Creed (Unfinished Hero 02)

“I haven’t had a dream in days. Maybe they’re waning,” I suggested.

“He tied you down. He took you repeatedly,” Creed returned. “He violated you in ways you didn’t want. He controlled you. Sylvie, I am no psychologist and you got a heart of gold. You don’t know that girl, you weren’t there, it was nearly two decades ago and she is very dead but I still know you feel for her but this isn’t about her. This is about you. This is about you learning I watched that happen to her and then I learned that pretty much the same thing happened to you for six fuckin’ years. You givin’ me that shit and remembering it happened to you, both are fuckin’ with your head. I do not have the tools to sort that. You have got to find the tools to sort that. People in counseling move all the time. Psychologists know the drill. They start therapy and they transfer you to a new doctor but you gotta start therapy, Sylvie. You gotta work this shit out. For you. For me. For the family we’re making. For Charlene. For Adam. For everybody.”

Fuck it all, I hated it when he was right and it happened a lot.

So I did the only thing I could do.

I snapped my, “Okay.”

“That okay is an okay as in, you call to-fuckin’-day. I’m standin’ over you, Sylvie. Clock strikes nine in the morning, you’re on the goddamned phone finding a therapist you think you can work with.”

“Fine,” I bit out.

“Don’t think I’m joking.”

I didn’t think that. His tone told me he absolutely was not.

“I said fine,” I clipped.

“Jesus, this shit makes me wonder if I should have just let you think I left you.”

My blood turned cold.

“Don’t say that.”

“It’s haunting you.”

“Don’t say that.”

“It’s bringing it all back. You had it under control. Now it’s in your face.”

“Don’t say that!” I shouted, jerked away, breaking free from his arms. Jumping to the side of the bed only to lean forward and point at him. “If you didn’t tell me, I’d never have let you back in.”

“Come back to bed, Sylvie.”

I swung my arm out. “You didn’t tell me, we wouldn’t have this.”

He leaned toward me, his tone cautious, and he ordered gently, “Baby, come back to bed.

I ignored him and carried on, this time my voice hoarse, beginning to grate, sounding like it would break, “You didn’t tell me, I wouldn’t have you.”

“Sylvie, come back to me.”

My voice was abrasive when I declared, “I’ll take nightmares every night for the rest of my fucking life if it comes with waking up to you.”

He reached out a hand, caught mine but I leaned back, putting my weight into tearing free.

I couldn’t because Creed held tight.

“I shouldn’t have said that,” he whispered. “I’m sorry I said that, beautiful. I should never have said that.”

“I watched you in my rearview mirror,” I told him.

He pulled on my hand and his voice was gruff when he pleaded, “Baby, fuckin’ please, come back to bed.”

“I was so happy.”

“Jesus, Sylvie.”

“I sat on that pier for hours the next day. It was so hot, the Snickers bars melted in their wrappers. I got sunburn.”

His hand tugged at mine and his voice was harsh when he said, “Fuck me, Sylvie, please, come back to bed.”

“I looked everywhere. I couldn’t find you.”

“Fuck.”

“Days, I looked and I couldn’t find you.”

“Baby, please.”

My voice broke on my repeated, “I couldn’t find you,” and Creed was done.

I knew this because he yanked on my arm and I went flying to him. Then I was in his arms in bed, tucked mostly under him, one of his hands cupping the back of my head, pressing it into his throat, both arms holding me tight.

“I couldn’t find you,” I whispered into his skin.

“I’m here.”

“You always protected me.”

“Fuck me, fuck me, fuck me,” he murmured into the top of my hair.

“When Daddy gave me to him, I knew you’d come back and take me away. Take care of me.”

“Fuck, Sylvie.”

“You didn’t come back.”

Creed said nothing.

I lay in his arms and it hit me what I was saying and what it must sound like.

“I don’t blame you,” I told him quickly.

Creed said nothing.

“After that, what they did to that girl, I would have done the same thing,” I declared.

Creed said nothing.

“You did what you thought was right. You couldn’t know. We didn’t know Daddy was hooked on blow. Hooked so bad, in so deep, he had to pay Richard off with me.”

Creed said nothing.

“Creed.”

Creed rolled over me and by the time I turned in bed I heard what I suspected was the lamp from my nightstand crash against the wall.

Then I heard his roar, “Fuck me!” and I shot out of bed, pressed myself to his back and circled his middle with my arms.

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