Frankie opened her eyes. She felt supremely weird, confused and definitely not at her best. She looked around, saw she was in a hospital bed and she remembered.
She was about to mutter something unladylike when she saw Benny standing at the window looking out. His dark hair was wet and had been slicked back but because it was drying part of the front had fallen onto his forehead and the back had begun to curl around in that sexy way it did. He had on a white t-shirt and jeans, boots, the usual, mostly. He could dress up and look good. It wasn’t better when he dressed up. It was just his usual too… fucking… good.
She knew she was going to hell. She’d been shot and she still was perving on her dead boyfriend’s brother. Granted, he was hot, there was a lot to perv on. Still, she was going to hell.
He turned, looked at her and she saw the worry in his face. When his warm brown eyes caught hers and he saw she was awake, he hid the worry and his face went soft.
Her mouth watered.
Yeah, definitely perv-worthy.
He walked to her bed, yanking a chair with him so it was close and he sat in it and leaned even closer.
“Hey Frankie,” he whispered.
“Hey,” she rasped.
“How you doin’?” he asked.
“How you think I’m doin’?” she asked back and he grinned when she hit him with her attitude.
“Never been shot, babe, but I ‘spect you ain’t doin’ great,” he remarked.
“You’d be right,” she returned.
Benny looked to her belly then back to her eyes. “Bullet didn’t hit anything major,” he informed her.
“Finally, good news.”
He grinned again. “You lost a lot of blood,” he went on but she already knew that. She’d felt it. She didn’t know if it was the right thing for Benny to do when he picked her up and ran through the forest with her in his arms, straight to his SUV but she guessed it wasn’t. Still, there was no stopping him, even when she laid the attitude on him telling him to put her the fuck down and call an ambulance. He didn’t listen. He was on a mission. “They want you in here awhile,” he finished.
“Call the Pope, tell him I’m gonna miss our meeting,” Frankie muttered and she heard his soft chuckle.
Damn, but she liked to make him laugh. She’d sell her soul to make him laugh. Even before, when she was with Vinnie, she liked to make Benny laugh. He had a great laugh, a great smile, a great face. Expressive. But he’d been like a brother then, a good one, a sweet one and she’d loved him. She’d loved Vinnie’s whole family. Hers wasn’t great and she knew great when she felt it. That had been the best gift Vinnie gave her. She sometimes wondered if she loved Vinnie’s family more than Vinnie. Then Vinnie would be Vinnie and she’d quit wondering.
How Benny went from sweet, funny brother to perv-worthy, Frankie didn’t know. She spent seven years trying to figure it out. She’d never thought of him that way instead of in a detached way when she’d hear other girls talking about him. Any woman could see it; Frankie just had Vinnie so she didn’t much think about it. Then she didn’t have Vinnie and she found herself thinking about it.
Definitely going to hell.
“Cops wanna ask you questions,” Benny broke into her thoughts and she focused on him.
“Okay,” she replied and he shifted closer.
“Ma and Pop are here,” he hesitated, “they wanna see you.”
Frankie stared into his eyes for half a second then looked away. “No.”
“Frankie, babe…” Benny whispered.
She got it. She knew Theresa, Vinnie Senior, Manny and even Benny had to blame someone. They loved Vinnie. He was a great guy, a great son, a great brother. They needed to shift the blame for all of Vinnie’s fuck ups to someone. And she loved Vinnie enough to accept it.
But she’d paid enough of Vinnie’s penance. She loved him and you do that kind of thing for someone you love but enough was enough.
She looked back at Benny and whispered, “No.”
He reached out and took her hand in both of his. His were big and warm. Strong. He leaned in even deeper and lifted her hand so he could rest his chin against her fingers and his elbows in the bed.
“Francesca,” he said quietly, “what you did today was crazy stupid.”
“Thanks,” she was quiet too but it was quiet sarcasm not quiet gentleness.
“Babe, listen to me,” Benny ordered, “it was also crazy brave.”
She didn’t reply. She just stared into his dark brown eyes.
“What you did, for family, they’re gonna wanna heal the breach.”
“Too late,” Frankie whispered and Benny’s hands tightened on hers.
“Honey –”
“I got a job in Indianapolis,” she announced.
“What?” he whispered, sounding surprised and maybe a little pissed like he knew everything about her and wasn’t expecting a surprise.
“Finally leavin’ this shit behind.”
“Frankie –”
“Not sayin’ I’m not glad maybe they don’t hate me anymore, you’re here, bein’ nice, maybe you don’t, that’s all good but I’m gone.”
“You’re not movin’ to Indy,” he declared.