Pete
Reagan likes the kitten, I can tell. She likes her a lot. She hasn’t stopped cooing to her since we came home. She left her with me long enough to take a shower, and now she’s lying in my bed, her hair damp and hanging over her shoulders, and she’s wrapped around that little no-account kitten. The thing only cost me ten dollars, but I would have paid a lot more than that just to see her smile.
I come out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around my hips and close the door behind me. She looks up from my bed, and her eyelids drop as her eyes roam around my body. My dick gets hard immediately, and I turn away from her long enough to put on a pair of boxers and run the towel back and forth across my closely cropped hair.
“Thank you for the kitten,” she says quietly. Then I hear the bed squeak as she gets up and comes toward me. Her fingertips touch my back. “Do you think one of your brothers might babysit so we can spend some time together?” Her voice is soft and quiet, like her footsteps and the touch of her fingertips. Her voice quivers just like her hands do.
“I can wait,” I blurt out. I’m a p-ssy. I know it. I don’t want her to feel like she has to do anything. And in all honesty, I’m afraid it’ll change something between us. What if I can’t meet her needs? She needs to be loved calmly and carefully. What if I can’t do that? What if I get too caught up in the moment and forget about her needs? What if I do it wrong? What if I make her hate me? What if she loathes the idea of having sex with me again after this?
She scoops up the kitten and puts her in my arms. “I don’t want to wait,” she says. She pulls her shirt over her head, and she’s not wearing a bra. My breath leaves my body. All I can see is her perfect rack and her pert, pink nipples, which are tight and pushing toward me. Ginger struggles when I squeeze her too hard. I look down and force myself to unclench my hands.
Reagan hooks her thumbs in the waistband of her sleep shorts and pulls them down, along with her panties. Oh, dear God.
“Be right back,” I grunt. I turn and slide out the door, stopping to press my back against it once I’m outside, and take deep breaths until my junk realizes it’s not in the room with her anymore.
When I can finally catch my breath, I walk out into the living room and see Paul and Matt sitting there watching a movie. Matt came home about an hour ago, his eyes rimmed in red. He was quiet, but when I went to say something to him, Paul shook his head at me in warning. So, I let it be. I walk over and hit the “pause” button on the TV. They both look up, scowling. But I must look a fright, because they are suddenly concerned. “What’s wrong?” Paul asks.
“Nothing,” I gasp out. I drop onto the sofa and put Ginger in Matt’s lap. He smiles and lets the kitten burrow into his neck. He grins and nuzzles his face into her. I drop my face in my hands.
“She’s not ready, is she?” Paul asks. I f*cking hate it when he does this. It’s like he’s psychic. He knows what we’re thinking before we even say anything and he always has. We couldn’t get away with shit, unless Sam and I worked together to pull off one prank or another. Or get arrested.
“She’s ready,” I gasp out. “But… But… But… But…” I shut up, because I can’t find the right words. I groan and flop back against the couch. “What if I f*ck it all up?” I ask.
“How do you think you’d do that?” Matt asks. The kitten has nuzzled into the collar of his shirt and sits there, soaking up his heat. “It’s not like you’re a f*cking virgin, dummy,” he says.
I don’t even know how to articulate what I’m feeling. Not at all. “I’ve never loved any of those other girls.”
Matt takes a sip of his beer and stares at me. “But you love this one.” It’s not a question. It’s a statement. And it’s a fact.
“Yeah.”
“You need a lesson on the birds and the bees?” Paul asks. “You put tab A into slot B.” He makes a crude gesture with his fingers. “Or tab A into slot C.” He grins. “Or Tab A into slot D. But some girls don’t like that, so don’t start there. You might even save that for a birthday or special occasion. Yours. Not hers.”
I pick up a pillow and throw it at his head. He laughs and catches it.
Finally, he says softly. “Stop psyching yourself out.”
“She’s been through so much,” I say. I look toward the closed door.
“You haven’t had any problems being what she needs, Pete. She doesn’t need much. Just for you to love her. Let her lead this. Let her show you what she wants,” Paul says quietly
She’s naked in my room. I already know what she wants. “Okay,” I say. I look at Matt’s, who’s rubbing noses with the kitten. “Can you cat sit?”
“I’ll keep Ginger Von Stinkybutt with me. No problem,” he says. He’s so quiet, and I know he had a hard day, but I don’t know what to say to him.
I squeeze his knee and walk toward my bedroom. Paul calls my name and jerks a thumb toward the drawer in the kitchen with all the condoms in it. I grin and go get a handful.
