ick makes my whole body wiggle in revulsion. "We got that straightened out, but I couldn’t do it anymore.” I look up, hoping he’ll understand. “I told Elena the truth.”

“Damn, Moony,” he whispers. “You really know how to fuck shit up, don’t you? What about Carter?”

My eyes fall again as I shrug. “He left.”

“He. Left.” He’s saying the same thing I did, but it sounds quite different. I’m resolved, but Zack’s livid and trying to hide it. I know him well enough to recognize it.

“It’s okay,” I tell him, trying to assuage his anger. “It doesn’t matter. Can we go home? I want to go home.”

I let Zack and Elena walk me to the door, feeling like a zombie. “Should I have kept my mouth shut?” I wonder aloud, not sure who I’m asking.

“No, dear,” Elena answers as she puts an arm around my shoulders. “You did what your heart told you to do, and listening to that beating muscle of self-direction is always the right thing.” She pats her chest, right over her heart, and I wonder what it’s telling her now. This old woman’s damn near Yoda with her levels of wisdom.

But truthfully, she’s probably glad to be rid of us. Someone who lies to your face isn’t someone you want managing your money. And someone who wants you to lie will lie to you. I should’ve realized that about Carter sooner. Myself too, because I was too willing to go along with it. And for what?

Seeing Thomas’s collection feels tainted now by my own deception. I didn’t deserve to see it.