The drive back was full of tension and heat. We didn’t say much after what had happened. I was in shock and I think Paul was too. I couldn’t tell if he regretted what happened and I was too afraid to ask. We both just acted like we were fine and kept the conversation generic. There were so many times that I wished he would just tell me why he did that, what he was feeling. My head was spinning from all of the emotions he caused, but I knew there was no way I could be the one to bring it up at that moment. I was too nervous of what he might tell me.
When he dropped me off at my apartment, I couldn’t get out of the car fast enough. I grabbed my bag and rushed inside. He didn’t follow me in, just drove off without a second glance. While it kind of stung, I shoved it aside. I was still replaying his kiss over and over in my mind.
I called Ethan after I’d taken a hot, relaxing bath.
“Hey,” he answered. “Home safe and sound?”
“Yes, sir,” I teased.
“Ha ha, very funny. How did everything go?”
“It went well. We got to meet the mother and daughter from the photo and they were darling. We also met some other families who were very sweet. Of course, there were some who didn’t welcome us, but I’m hoping that will change.”
He sighed. “There’s always some who don’t welcome us, Al. Don’t let it get you down. Once things start rolling, I’m sure they’ll change their minds.”
“I hope so. We met the little girl of one who opposes us and she was so sweet. I talked to her for a few minutes and asked her what some of her favorite things are. Thinking back, I probably shouldn’t have even talked to her, but I couldn’t help myself.”
I heard him adjust the phone at his ear. “I’m sure it’s fine. It just makes me mad when it’s the kids who suffer the most. Why some parents won’t accept our help when they can’t do it themselves always puzzles me.”
“It’s pride. Their pride gets in their way of what is best for their family.”
Ethan sighed. “Yeah. Well again, all we can do is hope they change their minds and let us help them.”
I agreed with him. We talked for a few more minutes, Ethan catching me up on his weekend. I teased him about his latest date, knowing it wouldn’t last long by the sound of his tone. He was so picky and I often wondered how any woman would break through his walls.
After we hung up, I crawled into bed. Snuggling down into my covers, I rolled onto my side, putting my head on my arm. The last thing I remember thinking about before sleep overtook me was Paul’s kiss.
Monday morning came and I was nervous to go to work. That annoyed me. I shouldn’t be. He kissed me and it was not a big deal.
At least that’s what I kept trying to tell myself.
I hadn’t heard a word from him since he dropped me off Saturday night, not that I expected to. One minute I was telling myself his kiss meant nothing, the next minute I was telling myself that I was an idiot and that it meant everything.
I got to the office early and was relieved to see Paul hadn’t arrived yet. I got myself situated and immediately started looking into expanding Pierce Homes to other cities. At least an hour went by before I heard Paul’s deep voice out in the hall and I froze. Darting my eyes between my desk and the bathroom, I wondered if I had enough time to escape when he quickly walked in.
“Um, good morning, Aly. How was the rest of your weekend?” he asked.
My stomach did somersaults as I sat back against my chair and did my best to remain calm. “Good morning, Paul. It was uneventful. Yours?”
Running a hand through his hair, he looked everywhere but at me. “Same. Actually, can I speak to you in my office, please?”
Without waiting for me to reply, he walked straight in there. My heartbeat raced as I stood up and slowly walked in behind him. I was afraid I knew what he wanted to talk about and it made me nervous.
I closed the door and stood with my arms folded. He was setting his briefcase down on his desk and looked over at me. “You can come in, you know.”
I walked forward a few steps, but didn’t sit down. I didn’t want to get too comfortable. Plus, if I remained standing, it would be easier to run away.
“Aly,” he began, then paused.
“What do you need, Paul?”
“I feel like I need to apologize for what happened.”
Pain seared through my chest and I fought for composure. Of course. I should have known. He didn’t mean to kiss me. As I was contemplating how to give him my two weeks notice, he continued.
“I don’t know what came over me and it will never happen again. You are my assistant and we work well together. I never want to ruin that. Will you forgive me?”
Looking at him, a part of me wanted to smack him while the other part wanted to grab onto him and never let him go.
“Forgive you?” I asked.
To his credit, he looked somewhat embarrassed as he glanced down at the floor. “Well, yes. That was extremely inappropriate of me and I need to know we’re okay.”
Forgetting the part of me that wanted to hug him, all I wanted to do was slap him. “Oh, we’re okay. You don’t need to worry about that. Is there anything else?”
Confused, he just stared at me. “Um, no. That was all.”
Giving him a curt nod, I walked out of the office and sat down on my chair in a huff. I was feeling so mad and upset that it was all I could do not to go back in there and let him have it. How dare he kiss me like that then apologize for it! I had never been more humiliated in my life.
