“It’s not?” Jamie retorts, displaying her stellar acting skills by putting real bafflement into her tone. She heads to her room as I go to the kitchen. Lady Meow-Meow appears the minute I pop the pull-top on her kitty food, and she head-butts the back of my leg until I finally put the food dish down in front of her.
I’m in my room stripping off my work clothes when Jamie calls to me. “How’d he get in the apartment?”
“Beats me,” I say, though I can guess. He probably bribed the manager, who’s just wacky enough to have been amused by the thought of a surprise bed delivery.
I change into one of the math T-shirts Jamie maligned earlier—friends don’t let friends derive drunk—and a pair of jeans. It’s the first time I’ve worn jeans since Blaine started the portrait, actually, and I hesitate before zipping them up, feeling a bit naughty. Like I’m breaking a rule.
I’m not, of course. The game’s over. If I want to wear jeans, I can.
And if I want to go pantyless under a skirt? Well, I can do that, too.
I’m grinning as I leave my bedroom, but my mood shifts when I get back to the living room and the giant bed that overwhelms the space. I’d been so happy when I walked in and saw it there, as if I were being bathed in a flood of special memories.
Now that happiness is mixed with a tinge of some unpleasant emotion, though I’m not entirely sure what is troubling me.
I move to the bed and press my palm against the smooth round ball of the footboard. I’m thrilled that the bed wasn’t shipped off to a warehouse somewhere or sold to an antiques store, but at the same time, I’m undeniably melancholy.
“It doesn’t belong here,” I say, when Jamie returns and asks me what’s wrong.
“The bed?”
“It’s supposed to be at the Malibu house. Not here,” I repeat. “It feels like an ending somehow.”
I remember the story Damien told me. About how he sacrificed a deal he was passionate about in order to save the tiny gourmet food producer. I didn’t like the story then, and I like it even less now.
Jamie is silent for a moment as she stares intently at me. “Oh, shit, Nik,” she finally says. “Don’t even.”
“What?”
“Don’t go all Psych 101 on me. You’re looking for all sorts of meanings that aren’t there. You do this all the time.”
“I do not.”
“Well, maybe not all the time, but you did it with Milo.”
“That was freshman year of high school.”
“So maybe ‘all the time’ was a tiny exaggeration,” she concedes. “My point is that you had a crush on him and he was a senior, remember?” I nod, because I remember it well. “And it was cold one day, and he lent you his letter jacket.”
“And we spent a week trying to analyze what his underlying motivation was.” Oh, yes. I remember.
“Turns out he was motivated by the fact that you were cold and he was nice.”
“And your point?”
“Do you like the bed?” she asks.
“I love it,” I admit.
“Does Damien know you love it?”
“Sure.”
“So there you go. You like the bed. Damien likes you—understatement of the year, but there you have it. I’m sure that when you move in, you can take the bed back there with you.”
“When I move in?” The idea is both terrifying and exciting.
“That’s what you want, right? Not that I’m trying to kick you out, but a girl’s gotta face reality.”
Yes, I almost say, but then I close my mouth and start over. “It’s too soon to even think about that.”
“Shit, Nik. You want it. Own it.”
“Fine,” I say. “I want it. But leaping into things that we want isn’t always the best course of action. Sometimes, a little thought and discretion make a lot of sense.”
“This isn’t about me,” she says, totally catching on to the way I’ve shifted the subject.
I sigh. “Maybe it should be. You’re not exactly one to be giving relationship advice.”
“True. But you asked. So which one of us is the idiot here? Besides,” she continues as I stifle a grin, “maybe I’m turning over a new leaf. Monogamy can be fun. I mean, I can’t imagine getting tired of Raine.” Her face turns dreamy. “Actually, after last night I don’t think I can imagine Raine getting tired.”
I laugh, but have to silently admit that I know the feeling.
“So I keep the bed?”
“Hell, yes, you keep the bed. For that matter, keep it in the living room for a day or so. Margarita sleepover tonight after shopping?”
“With movies?”
“Nothing sappy,” she says. “I’m not in the mood to cry. Action. I want to see shit being blown up.”
And right then, that sounds like a pretty damn perfect evening to me.
9
After stuffing our faces at Haru Sushi & Roll Cafe and emptying our wallets at the Beverly Center, Jamie and I settle in with a blender full of tequila, frozen limeade, and just a splash of Cointreau. We already had sake with dinner, and we’re both tipsy enough to sing along with the Christmas-themed rap song at the beginning of Die Hard.
We’re right at the point when Bruce Willis is making fists with his toes in the bathroom when Jamie’s phone rings. She glances at it, then squeals and jumps off the bed before running to her room for privacy.