“Never could say that boy isn’t prepared,” Matt says playfully. He gives me a thumbs-up and a stupid grin.
I open the bedroom door, but Reagan has turned off the light. There’s a dim glow from the lamp beside my bed, but that’s all. Reagan lies on her belly her arms folded under the pillow. Her tattoo is shiny and a little puffy. I still can’t believe she got a tattoo. Her dad is going to kill me. And her. Her back is naked, and I know she’s in her birthday suit beneath the sheets.
I walk to my side of the bed and lay the condoms on the corner of the bedside table. Then I slide between the sheets and lie on my back, staring up at the ceiling. She doesn’t move, and I think she might be asleep already. But when I roll toward her to pull her into my arms, she comes to me, all soft, naked skin and wonderfully full girl parts. Her naked breasts press against my chest, and her nipples jut against my skin. She nuzzles her face in my shoulder.
“Hey, Pete,” she says.
“Yeah,” I grunt. I can’t put two words together. Not right now.
“If you don’t want me because of what happened, you should tell me now.” She’s quiet, but her words are strong. The problem is that I don’t know what she’s referring to. Is she referring to Maggie? Or to the assault?
The only thing I can do is be honest. “I don’t want to take advantage of you,” I say. “And I kind of feel like I might be.”
She chuckles against my chest. “I’d say that’s actually in reverse. I feel like I’m taking advantage of you.” She kisses my chest. “Let’s just go to sleep.”
I brush her hair back from her forehead and place a kiss there. “Okay,” I breathe. Thank God. Because I’m a chickenshit. A big, fat, old, worthless chickenshit.
She rolls to her back and stares up at the ceiling. I can see her profile in the dark. I grab her hand tightly in mine. I’m kind of sweating, so I don’t pull her back against me.
Her breathing evens out, and I can relax a little. I settle deeper into the pillow. But fifteen minutes later, I’m still lying there staring up into the darkness. Her naked body is less than half an inch from mine.
Her hand moves, and she gently extracts her fingers from mine. I let her because I kind of want her to think I’m asleep.
I hear a tiny exhale from her mouth and cut my eyes toward her without moving my head. She pushes the covers down below her breasts, and I see her fingertips start to play around her chest. She traces circles around her nipples, and then she gently pinches them. I hear her intake of breath, and if I wasn’t hard enough from just having her lying next to me, I am now.
Her hand slides down her belly, and I imagine she’s reaching into her curls. She’s probably all slick and wet and hot and needy. Her knees lift, and she begins to rub herself. Her breath hitches again. I really should tell her I’m not asleep, but I can’t. I don’t want to mess this up for her.
“Oh, Pete,” she breathes.
I can’t take anymore. I just can’t. “Reagan,” I say. My voice sounds like a cannon-shot in the darkness.
She freezes. “Pete,” she says. “I didn’t mean to wake you.” Her hand is still down between her legs. She stops moving it and brings it up to lie on her belly. “How embarrassing,” she whispers. And her voice cracks.
“Reagan, come here,” I say.
She leans up an elbow and says, “Where?”
“If it’s all right with you, I’m going to lie really still and you’re going to come over here with me.”
She hops up onto her knees and lays a hand on my chest. “Like this?” she says.
I take her hand in mine and lift it to my lips. “Reagan, I’m scared,” I admit.
“So am I,” she says.
“I want to be inside you so f*cking bad it hurts,” I admit. I squeeze my eyes shut tightly.
Reagan’s fingertips hook in the waistband of my boxers, and I feel her lift them over my dick. I raise my hips so she can slide them down and off. Now I’m as naked as she is. “Can I?” she asks. “Can I try some things?”
“You can try anything you want,” I say. I lift my arms up so my palms are behind my head. If I touch her, I’m going to have to roll her over and slide inside her. And I know this needs to be done at her pace.
Her fingers wrap around my dick, and she groans. “I’m not sure this can fit inside me,” she warns.
“It’ll fit,” I say.
Reagan reaches across me, and I realize she’s reaching for a condom. I’m not ready for that yet, so I catch her while she’s on top of me with my hands around her waist. I lift her so that her breasts are in my face, and I kiss her left nipple until it’s tight and reaching for my mouth. She whimpers and lets me, and then I move to the other breast. I give it the same lavish attention, and she quivers in my arms.
“Pete,” Reagan cries.
I dip my hand between her legs to see how wet she is. I can’t help it. She’s f*cking soaked. She’s nearly dripping. “God, Reagan,” I say. I trail my finger across her *.