Luckily, he stayed in his office for the rest of the morning. When I saw the clock said noon, I shut off my computer and grabbed my purse. As I set the phone to go straight to voice mail, Ethan strode in.
“Hey, Aly,” he said with a grin. I was so happy to see him that I ran to him and wrapped my arms around his waist. I felt him hesitate before wrapping his arms around me.
“Wow, what’s this about?” he asked me, surprised.
I realized I needed him now more than ever and continued hugging him, saying nothing.
He leaned back and looked into my eyes. “What’s wrong?”
”I’m just having a bad day. I hope you were coming here to take me to lunch,” I said, trying to lighten up.
He grinned. “Of course I was. I missed my girl.”
“Good, you should have. Wait right here while I tell Paul I’m off to lunch.”
I grudgingly walked to Paul’s office and softly knocked on it. Without waiting to be told to come in, I opened it. He was on his phone and I sighed in relief. I whispered to him that I was going to lunch and he just nodded. Shutting the door quietly, I thanked my lucky stars I didn’t have to say anything more to him.
Lunch went by way too fast and soon enough, we were back at work. Ethan at least got my mind off my idiot boss and we had a nice time. Walking back into the office, my heart dropped remembering Paul’s words from this morning.
Ethan came in with me and sat down across from my desk, like usual. He liked to hang around for a few minutes before he had to head back to his own office and today I welcomed it wholeheartedly. I noticed Paul’s door was open, but I couldn’t tell if he was in there because I didn’t want him seeing me look.
“So, I didn’t say anything at lunch, but I need to know what’s going on,” Ethan said.
My head jerked up. “What do you mean?”
“Don’t give me that, Al. Seriously, what’s going on?”
I looked behind me and seeing Paul’s door still open, I raised my index finger to my lips, showing Ethan to be quiet. He nodded his understanding and lowered his voice. “I know something is going on, Aly, but we’ll talk later.”
I sighed in relief. “Thank you.”
Ethan stood up and leaned over my desk, giving me a kiss on my cheek. “I have to get back to work now, but I hope you know I’m always here for you. You can tell me anything.”
Tears sprung to my eyes. “I know. Thank you.”
He rubbed his knuckles along my cheek then stood. I stared after him as he walked out of my office. Grabbing a Kleenex, I wiped my eyes and blew my nose. Determined to shove all non-work related thoughts of Paul aside, I went back to work.
I was so wrapped up in my work that I didn’t hear him approach.
“Aly,” he said sharply.
Turning around in my chair, I looked at him without responding. He was standing in the doorway of his office, his toned arms folded against his chest. He looked beautiful and I cursed him for it. He also looked conflicted.
“What Paul?” I finally ask.
“I need you to come in here and work with me on what we talked about this weekend for a while. The sooner the better,” he responded. Without waiting for my response, he turned on his heel and walked back into his office.
Feeling very annoyed at him, I got up and walked into his office. “Okay, I’m here. What specific project are you referring to?”
He glanced up at me with cold eyes and I took a step back.
“Any of them, Aly. You choose which one you want to focus on and let’s get to work.”
“Wait, what? You didn’t even have a specific one in mind when you asked me to come in here?”
He sighed and sat back in his chair with his hands behind his head. “Nope, I didn’t. Is that a problem?”
Feeling my anger start to boil, I gave him a look. “Well, yeah. If you’re going to ask me to come in here to work, it’d be nice if you knew what we were going to work on,” I said in an icy tone.
“Okay, fine. How about we work on how to focus on our work? Or maybe how to tell our so-called best friend to stop visiting us during working hours. No, wait. How about we work on treating our superiors with respect?”
Standing there completely stunned, I lost the last of my composure. “You have got to be kidding me,” I said as I turned and walked out of his office.
“Aly, get back here!” he yelled.
Without turning around, I yelled back at him. “No! I think I’m done working with you for the day. Let me know when you get some sense back, then we can talk.”
I grabbed my purse and started to storm out of our main doors. Before I could get there, I felt his hand latch onto my wrist as he spun me around. That made me even more furious so I smacked his chest in anger. He grabbed my hands and leaned down to my ear.
“Get back in my office now,” he said, his breath hot against my face.
Hearing people coming down the hall, I didn’t want to cause a scene. Angry that I had to give into him, I broke away from his hold and stormed back into his office. Sitting down, I heard the door close behind him.
Walking over to his desk, he didn’t take his eyes off of me. I squirmed, hating that I was feeling extremely attracted to him at that moment. He just needed to leave me alone.
