“I might be jealous,” Gideon murmured, squeezing my breasts, “if I didn’t know Smith was married with children.”
I snorted at yet another tidbit of knowledge he shouldn’t know. “Do you also know his shoe and hat sizes?”
“Not yet.” He laughed at my exasperated growl and I couldn’t hold back a smile at hearing the rare sound.
One day soon we were going to have to talk about his obsession with information gathering, but today wasn’t the day to get into it. We’d been at odds too much lately and Cary’s warning about making sure we had as much fun as not was ever-present in my mind.
Playing with the ring on Gideon’s finger, I told him about the conversation I’d had with my dad on Saturday and how his fellow cops had been ribbing him over the gossip about me dating the Gideon Cross.
He sighed. “I’m sorry.”
Turning, I faced him. “It’s not your fault you’re news. You can’t help being insanely attractive.”
“One of these days,” he said dryly, “I’ll figure out whether my face is a curse or not.”
“Well, if my opinion counts for anything, I’m rather fond of it.”
Gideon’s lips twitched and he touched my cheek. “Your opinion is the only one that means anything. And your dad’s. I want him to like me, Eva, not think I’m exposing his daughter to invasions of her privacy.”
“You’ll win him over. He just wants me to be safe and happy.”
He visibly relaxed and pulled me closer. “Do I make you happy?”
“Yes.” I rested my cheek over his heart. “I love being with you. When we’re not together, I wish we were.”
“You said you didn’t want to fight anymore,” he murmured in my hair. “It’s been bugging me. Are you getting tired of me fucking up all the time?”
“You do not fuck up all the time. And I’ve screwed up, too. Relationships are hard, Gideon. Most of them don’t have kick-ass sex like we do. I put us in the lucky column.”
He cupped water in his hand and poured in down my back, over and over, soothing me with its sinuous warmth. “I don’t really remember my dad.”
“Oh?” I tried to not tense up and reveal my surprise. Or my agitated excitement and desperate hunger to learn more about him. He’d never talked about his family before. It killed me not to prod with questions, but I didn’t want to push if he wasn’t ready….
His chest lifted and fell on a deep exhale. There was something in the sound of his sigh that brought my head up and ruined my intention to be cautious.
I ran my hand over his hard pectorals. “Want to talk about what you do remember?”
“Just…impressions. He wasn’t around much. He worked a lot. I guess I get my drive from him.”
“Maybe workaholism—is that a word?—is something you have in common, but that’s it.”
“How would you know?” he shot back, defiant.
Reaching up, I brushed the hair back from his face. “I’m sorry, Gideon, but your father was a fraud who took the easy, selfish way out. You don’t have it in you to be that way.”
“Not that way, no.” He paused. “But I don’t think he ever learned how to connect to people, how to care about anything but his own immediate needs.”
I studied him. “Do you think that describes you?”
“I don’t know,” he answered quietly.
“Well, I know, and it doesn’t.” I pressed a kiss to the tip of his nose. “You’re a keeper.”
“I better be.” His arms tightened around me. “I can’t think about you with someone else, Eva. Just the idea of another man seeing you the way I do, seeing you like this…putting his hands on you…It takes me to a dark place.”
“It’s not going to happen, Gideon.” I knew how he felt. I wouldn’t be able to bear it if he was intimate with another woman.
“You’ve changed everything for me. I couldn’t stand losing you.”
I hugged him. “The feeling’s mutual.”
Tilting my head back, Gideon took my mouth in a fierce kiss.