"Strange, indeed," Marcus murmured, sending up silent thanks for the huge difference in that short distance. "And why come here to Brahan Seer?"
She gave a small laugh. "I had nowhere better to be."
"Are you happy?"
Can you be happy without husband and child?
"Your father has been kind. I liked him the moment I met him."
"What did you think upon first meeting me?" At the startled look on her face, he cursed his foolish curiosity.
"Why, milord," the title fell in teasing accents from her lips and her eyes widened with mock gravity, "I thought you were the fiercest warrior I'd ever had the misfortune to meet."
Marcus blinked, then threw his head back and laughed, for he remembered her assessment of his sword—not to mention his open shirt.
"Sit with me." He took her hand, settled her on the ground, and lowered himself down beside her. Marcus turned his gaze onto her and gave a soft smile. "Tell me about Amelia."
Pain flickered across her features and she lowered her gaze. When, at last, she spoke, her words were flat. "Amelia was six years old and very ill. We were traveling to England to see a specialist. I should have known she wasn't strong enough for the journey—I did know—but I couldn't bear the thought of never again looking upon her sweet face.
"Selfish," she muttered. "When Amelia smiled…" Elise's breath quickened and Marcus tensed, recognizing the anxiety in the sudden rise and fall of her breasts. "The corners of her eyes crinkled and her eyes sparkled as only a child's can." The moon illuminated Elise's face, revealing the part of memory that couldn't be conquered, and a pain that would never wholly die. "She died three days before the fire."
"Three days?" Marcus exclaimed. "Had you not gone by way of Solway Firth—"
"Yes," Elise agreed in a voice far removed from Scotland—from him. "Yes."
"Why take that route?"
She shrugged. "We encountered bad weather and must have been blown off course. I didn't concern myself with the route." The bitterness in her voice said she now counted that a mistake.
Marcus kept to himself the knowledge that a storm couldn't have taken them to Solway Firth had they not been north of Ireland to begin with.
"You can't know what it is to watch your child die." She looked down into her lap where her hands lay clasped. "We could do nothing. When Steven heard of a specialist in England, we set sail immediately. I thank God she died in peace. Facing what came afterwards would have been far worse."
"And the others on the ship?" Marcus asked.
"We traveled on a barque, three-masted. Not a large ship, with only a crew of eleven. Then there was Steven, R-iley and I."
"Riley?" Marcus repeated.
"My husband."
"Who is Steven?"
"My brother." Elise stared out over the valley. "The commotion woke me in the middle of the night. By the time Steven came for me—"
"Steven, not your husband?"
"No. By the time Steven got to my cabin, smoke filled the corridors. He dragged me up on deck. I was sure we wouldn't make it; the corridor was so thick with smoke."
"No chance the ship could be saved?"
"They tried. Flames lapped up from the galley and the sails were ablaze. The wind blew hard. A storm had kicked up and the sails flapped furiously. Oh, how the wind can howl."
"Storms are common in the sound," Marcus said. "What started the fire?"
She grunted, a low but distinctly disgusted sound. "Likely an unattended lamp." She gave a mirthless laugh. "I knew what Steven meant to do. But, damn him, he knew me just as well. He gave me no chance." She looked at Marcus, her gaze burning into him. "Threw me overboard without so much as a by-your-leave."
"Indeed?"
"Damn you, one and all," she said under her breath.
Marcus cleared his throat. "He managed a boat, I take it?"
"What?" she answered on a distracted note. "Oh, yes." All bitterness had vanished from her voice. "I should have warned him, but I never dreamed—" her voice broke and Marcus realized she was weeping.
"Elise, love."
She shook her head, turning away. He sat up and reached for her. She tried to stand but couldn't manage her skirts quickly enough. He hauled her onto his lap and hugged her close.
"I would like to go home," she said into his shirt between quiet tears.
"Love," he whispered, "you are home."
"Amelia was gone," she said as if not having heard him. "But Steven—"
Some minutes passed. At last, her soft cries subsided and Marcus felt her chest expand with a deep breath. "A piece of him died each day with Amelia. When she—" Elise fumbled in her pocket. Marcus calmed the nervous search by placing his hand over hers. She stilled.
Marcus brushed the tears away with a thumb.
"I should have allowed Amelia to die in her own home," Elise said when he'd finished. "Steven would still be here."
"Steven suggested the doctor? He must have been as anxious as you to see her recover."
"Of course," she answered crossly.
"Could you have stopped him?"
"He couldn't have gone without us. Yes. I could have stopped him."
"Somehow, I doubt that."
"He was a determined fool," she cut in, "but had I told him it was best—"