Leather and Lace

Chapter 11

Casey had practiced the art of hiding her emotional responses for many years, and Reverend Rainer’s offer required her to use all those skills. While she scrambled for words with the sheriff’s face still fresh in her mind, she realized this good man would lose his faith if he knew he sat across from Casey O’Hare.

“I’m afraid my beliefs aren’t as strong as yours,” she said.

“Are you interested in following Jesus and getting to know Him?”

“Yes, sir. I have a Bible. Been reading it.”

The reverend nodded, while she fought the urge to squirm in the chair.

“If this arrangement is satisfactory to you and Sarah, I could answer your questions about God.” He took a drink of the coffee. “I want the time my wife has remaining to be as pleasant as possible. Her nurse must be someone who will love her and tend to her needs. Sarah has looked after many folks in her day, and she loves the Lord unlike any woman I’ve ever known. She deserves the best of care, and I aim for her to have it. I’ve been looking for someone to do this but haven’t had much luck.”

An awkwardness filled the room. “But you don’t know me,” Casey said. The prospect of deceiving a man of God left a huge lump in her throat. “And what would the members of this community say about me—a single woman—living here?”

“My congregation suggested I find someone to help me. I plan to take the matter up with them come Sunday morning. That is, if you and Sarah are in agreement.” He heaved a deep, weary sigh. “Miss Flanagan, you’re a stranger, yet I feel God has sent you here for a reason.” He stood and refilled both of their coffee cups.

She deliberated his offer. He really did need help, and from the looks of the kitchen, cooking and cleaning weren’t among his finer qualities. Upon further deliberation, she thought looking after Sarah Rainer could be an opportunity to make up for the heartache and suffering the Jenkins gang had caused so many people. She couldn’t right the wrongs, but she could make life easier for this couple. Yet the prospect of facing the town’s sheriff needled at her. She should have kept right on riding after talking to the boy on the mule.

“I don’t know what to say.”

“It will take a special person to care for her. Frankly, she needs a friend. I know only too well how difficult it is to appear cheerful when she’s dying right in front of you.” He attempted a smile despite the morose look on his face. “But I’m not giving up until God decides to take her home.”

“I understand.” She thought back over the men she’d watched die. She hadn’t lacked courage then, and those men weren’t God-fearing.

“What do you want to know about me? I don’t carry any letters of introduction or references.” She’d heard one of Rose’s girls talk about these before. That girl didn’t have any, either.

She sat still, her heart quaking, while Reverend Rainer studied her. She wanted to do this, but the thought of it drove a fist into her stomach. Lying to a preacher would surely send her to hell, but getting caught by Jenkins or the law because she helped a preacher sounded better on her tombstone.

“It’s sufficient to know you want to know more about the Lord,” the reverend said. “I think you feel awkward with what I’m suggesting, and the truth is I do, too. All I can say is God spoke to me today, and I’m following like a blind man.”

Her mouth went dry. Why didn’t she simply leave and forget about the whole matter?

“Would you like to meet Sarah? Then we can talk. After all, she’s the one who needs to be happy with the arrangement.” He rubbed his floured palms together. “I’ll see if she is awake. May I escort you to the parlor?”

They walked past a room that Reverend Rainer said was his study. Casey gazed at the shelves. She wanted to touch the floor-to-ceiling leather-bound volumes. So many things to learn about God and the world around me. I surely wish my words were better. Hearing and talking nothing but curses for seven years makes me ashamed.

“You like to read?” he said.

She nodded.

“If you decide to nurse Sarah, you’re welcomed to any of these.”

Casey caught the scent of roses blooming just outside the study window. She could have reached out and plucked one of the deep red blooms. Instead, she admired them. “How beautiful.”

“Thank you. Sarah’s roses have always flourished under this window. I’m not as faithful as she in keeping them looking their best.”

“I can’t imagine them looking more beautiful than today.” She meant every word.

The parlor invited in sunshine as though the room were merely an extension of the outdoors. Through the windows, she saw a garden area and an assortment of greenery and colorful blooms. What a wonderful place to live.

Simple and modest furnishings made way for deep shades of blue and cream colored lace pillows, a blue and gold sofa, and a pair of overstuffed golden tapestry chairs. Casey sat on the sofa and admired the oaken tables.

Curiosity nipped at her while she waited for the reverend. What good would it do to start over if everything became a lie? Suddenly she felt dirty, as though the bath she’d taken earlier hadn’t done a bit of good. But she had to start somewhere, didn’t she?

What kind of illness did Sarah Rainer have? Was she sweet like the reverend said, or bitter with the sickness? Those thoughts shouldn’t matter. She’d been around enough surly men to learn how to handle mean-spirited folks.

A short while later, the reverend ushered Casey upstairs. The staircase needed a bit of dusting, but the house had a fresh smell. She followed him to Sarah’s room. Plants of all sizes lined the walls, with smaller ones sitting on the windowsills. Some folks claimed plants made people sick, took away their air. She doubted if a preacher kept things that weren’t good for folks. Casting aside the worrisome thought, she turned her attention to Sarah Rainer. Lines etched into the woman’s face made her look much older than the reverend.

Reverend Rainer bent to kiss his wife’s head. “Sweetheart, this is the young lady I told you about, Miss Shawne Flanagan.” He propped her head with pillows and tucked a thin coverlet around her shoulders.

Sarah smiled, and it seemed as if heaven’s gates opened wide. “Good afternoon, dear. What a pleasure to meet you. My, but you remind me of our granddaughter who lives in Oregon. Just as pretty, but she doesn’t have your beautiful auburn hair.” She touched her own gray-white hair, and a look of horror crossed her face. “John, I forgot to have you pin up my hair. And in front of a guest.”

