Beyond a Doubt

chapter Twenty




Lucy could have stayed at Greenbriar forever and been happy. The family atmosphere and the love exhibited reminded her of better days. Although preparing to leave was difficult, it was necessary.

Bryce and Lucy gathered and packed their items. Household servants secured their meager belongings onto the two waiting horses. Lucy used a stirrup to propel herself atop the saddle.

She held her head erect as she bid farewell to the household while waiting for Bryce. When he walked through the door the shock almost shifted her to the ground.

Standing tall, his old trews had been replaced by brown breeches which hugged snugly to his large frame. A rich blue brocade jacket covered his white tunic. Bryce's hair, which normally lay in an unruly mass, was combed and tied with a ribbon at the nape of his neck. His gaze caught hers. He pointed his toe forward and leaned at the waist in a low bow.

“Do I look the part of a proper gent?”

“Aye,” Lucy whispered, struggling to breathe.

Bryce nodded and swung up on Emissary. Waving, the two of them left Greenbriar.

Carlisle was no more than a day’s ride from the English household. Once they reached the city, Bryce would turn her over to another’s care. At the thought of his departure, her heart beat rapidly.

“How was yer rest?” he asked.

The unexpected words startled her, leaving her speechless.

“I mean, how were ye treated at Greenbriar?”

“Exceptionally, sir.”

Lucy saw him raise his brow, seemingly surprised at her term of unfamiliarity. She turned away.

On they rode until Carlisle Castle appeared in the distance. The rock fortress sat upon a small hill. The main keep towered above the walls. The castle sat near the ruins of Hadrian’s Wall and had recently been fortified with artillery by Henry VIII. Lucy knew this place was the site of numerous battles, most of which had sent Bryce’s own people farther north.

Lucy tugged hard on the reins and the horse stopped.

“Is something wrong, lass?”

Lucy shook her head, kicking the horse into motion. Her anger at Bryce threatened to boil over. Didn’t he know anything? Why must she tell him what ailed her? Couldn’t he sense the worry she held for him upon entering the English-occupied city? Or the fear she felt at his coming abandonment? Was he so keen to dispose of her that he felt no regret upon seeing the city looming ahead?

As they neared the gates, a soldier covered in armor stepped forward. Bryce dismounted, leading his horse to the waiting individual. In calm tones, attempting to cover his Scottish burr, Lucy heard Bryce explain the reason for their visit. The man pondered the unusual request. With a glance in Lucy’s direction, he ordered the bars raised, and they gained entrance beyond the castle walls.

What Bryce hoped to gain here, Lucy didn’t know. Lucy had never visited Carlisle and knew no one who lived here. Perhaps she could persuade Bryce that leaving her here was a bad idea. Maybe he would change his mind and take her on to London himself.

Lucy was roused from her thoughts as she heard Bryce talk to her.

“The gatekeeper said a band of English players just came through. They are on their way to London. Ye should be able to ride with them.”

“He said all that?”

“He did.” Bryce frowned.

To hide the fact that she hadn’t been listening, and perhaps dispel some of his worry, she said, “If you think it is best.”

Bryce nodded.

A mass of wagons and horses sat outside a pub. Lucy and Bryce dismounted and entered the dimly lit room. Staggering men bumped and knocked Lucy on all sides, and she moved closer to Bryce for protection.

A boisterous group sat in the back and a waitress hurried to their table, answering their repeated calls for more ale. Skepticism flitted across Bryce’s face but yet he kept moving forward.

Reaching the rowdy group, Bryce said, “I’m lookin’ for the leader of yer troupe.”

The hand of one man rose above the crowd. In a slurred voice he answered, “That would be me.”

Bryce hesitated but a moment before continuing, “I understand yer troupe of players is travlin’ to London.”

“Aye, we are.”

“Would ye have room for a passenger?”

The man stroked a filthy pointed beard and answered, “Highly irregular, but I don’t see why not. But I have to ask, what do I get in return?”

Lucy and Bryce hadn’t discussed what to do in this situation. She should have realized nothing came for free in this world. Stepping forward, she said, “Once in London, you will be rewarded monetarily, I assure you.”

“How much?” asked the man. He grinned, showing a mouth full of rotted teeth.

The figure mentioned caused eyebrows to rise and tongues to wag. One of the actors pulled out a chair and offered it to Lucy but she declined to sit, preferring to stand beside Bryce for as long as she was allowed.

“We are staying here at the inn and departing after an early performance. Will you be traveling along with the young lady?”

“Nay,” said Bryce.

“More’s the pity. I have a part which would have been perfect for you. All brawn, you might say.” The leader took a sip of his drink, staring over the rim of his cup with a fake grin plastered upon his face.

Lucy stepped forward, angered by the implication that Bryce was big and dim-witted. But Bryce stopped her, placing a hand in her way.

“She will meet ye out front in the morning.”

The troupe leader dismissed them with a wave of his hand, going back to his compatriots. Bryce led her away, back to the waiting horses. They rode out of Carlisle Castle to a hill that overlooked the walls and surrounding land.

They dismounted, started a fire, and prepared food with no words spoken between them.

On occasion, Lucy would glance up to find Bryce staring in her direction. With a shift of his eyes he would look away, a flush covering his cheeks.

Amidst the covert glances, they exchanged brief touches. While reaching for a bowl their hands grazed. As they stood up and stretched, their arms touched.

After they arranged their blankets for the night, Bryce pulled her close to him. His arms snaked around her waist; his nose buried in her hair. She felt wetness upon her neck and her own eyes filled.

How could they be parting? How had her feelings grown for Bryce in such a short time? What did it all mean? What would happen if she stayed with Bryce and never made it to London?

Her tears fell heavily. Bryce rubbed her back in a soothing motion as the sobs took control. There was no hope for them; she had to press on.