“No, he isn’t. You told me that he hurts you when y’all do it,” Piper countered.
Audrey made a face. “Well, yeah, but he hasn’t done that since Lucas tried to kill him way back when.”
“Well, hallelujah for that, but still, he isn’t worth it. You need a man who is nice to you all the time, not when it is convenient for him! Plus, Audrey, he basically only wants to do you. I mean come on, maybe he’ll want the things you want in the future? How don’t you see that he is playing you?”
Audrey wanted to stomp her feet in frustration. No one understood Levi. Yes, he was a dick most of the time, but he had had a hard upbringing. His dad beat him as a child, his mom was gone most of the time, and his brother slept with any girl Levi brought home. He didn’t trust anyone and didn’t feel that they would stay around. Audrey understood that, and she wanted to help him. Levi had the potential to be a really good guy, but he just hadn’t had the right girl to help him get there. Audrey knew she was the girl to do it. She could love him the right way.
But at the same time, what if everyone was right? What if she was being naive and stupid when it came to him? What if he was playing her? What if thinking he would change was probably the stupidest thing she had ever done? Was she wrong for telling him that she would wait for him, because really she shouldn’t?
Blah, being a single woman wanting a man was so hard.
“I know what you are saying, Piper. I do, but I can’t just give up.”
Piper scoffed, “Why the hell not? He doesn’t deserve you!”
“I understand your frustration, but you just don’t understand, Piper. You can have anyone you want—”
“Oh my God, don’t you even! You can have any man and you know that. You’re just settling for crap. Stop it!”
Yes, Audrey could have any man she wanted, but she couldn’t keep them. Piper didn’t understand that. No one did.
“I love him, Piper,” Audrey said. “I just can’t stop.”
“I know you just can’t stop, but you can damn well try. There are so many other guys out there. For example, hot goalie. It’s obvious you like him; I mean, you went home with him after only talking to him for a minute. Y’all have something, so act on it.”
Audrey shook her head even if Piper couldn’t see it. “I was drunk and we are just friends.”
“You are such a liar. I see the way he looks at you, and when you actually look at him and act normal, I can see that you like him.”
“I do not,” Audrey lied. “We are friends.”
“Whatever, friends who are bound to be more.”
“Hells bells, Pipe, he’s a baby,” Audrey stressed. “I am almost seven years older than him.”
“Who gives two shits? He’s hot, he wants you, and he’s also really funny. You like funny. He’s way funnier than Levi ever was.”
Audrey shook her head again before taking a long gulp of beer. “He may be funny and sexy, but he won’t want me for long.”
“Why?”
Audrey paused for a moment, trying to come up with an excuse, and then she said, “ ’Cause, I’m older.”
Audrey wished she could just tell Piper about her situation, but she hadn’t even told Fallon. No one knew but her mother, and she kind of wanted to keep it that way. She felt like a failure for not being able to have children, but in a way it wasn’t her fault. It was the doctor who did her abortion who messed her up. He not only took her unborn child, but he took her future ones, too. It was the biggest mistake of her life, but she really had no choice in the matter.
“Audrey?”
Audrey brought herself back to the conversation, shaking her head. “Sorry, I was daydreaming.”
“Hopefully about making sweet love to sexy yummy Goalie and leaving Levi in your dust. Goalie obviously doesn’t care about your age so why should you?”