“You look lovely, Mrs. Rainer. No need to fret, and it’s a pleasure to meet you.”

Sarah talked on, even teased her husband about finding a pretty young lady to care for her. She told Casey about their children and grandchildren—and oh, how she missed them.

Her peaceful spirit and a stubborn determination not to be pampered impressed Casey. Sarah didn’t ask about Casey’s family or her past. Rather, she talked about plants and how she cherished spring with the blooming of flowers and trees, and summer with all the vegetables ripening. Mrs. Rainer also enjoyed fall, the season of harvest and preparation for winter.

“Shawne, did you know a tree must shed all of its leaves in order for it to grow new ones in spring?”

“I never thought about it, but you’re right,” Casey said, more than a little apprehensive, as though Sarah knew all about her outlaw past.

“It’s one of God’s miracles. The old dies to make way for the new.”

Casey didn’t know Sarah Rainer well enough to question her way of thinking. Her words sounded peculiar. Something dying made something live? One day she’d ask what that meant. The reverend stepped from the room and allowed the two women to visit.

Once his footsteps no longer sounded on the stairs, Sarah sighed deeply. “Can you take care of an old lady until she dies?” Her weak brown gaze captured Casey.

“Yes, ma’am, I believe I can.”

The woman reached for Casey’s hand. She caught a glimpse of the thin, wrinkled hand—soft and frail. Deep violet veins rose from parchment skin. Although Ma had been much younger, near the end her hands had looked the same.

“Both of us need you. John wants me to have the best of care, and I resent the illness tearing him from his ministry. God’s work should never go neglected.”

Casey’s gaze rested on the small, delicate figure nestled deep in the bed. The undeniable colorless pallor of death rested on her face, but when she smiled, her countenance cast the sweetest glow. Casey savored the moment. It was as though a sense of acceptance shone from Mrs. Rainer’s face.

Sarah lifted her head from the pillow and allowed thinning hair to fall around her shoulders. “Tending to me won’t be easy. I simply cannot do anything for myself. I’m like a baby, only worse. A baby is coddled, and the mother lives in expectation of the growing new life. In my case, you’ll live with the certainty of death. I’m not afraid to speak of dying, but I refuse to give up without a fight. I can’t dance through life in this old body, but I can make the most of every moment. In the days remaining, I want to live every breath of life. I have to be sure you can deal with me, knowing the outcome and understanding the burden.”

Such strength for one woman. Casey hadn’t seen any of this from outlaws. She realized the longer she spent away from Jenkins, the more she became sensitive to the things going on around her. “I took care of my mother before she died, Mrs. Rainer.” Casey stroked the fragile hand.

“Well, I’ll do my best to display a sweet temperament and not be too bothersome. And, dear, please call me Sarah. We’ll spend many hours together, and the intimacy of friendship is necessary.” She smiled. “Would you mind reading to me now and then?”

“I would love to, but I’m not real good. And would you teach me how to care for your plants?” She swallowed an inward gasp. In her last words, she’d agreed to nurse the woman.

Sarah closed her eyes. “I see we’re going to get along just fine.” Her hand fell limp in Casey’s grasp. Pulling a thin coverlet up around Sarah’s neck, Casey tiptoed from the room.

A twist of fear settled upon her, and she shuddered. She glanced about the upper hallway from the picture of two children posed in an oversized chair to the layer of dust on the floor. Already she had become involved. What if the Rainers learned the truth?

This is nonsense. Picking up her skirts, Casey stepped to the stairway. I’ve agreed to my own death. Except something about helping others sounded good. Morgan might even approve. She shook her head. Would he ever stop plaguing her thoughts?

“I’ll do my best with the position you’ve offered, providing the folks in your church think it’s all right,” she said to Reverend Rainer. “Be certain of this: If you ever have any questions about me, I’ll answer them honestly.”

“Fine, Miss Flanagan. I think I’ll pay a visit to a couple of my deacons this evening to see about you getting started right away.”

The walk back to the boardinghouse brought a wagonload of hope. No one would suspect a woman living at the parsonage and tending to the reverend’s wife to be an outlaw. Maybe her reading the Bible had brought good luck.

Back at the boardinghouse, the smell of food led her into the dining room. She slipped into a chair near the corner of the room and wondered how long it would take before she felt comfortable among decent folks. Within moments, the owner brought her a plate piled high with roast beef, potatoes, green beans, and corn bread. The sight of it nearly made her dizzy, and the food seemed to melt in her mouth. She forced herself to eat slowly and use the manners she’d seen from Maude. At that thought, she smiled. Soon she’d write them of her good fortune.

Midway through her meal, the sheriff walked in. The corn bread seemed to stick in her throat. She coughed, then reached for a glass of water. The only way out of the dining room was right past him. She’d made enough foolish moves today without one more. He seated himself on the other side of the room at a long table with some other folks. Relief flooded through her. Once he started to talk with the others, she’d leave.

The moment the owner set his food in front of him, the sheriff stood and walked her way. He carried his hat, and his black mustache twitched.

“Ma’am,” he said, “I’m Sheriff Kahler, and I want to welcome you to Kahlerville.”

“Thank you.”

“Do you have people here?”

“No, sir.”

“Well, if you need anything, just stop by my office.”

“I’ll do that very thing. Thank you again.”

He turned around, took one step, then faced her. “Have you ever been to Kentucky?”

“No, sir.” And she hadn’t.

“You look powerful familiar. I thought I might have remembered you from home.”

Trapped. If she left Kahlerville now, the sheriff would figure out where he’d seen her face and have a posse hot on her trail. She didn’t know this part of the country well enough to risk it. She’d have to stay, at least for a little while.

For the first time, an idea began to take form.