I woke up soon after that and never got to sleep again.
By the time the sun rose in the air, blanketing the surroundings in warmth, bare, distant mountains looking remarkably clear against a blazing blue sky, I was already dressed and packed. Violetta woke up in pain, so I left her to visit Javier’s room for more medicine. I knocked on the door and held my breath, hoping he wasn’t going to give me too much trouble over this.
He answered it, the chain across the door, one golden eye peeking through.
“Yes?”
I rolled my eyes at his formality. “Can I come in?”
“Oh, really?”
I stuck my boot in between the door and the frame. “Yes. Now.”
He grunted and closed the door, forcing my boot out of the way. Then I heard the chain slide across and he opened it.
He was only wearing a towel again.
Fuck my luck.
Do you just walk around naked all the time, I wanted to say. But I knew the answer was yes and his ego would blow up at the fact that I’d noticed.
I didn’t let my eyes stray south for a second longer and walked into the room, looking around.
“Where’s the morphine?”
“A little early to be getting high, Ellie,” he said, his fingers toying with the edge of his towel as it snaked across his waist. “Had I known you were into the poppies, I would have done away with all the cocaine.”
I crossed my arms and looked at him dead on. “It’s for your sister and you know it is. She’s in pain and she needs it. Now.”
“You’ve really taken a shining to her, haven’t you?”
“She’s nothing like you, maybe that’s why.”
He nodded and walked slowly, very slowly, across the room to the desk. “She’s weak and foolish, that’s her problem. Though perhaps that’s why you like her. You can relate.”
I breathed in sharply through my nose and willed my heart to calm down. “Just give me the morphine.”
He reached into a crumpled small paper bag and brought out the syringe and a vial. My eyes widened a bit at the sight.
“Got enough there?” I asked him snidely.
He pierced the bottle with the syringe and filled it a quarter of the way up. “I told you that I’d only get the best for her. The rest, well, the rest we might need.”
He walked over to me, each step with purpose, each step closer to shaking loose his towel. He smiled, all white teeth, canines showing and proudly displayed the syringe and the medicine in his hands.
“I’ll give you this if you do me a favor.”
I did not like the sounds of that.
“Javier, there isn’t time to play games.”
“There is always time to play a game, angel. You’ve been playing them from the moment you were born.”
He took a step forward again and I backed up until the back of my knees hit the edge of the bed.
“Even your feelings for Camden are nothing more than a game to you,” he went on. One step closer. “You want him because you can’t have him. You can’t have him because you disgust him. And once you do, if you get to him using those pretty eyes of yours and that tight-as-hell *, you won’t even want him anymore. You’ll toss him aside. Just like you did to me.”
I had enough of this. I quickly reached for the syringe but he yanked it out of the way and grabbed my wrist, his fingers searing into me like hot knives into butter.
He jerked me closer to him until my chest was pressed against his, his erection hard against my thigh. “Now about that favor.” He stared at my lips, his eyes full of lust and madness and victory. “Kiss me.”
Was he seriously this sick, to make me kiss him in exchange for the medicine for his own sister?
“Forget it,” I told him. I’d find another way to get it to her. I turned to walk away but he held me in place and brought his face to mine. A wash of softness came over his brow, his mouth turning down, his lids heavy. “Am I that repulsive to you now?” When I didn’t answer, he whispered, “You know I’m doing all of this for you, my angel. I wouldn’t do this for anyone else, not ever.” He cupped my face with his free hand. “You could still be the queen of everything.”
A queen of everything but still a queen with nothing.
“I have to go check on her,” I said, closing my eyes, wanting to be free of him. I waited tensely, listening to my heart thumping in my ears, the shortness of his breath as he held me there.
Finally he released me and pressed the vial and syringe into my hand. “Take this to her then. Make yourself feel better.”
I turned around without looking at him, the medicine damp from the sweat of his hand, and got out of the room. The morning sun seemed glaring now after being with him.