Today, I saw nothing interesting in the various advertisements, but the entire double-page spread of the Style section featured the gala. There were photographs of the guests, the artists, even the appetizers. But the only picture I was interested in showed Cole.
I’d never known the man not to look incredible, but in that photo he looked like a fallen angel, beautiful yet dangerous. The photographer’s angle was wide, but he’d been standing close enough to Cole that the flash reflected off his skin, making him not only glow but seem to pop away from the background. The effect was exotic, and ensured that every eye perusing the paper was drawn to the man.
The man, however, was focused on something else entirely.
It wasn’t obvious at first. And to be fair, I was probably the only person in the entire world other than the photographer who knew what Cole was looking at. But that didn’t change the basic fact—Cole was looking past the crowd of people vying for his attention. His eyes were on someone near the bar. A female someone in a red dress and red shoes.
A someone who was me.
But it was the expression on his face that truly grabbed my attention. Lust. Longing. And the kind of intense desire that inspired love songs and sonatas.
Damn the man. Damn the man for denying himself. And, in doing so, denying me, too.
I’m not naive. Not by a long shot. But after yesterday’s incredible morning of phone sex, Cole had said that he would protect me even from him. At the time, I had no idea what he’d meant. But Sloane’s revelation about the Firehouse answered that question.
He wanted me. He’d said it, and this photo showed it. But he thought I couldn’t handle what having him would mean.
I intended to prove otherwise.
I wasn’t, however, entirely sure how to go about that yet. But that was okay. I didn’t have any plans to see him until Friday night cocktails on Evan’s boat. A small prewedding gathering for friends and family. That was almost a week away. I knew from experience that I could pull a con together in under a week. How much harder could this be?
I tried to focus on various scenarios as I went about the rest of my workday, but foaming cappuccinos and blending icy coffee drinks didn’t mesh well with detail-oriented thinking. And by the time I was finally off-shift, I was just too damn tired.
I kept the top down on my Mustang when I drove home, wanting the feel of the wind through my hair. I’ve had the car for over a decade, and she’s my pride and joy, never failing to put me in a good mood. I drove her too fast and cranked the radio too loud, and by the time I pulled into the lot behind my Rogers Park apartment I was feeling exceptionally awesome.
I climbed the stairs humming the latest from Taylor Swift, then called out for Flynn.
He didn’t answer, but I could hear him clattering around in the kitchen. Even better, I could smell something baking.
Cookies?
I picked up my pace, calling out to him as I hurried to the kitchen. “If those cookies I’m smelling are for some party you’re going to and I’m not allowed to taste, you and I are going to have words.”
I took a minute to drop my purse in my bedroom and change into shorts and a tank top. Then I hurried to the kitchen, only to skid to a stop when I saw the man standing by the stove, an apron around his waist and an oven mitten on his hand.
“Catalina,” he said, with the kind of smile that would always look like home to me. Then he spread his arms wide. “Hello, sweetheart.”
“Daddy?” For a moment, I just stood there, a little dazed and a lot confused. Then the bits and pieces of reality that make up my world shifted back into place.
“Daddy!” I repeated. And that time, I ran toward him and threw myself into his waiting arms.
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“So you’re really out?” I asked, as I moved cookies from the sheet to a plate with a small green spatula. “No more cons?”
“It’s more complicated than that,” Daddy said, as I slid the plate to the center of the table, then sat down across from him.
“You’re bullshitting me.”
“What a thing to say to the father who loves you.”