He perched himself on top of his desk right in front of me. As he leaned back on his arms, I saw the muscles ripple and I shuddered. Maybe working with him wasn’t such a good decision anymore.
A lazy grin appeared on his face. Did he notice my shudder? Please no, I said to myself. I would die.
Showing a calm I truly didn’t possess, I looked up at him and refused to cower. He could not know how he affected me, especially after what he said this morning.
As I stared at him, he leaned forward and put his hands beside me. Because I refused to lean back, our faces were extremely close. When I got a whiff of his cologne, I nearly groaned.
“Aly, what am I going to do with you?” he asked in a low tone.
Surprised, I said the first thing that came to my mind. “I don’t know, Paul. I’m wondering what I’m going to do with you.”
That made him throw his head back and laugh. I felt even more annoyed and scowled at him. He tried to hold back his laughter, but didn’t do a very good job of it.
“I fail to see how this is funny,” I said.
He stood and went to sit behind his desk. I sighed at the space between us. I couldn’t think clearly when he was so close. I needed to work on that.
“You amuse me, that’s all,” he replied.
Not liking that, I crossed my arms against my chest and glared at him. He was really getting on my nerves. Before I could tell him that, his cell phone started ringing.
Cursing under his breath, he picked it up and glanced at the screen to see who was calling. Pressing a button, it immediately stopped. I guessed at who was calling, which made me even more upset. It was good he didn’t answer, but she never failed at letting me know she existed.
“Sorry about that. You know, you’re really cute when you’re mad.”
“Okay, Paul. I’ve had it. You can’t tell me one thing this morning and then say things like that to me this afternoon. You made it quite clear we only work together and that it should stay that way. So I’m putting my foot down and asking you to please do that.”
Whoa, where did that come from? Am I crazy? No, he doesn’t get to play by two sets of rules.
Taken aback, he stared at me. “You’re right.”
Disappointed he didn’t fight me on it, I sighed. I have worked for this man for three years and never once had things been awkward between us, until now. Still confused as to why, I decided to finally to ask him.
“What’s going on, Paul? Things have never been awkward between us the whole time we’ve worked together. Why now?”
I could tell he didn’t like the question. He looked at me with confusion. He opened his mouth to speak, and then closed it. A minute later he finally answered.
“Aly, you’re important to me. You’re a huge part of why Pierce Homes is so successful. We work closely together, day in and day out. I’m sorry things have been awkward between us lately and kissing you didn’t help.”
Feeling the humiliation creep back in, I lowered my gaze to my lap. I didn’t need to hear over and over how he felt kissing me was a mistake. Once was enough.
“Okay, we’ve been over that. You regret kissing me, I get it,” I said, refusing to look at him.
“You think I regret kissing you?” he asked with a surprised tone in his voice.
My head shot up. “Well, yeah. After what you said this morning, what else was I supposed to think?”
Just then, there was a knock on the door. Paul let out a sharp, “Come in.” I turned around to see who it was, not sure whether to throttle them or thank them for the interruption.
Ethan opened the door and stepped inside. Seeing me there, he smiled. “Hey, Aly,” he said before addressing Paul. I looked over at Paul and saw his face harden. I was so confused.
“Sorry to interrupt, Paul, but I need to talk to you about an issue that just came up for the Glendale project. Do you have a minute?”
Nodding, Paul looked over to me. “We’ll continue this as soon as Ethan and I are finished.” Taking that as my cue to leave, I stood and walked over to the door. As I was about to exit, Ethan took a hold of my hand and gave it a squeeze. Smiling at him, I shut the door behind me.
Grateful for the break from the tension with Paul, I headed out to the break room to get a drink of water. I was also worried about the issue Ethan referred to with the Glendale project. We were getting everything finalized to break ground soon and I hoped it was nothing serious.
I got to the break room and leaned back against the sink as I gulped down my water., I started to wonder just what was going on in my life. One minute, I’m crushing on Paul with no drama. The next, he’s acting weird and kissing me, then apologizing for it. The man was driving me crazy and I didn’t know how much longer I could deal with it.
When I got back to my office, Ethan was at the door of Paul’s office. Hearing me come in, he turned and waved at me.
“I’ll go call him back right now, Paul. I appreciate the help. I’ll let you know what he says,” Ethan said as turned to leave.
He stopped at my chair and ruffled my hair. “You doing okay, Aly?” he asked.
Giving him a shadow of a smile, I nodded. “I’m fine. Everything okay with the Glendale project?”
“Yep. Had a little glitch, but Paul and I figured it out. I’m on my way to fix it now. I’ll talk to you later.” I waved to him and watched him disappear from my office. I suddenly really needed him and was about to call him back when I heard Paul’s voice.
“In my office. Now.”