The garage leads into the kitchen via a half flight of stairs. Normally I’m startled by the alarm’s obnoxious beep-beep each time a door or window is opened, but I’m humming a particularly enthusiastic version of “Rubber Ducky” and trying Carly’s phone again, so I don’t hear Paul until he’s a few feet away.
“I would appreciate if you could show enough restraint to not text while holding my daughter. If what you’re doing is so important it cannot wait, then put her down somewhere safe until you can give her proper attention.”
His criticism hits at the same time as Carly’s voice-mail message. I hit the cancel button on my phone and wish I could mute him as well. He holds out his arms and crooks his fingers impatiently until I pass him the baby.
“You’re welcome,” I say, responding to a “thank you” that won’t ever come.
Paul doesn’t disappoint. He ignores me and starts examining Sophia—checking her hands and pulling out the back of her leggings to see if her diaper is clean. “Daddy’s home. It’s all right now.”
I get way too much satisfaction from the fact that in his arms, Sophia wakes and cries.
“Nice job. I just got her to sleep. And I think it’s pretty ballsy for you to accuse me of not keeping her safe or paying enough attention.”
He ignores this too, but I know I’ve hit him in his most vulnerable spot. His face turns a mottled red. It starts at his collar and spreads up to his ears. I remember this from back in the days when he was my physical therapist and one of the employees in his practice would arrive late or when a client would be a no-show. Back then it intimidated me—now, it’s my goal to inspire these angry flushes as often as possible.
Mission accomplished.
I head to my room for a quick shirt change, deodorant reapplication, and to check the contents of my wallet.
A quick text to Carly: Leaving now.
I take the downstairs at a run, earning a fly-by frown from Paul as I dash through the kitchen where he’s now singing and feeding Sophia a bottle.
“Does your mom know where you’ll be and do you need—”
I slam the door, leaving the second half of Paul’s question in the kitchen. Thirty seconds later I’m in my car—driving away from Mom, Paul, Sophia, and their game of Happy Family—sending On my way texts to Carly.
I’m speeding—not pushing it, I can’t afford another ticket—but I’m sixty-two miles per hour in the fifty-fives. At least I am until I hit rush-hour traffic—something I could’ve avoided if I hadn’t let Mom guilt me into waiting. The thirty-minute drive turns into forty-five, and I’m cursing every car on the road, counting down the miles until Carly’s skin is on mine, and I can taste her, taste the first beer of tonight’s party—and feel just a little bit like myself again.
It’s only Friday night to Monday morning that I exist anymore. Only once I’ve crossed the boundaries of Cross Pointe and come home to Hamilton.
8
Brighton
3:28 P.M.
21 HOURS, 32 MINUTES LEFT
I roll the bottle of It’s Raining Luck between my palms and let my eyes drift over the other colors lined up on the neat racks. I tune out the chatter and background noise in the spa and breathe in the dizzying scent of Friday afternoons: aromatherapy oils mixed with nail polish and acetone.
“Really, Brighton, I don’t know why you even stop and look. We both know you’re going to get Pointe-Shoe Pink like every other week.” Mom takes the bottle from my hand and laughs as she replaces it on the wall rack. “Green glitter? Who would wear that? Take off your ring, Mina’s waiting.”
I stick my ring in the front pocket of my purse and take the chair next to my mother’s, across the counter from Mina. She has my polish ready, a pale wash of pink half a shade darker than my bare nails.
“Evy’s flight lands at five thirty. We’ll go pick her up from here,” Mom announces while settling herself into her chair and paying Mina and Pearl so she won’t have to handle money with wet nails. “Your sister is going to be the death of me.”
“Why? What’d she do this time?” Freshman year she’d organized a naked race around campus on the last day of finals.
“She was almost mugged last night,” Mom answers as she dips her fingers into the bowls of warm water and beach stones Pearl has set before her.
“What happened? Is she okay?” I ask shrilly. Mom gives me a don’t-cause-a-scene look.
“She’s fine. Honestly, Brighton, what kind of mother do you think I am? Would I be here if she wasn’t?” She gives me a look of pure exasperation.