I hear a condom wrapper as she tears it, and then I feel it press against the head of my dick. She wants to put it on me. F*ck yeah! But I grab her hand. “Reagan,” I warn.
“What?” she breathes.
“I’m just a man.”
“What does that mean?” she whispers.
“It means that if you put that on my dick, the next thing that will go on it is you.” She freezes for a moment, and I hear her breaths stutter from her.
But she starts to roll the condom down my shaft and when she gets to the base, I tug it a little lower. She’s being way too gentle with me.
“Come on,” I say quietly. “Come and ride me. Show me how you want it.”
She throws a leg over me and straddles my hips, and all her wet girly parts are touching my hard manly parts. She rocks, riding the ridge of me, until my dick is notched in the cleft where her * hides.
“Reach between us and take me inside,” I say. My voice is so rough, I can barely understand it. But she hears me and she does. She places the head of my dick at her opening, and then she stops. “Everything all right?” I ask. I bite my lower lip to keep from screaming.
She doesn’t respond, but she starts to sink down on me. Her legs and arms are trembling, and I take her hips to help guide her. She’s hot, and she slides onto me like a tight-fitting velvet glove. “Shit,” I say. I wish I didn’t because she stops moving.
“What’s wrong?” she asks.
“Nothing,” I say. “You’re f*cking perfect. Keep going.”
She sinks down some more and says, “You’re in.”
God, yes, I am. “Yep,” I say. I grit my teeth to keep from coming.
“You’re inside me, Pete,” she says.
I feel a wet plop on my chest. “Are you crying?” I ask.
“Maybe,” she says. She’s very still.
“Are you hurting?” I ask. I run my hands up her naked thighs.
“No,” she says. “And I was so worried it would. I just…” She sniffles. “I just don’t want it to be over, Pete,” she says. “I want to stay like this forever.”
I chuckle at that, and my dick moves inside her. “Oh,” she says. She adjusts her body. I’m only about halfway in, but I wanted her to do this her own way. My dick pulses, and I lower her on me and arch my hips to push further into her at the same time. She cries out. “Oh!” she says.
I pull her down to me and kiss her so she’ll be quiet. My brothers are in the living room. “Shh,” I say. I arch my hips and f*ck into her, and her tongue slides in my mouth. “Jesus,” I say when she lifts her head. Her legs are shaking, and she balances herself on my chest.
“Can you?” she asks.
“Can I what?” Can I stay like this forever? Nope. Because I’m going to come and leave her unsatisfied.
“Can you do it?” she asks, her voice hesitant.
I sit up and wrap my arm around her, and then roll her very slowly onto her back. Her legs lift to wrap around my hips. I push inside her, further than before but still not all the way in. “Oh, that’s nice,” she says.
I chuckle and bury my head in her neck. “Is this all right?” I whisper. I push in a little more and then pull back out. When I push back in I sink as far into her as I can go. She’s so tight that I can barely breathe.
“Yeah.” She whimpers when I tilt her bottom up and dig deep, taking everything she’ll give me.
I’m going to come, and she’s not. So I make some room between us, and my hand seeks out her heat, rubbing her *. I take her nipple between my teeth and abrade it gently, and she starts to squirm beneath me. Her hips arch to meet my thrusts, and her cries are little noises by my ear. Her breath blows across my cheek, as moist and humid as her private place where I’m buried and f*cking loving it.
Suddenly, she clutches my shoulders and stiffens beneath me. Her body quakes, and she starts to come. I rub her through it, and it’s so hard not to push her legs back toward her shoulders and power through my own orgasm. But I force myself to keep it slow and soft. She quakes in my arms. And it’s not until she’s loose and languid that I take my own pleasure. I wrap my arms under hers and bury my face against her and thrust once, twice, three times. And then I pour into her as I come. I feel like my balls are trying to come out through my toes, and she just wraps her arms around me and holds me close while I lose myself in her.
I brush her hair back from her face, and her body starts to quake under mine. Is she crying? Oh f*ck. But then she snorts, and I realize she’s laughing. Almost hysterically. Her body shakes and rocks, and her tight depths grip my dick. I pull out of her, because I need to, not because I want to. My dick is so sensitive that I can barely stand the retreat.
She giggles, and I look down at her. Her eyes are dark in the dim light of the room, and they’re shiny. But not from tears. From happiness.
“How did I do?” I ask. I kiss her cheek quickly with little pecks. She giggles again.
“That was a practice test,” she says. “When can we do the final exam?”
I take a deep breath. “Any time you want, princess. I live to serve.”
She laughs again, and I have never, ever heard a more beautiful sound. Ever.