“He was a fan of yours too, considering you were good at what you did and you played for the Colts, which was his team. That was, he was a fan of yours until you quit and went into the Army. He thought that was crazy. He couldn’t believe you gave up the chance of earning that kind of money to join the Army,” I shared.
“Kia, honey, I think it’s clear the guy was a dick,” Sam replied softly.
“This is true,” I muttered.
Suddenly, Sam took control of the conversation by asking, “How old are you?”
“Twenty-eight,” I answered.
“Jesus,” he muttered again.
“What?”
“You look it but your eyes say you’re older.”
I latched onto that. “Am I too young for you?”
He grinned but didn’t reply.
I felt his grin slide along my skin in a sweet way but powered through it and suggested instead, “Too old?”
He started chuckling and again didn’t answer.
I sighed.
Sam’s arms, which I belatedly noticed were wrapped around me, gathered me closer.
“So, this is the first time you’ve worn a dress like that?” he asked quietly.
“Yep,” I answered, nodding my head on the pillow again at the same time tilting it back because it was now closer to his.
“You wear it like you were born to it.”
Wow. That was nice.
“Wow. That’s nice.”
Yes. I thought it then I freaking said it.
Idiot!
He grinned.
Then he asked, “You think, you wear it like you were born to it, maybe you were born to it?”
I blinked. Then I considered this.
Then I answered, “No.”
“No?”
I shook my head.
“Why not?” Sam asked.
“Well, because that’s crazy. I live in the small town I lived in my whole life. I married a hick who cheated on me and beat me. He didn’t have a college degree and worked for a sheet metal factory and not well, if his performance evaluations and the nasty moods he’d get into after he got them were anything to go by. I also don’t have a college degree and, until recently, when I came into some money, I worked as an administrative assistant for five accountants and my job was b-o-r-i-n-g, boring in a way it was a wonder I didn’t lapse into a coma daily by three o’clock. I mean, they were nice guys but seriously, accountants and the work they did…” I trailed off and faked a yawn.
Sam grinned again.
I kept babbling.
“I got my first passport delivered two months ago. I had my first manicure, pedicure, facial and massage two days ago. I think, with all that, it’s safe to say I was definitely not born to wear a gown like this.”
“I was born in the barrio,” Sam returned immediately. “My father came and went as he pleased, he was gone more than he was there but when he was there, he was more of a dick than your dead husband. He took my mother’s money, ate her food, drank himself sick, cheated on her openly, beat the shit outta her and slapped my brother and me around. He didn’t work, not once that I knew but she did. She worked hard, she kept us fed, she kept us clothed but that was all we had and, it sucks, but you feel that as a kid no matter how hard she worked so we wouldn’t. But, even with all that shit, since we were kids and maybe before when we couldn’t even understand what she was sayin’, she told his we were bigger than the shithole that surrounded us. We were better. We were meant to live large. And she believed we’d do it; find some way outta that fuckin’ place. And by the time we got old enough to make decisions, she’d been fillin’ our heads with that so long, it sunk in. We believed her and we both worked our asses off to get out. I had added luck; God saw fit to grant me a talent that would lead my way. But Ma told me over and over, the talent He gave me was fleeting and fragile and I should not rely on it so I didn’t. I studied. I didn’t drift through college, I earned my degree. My brother wasn’t born with something like that so he found his way out and joined the Army about two days after he graduated high school. He stayed in it, they gave him the means; he got himself his degree and got on the officer track. He was going to be career Army, that was his goal, even his dream. But whatever his dream, like Ma said we would both do, we made it so we got the fuck out right after high school and never looked back.”
Touched by this as well as awed, I whispered, “That’s very cool.”
“Yeah,” he said through a smile, “but you don’t get me, honey. I’m here beside you wearin’ this fuckin’ suit and I wasn’t born to be here either. But I’m here, same as you. And wherever you are, however you got there, if it’s good, you’re meant to be there either because you earned it or life led you there and you were smart enough to hold on.”
Nine glasses of champagne or not, I found this concept profound.
Therefore, I shared that with Sam.
“That’s very profound.”
His body shook mine and the bed when he chuckled then replied, “It isn’t profound, Kia, it’s the God’s honest truth. You’re tellin’ me the woman I met at breakfast, saw last night and I’m holdin’ in my arms right now is a fraud. But I’m tellin’ you you’re wrong. She isn’t. She’s you.”
That was profound too.