FADING: A novel

The waiter comes and drops off our food. I let out a pleased sigh when he sets down my pancakes that are bigger than the plate they are served on. I pick up my fork and knife and look up at Ryan as he says, “That’s a shitload of food. You gonna be able to eat all that?”

 

Putting all manners aside, I cut a chunk of pancake that is obscenely large, shove it into my mouth, and chew while nodding my head at him in response. His smile broadens and he laughs out loud at my gesture.

 

We continue to chat as we indulge in our food. Ryan is a really easy person to talk to, even without the company of either Jase or Mark. We talk mostly about his family, and I do pretty well with keeping the focus off of myself. When I can’t eat another bite, I lean back in my seat and groan with the discomfort of being entirely too full. I close my eyes when I hear Ryan laughing at me and saying, “I can’t believe you ate all that. You sound like you’re about to die.”

 

“You have no idea.”

 

“You gonna be able to walk, or will I have to carry you?”

 

I open my eyes to look at him, when I say, “Honestly, I really need to walk this off.”

 

“Come on, let’s get outta here.” Ryan stands up, throws some cash on the table, and reaches his hand out to me. We walk out into the rain, and he nods his head towards a four-door black Rubicon.

 

“What?” I ask as I wonder what he’s thinking.

 

“I know you don’t have shit to do today, so come on.” He walks over to the large jeep that sits high on its wheels and opens the passenger door. “Come on.”

 

I stand where I am and ask, “Where are we going?”

 

“I’ll figure that shit out when you get in.”

 

I can’t help but laugh at his apparent love for the word ‘shit.’ Walking over to him, he takes my hand again to help me into the seat and closes the door behind me. When he gets in, I shake my head at him as he begins to pull out of the parking lot. He turns onto the main road and asks, “You like Thirty Seconds to Mars?”

 

“Love them.”

 

He smirks at me and questions, “Really?”

 

“Yeah, why?”

 

“You just don’t strike me as the type of girl who would like that kind of music.”

 

He turns on the stereo and ‘Northern Lights’ begins to play when I ask, “And what type of girl is that?”

 

“First impression I got was that you’re really quiet. I thought you were just shy, but the more we hang out, it seems like not much embarrasses you. When I look at you, I see this tiny little ballerina, so I figure you sit around and listen to Mozart and shit.”

 

We both start laughing and I say, “Mozart and shit? I’m not that refined, so you can relax. But I’ve never been loud and obnoxious, so yeah, I’m quiet.”

 

He quickly glances my way and grins at me before returning his focus to the road.

 

“So, where are we going?”

 

“Someplace I haven’t been to in a long time,” he says then reaches over and turns up the music. I lean back in my seat, and we don’t say anything else. We just sit and listen to music. After a few minutes, he turns into a waterfront parking lot, and I am surprised at where we have wound up.

 

“The aquarium? I haven’t been here since I was a little girl.”

 

“Me neither.”

 

“Why are we here?”

 

“To have a little fun. Come on,” he says as he gets out of the car.

 

When we go inside, the place is full of kids and their parents. I feel as if we are the only adults that are here by our own free will because this place is a madhouse. We walk up to a huge underwater viewing window that greets you as you walk in. I go right up to the window and press my hand against the cool glass and watch as the fish swim by. I remember coming here on a field trip once before when I was in the fifth or sixth grade. Even though I grew up here, I never really did many touristy things unless it was through school. My parents rarely ever took me out to explore the city.

 

I look down to my side at a little boy, maybe around six years old, who is looking up at me. He has his hand on the glass just as I do.

 

“Hi.”

 

“You’re pretty,” he says, and I smile down at him and respond, “Thank you. You’re not so bad yourself.”

 

His face lights up with a huge smile when Ryan walks up from behind us and asks the little boy, “Do you think I can steal your girlfriend away from you, buddy?”

 

The boy looks up at him and laughs. I can tell he is embarrassed as he nods his head.

 

I say ‘bye’ to my new friend and follow Ryan as he navigates us all the way to the touch pool. I hesitate as he starts to walk up to the exhibit.

 

“Come on.”

 

I slowly walk up to the edge of the tank.

 

“You scared?” he asks.

 

“Kind of, yeah”

 

Pulling me up to the tank next to him, he dips his hand into the water and starts touching the orange and purple starfish.

 

“They’re not going to attack you, Candace,” he says with a smile.

 

“No way.”

 

“We aren’t leaving until you touch something in this tank,” he teases me.

 

I look around, and kids that are elbows deep in the water surround us. Pushing up my sleeve, I very slowly start to move my hand toward the water, but when I see a hermit crab crawling in the tank where I was just about to put my hand, I jump back and squeal. Several of the kids start laughing at me, and Ryan joins in.

 

“Really nice!”

 

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