His eyebrows furrow thoughtfully, and a muscle starts to flex in the back of his jaw. “Tate won’t let you spend time with me?”
“I don’t know, Maverick, but they’re not judgmental. And Remy seems to like training with you.”
“We respect each other professionally,” he says.
Once again, I stare at the scars on his knuckles. I raise my brows. “And you don’t like him at all?”
“It’s not whether I like him or not. It’s that he’s standing in my way.”
He plops down to his back and uses his arm to pull me to his side, inhaling my hair for a long, delicious second while I also discreetly inhale the soap on his shirt. “Are you close? You and the Tates?” he asks me.
“We’ve grown very close these days.” I hesitate for a second. I want to ask him about his dad. I peer up at him: “You and your dad?”
Shadows cross his face. “Not yet.”
“And you and me? Are we close?”
He looks at me with frustration. “I keep thinking of how it was being inside you. I want you that close again. All the time. I get frustrated that we can’t spend time together out in the open.”
“Is that why you asked me out for a night run?”
“Would you say yes to one by day?” He looks at me, his face in shadows.
“No, but because Racer’s awake, not because I don’t want to be seen with you.”
“It raises questions. You’re with the Tates.”
“What happened between Remy and your father? Do you know?”
“They’ve been at odds for years. Supposedly my father did anything to stop Tate. He was obsessed with beating him.” He scrapes a hand down his face, his eyebrows low over his eyes. “I have to believe there’s more to him than what I’ve heard. I have to believe that. For me.”
I’m feeling so much for him, I can’t find words.
He eyes the sky, deep in thought. “He was in an accident recently. He was driving a stolen car. Went down a cliff . . .” He shakes his head against the ground, lips pursed as if he’s struggling to be at peace with it. “He was up to his eyeballs in drugs. Had nothing on him, no ID, nothing but a picture of Tate with a target mark on him.” He exhales roughly through his nostrils, and shifts onto his shoulder. Then he softens his expression. Softens his voice. “What about you, Reese? Tell me about yourself.”
“You heard my story.” I sit up and wrap my arms around my folded legs.
He sits up and wraps his arms around his, eyeing me. “Yeah, I heard.”
I rest my chin on my knee and look at him. “I wanted you to know.”
“I’m glad I know.”
“My V card,” I say, smiling wanly when I slide my eyes shyly away and then peer sideways at him. “It was all I had left that I didn’t give to the alcohol. It was something nobody could take from me unless I chose it.”
His jaw tightens visibly, his whole face tightens visibly. He holds my gaze as he reaches out and gently runs his knuckles down my cheek. “I wanted it to be me.”
Oh god. This guy.
This. Guy.
My soft voice returns. “I wanted it to be you too. You turn on all my lights, Maverick.”
His smile flashes and proceeds to do exactly that, warming me in every shadow of my heart and mind and body, in every cloud in my soul. How does he do that?
Even Racer adores “Mavewick!”
“Racer will get jealous I got to see you and he didn’t,” I blurt out happily.
He laughs. “That little guy? He gets the most time with you. I’m jealous of him every day.”
“Ahh! But he doesn’t get my kisses.”
My eyes widen when I realize what I said, but Maverick’s eyes start to smolder so bright that I don’t regret saying that one bit.
He plants a hand on the grass between us as he starts leaning over, and I slowly start to lie down on my back. My heart pounds. The night envelops us. And he’s so close, his eyes are all I see.
I want him inside me. Us alone, in privacy. I want that again so bad.
No.
I want more than that. I want every tiny layer of his personality for me to see, every ambition, every thought, every memory . . . and I want, I desperately want, to be seen by him. All of me.
Lying here with my hormones all crazed, I’m telling myself that I’m not going to do anything sexy until he does it to me when he exhales.
He shifts, his hands curling a little at his sides as he looks at me for a long time.
I look at him for even longer.
I’m looking at the Avenger right now.
His eyes. They feel like hot, sheet-clawing sex on my skin.
I brush my hips against his. He groans. “Reese.”
I open my legs to fit him against the part of me that aches and I slant my head, sliding my hands into his hair.
We kiss for a long, long while, and I can feel how much he wants me in every kiss, in the tension coming off his body. He’s holding back, and knowing he’s doing it for me makes me weak inside.