“You"ll find it when the time comes.”
The pain in his voice slid a dagger hilt deep into her own heart. “Who?”
She didn"t really expect an answer. Raphael might be her lover, but he was also an archangel.
And archangels had made an art form out of keeping secrets. So when he ran his knuckles down her face and said, “Dmitri,” it took her several seconds to respond.
“He was Made against his will,” she guessed, remembering the conversation she"d once had with Dmitri about children. Had the vampire watched his children grow old? Had he lost a wife he loved?
Raphael didn"t respond this time, nudging her into the bedroom. “You must rest or you won"t be fit for flight by the time of the ball.”
She followed, shaken by the truth he"d forced her to face.
Raphael placed his hands on her shoulders. “Undo the straps.” The heat of his body was a lush stroke against her, invisible, inescapable.
And that quickly, her wings were afire with sensation, with a need that obliterated all else. It took effort to breathe, to speak. “Raphael, are you inside my mind?” She was pulling out and undoing the straps that held the piece of fabric crisscrossed over her breasts even as she spoke.
“No.” Long, strong fingers playing over her collarbones, the dip of her breastbone. “Such soft skin, Guild Hunter.”
Every inch of her seemed to burn with a thirst that couldn"t be quenched. “Then what"s happening to me?”
“You are still becoming.”
He slipped off her top, and she felt the rasp of every fine thread, shuddered against the fleeting brush of his fingertips.
“Do you know what I taste at the curve of your neck?” He pressed his lips over that very spot.
“Fire and earth, spring windstorms cut by a hint of steel.”
She shivered, reaching back to tangle her hand in the heavy silk of his hair. “Is that how you see 50
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me?”
“It"s who you are.” He moved his hand up the slope of her hip, a slow seduction that made her suck in her stomach in anticipation.
But nothing could"ve prepared her for the shock of lightning that was his hand on her breast, his intent explicit. She couldn"t help but watch, her entire being attuned to the merest shift of his.
Then he kissed her neck again and her senses splintered. Clenching the hand she"d thrust into his hair, she spun around, cupping his face between her hands, taking that beautiful, cruel mouth with her own. The kiss was wild, full of the fury of her need, the savage possession of his. One male hand fell to her hip as the other gripped her neck, refusing to let her draw back.
Her breasts were crushed against the linen of his shirt, the texture deliciously—almost painfully—abrasive against her sensitized nipples. She bit his lip in revenge for what he"d done to her. He bit her back, but he held the bite, releasing her flesh with a slow concentration that had her thighs pressing together in a burst of damp heat.
She went to slip her hand underneath his shirt. He caught her wrist. “No, Elena.”
“I"m not that fragile,” she said, frustrated. “Don"t worry.”
His hand tightened on her wrist for a second before he dropped it and took a step back, breaking their connection. Ready to fight him for what she needed, she looked up . . . and froze.
“Raphael.” Azure flames surged in those eyes, deadly as the angelfire he"d thrown at Uram in that final, cataclysmic fight.
“Go to bed,” he said in a tone of voice so calm it was a sheet of ice.
But the fire continued to burn. Feeling her heart spasm at the lethal edge of it, she wrapped her arms around her body, covering her breasts. She didn"t know if she was protecting herself or him. “Will you come back?”
“Are you sure you want me to?” He"d turned and was through the balcony doors before she could answer.
She watched him take off into the infinite darkness of a mountain night, before closing the doors with fingers that had dug dark red crescents into her own skin and crawling into bed. But though she pulled every single one of the blankets over her, it took her a long time to stop shivering.
She"d thought she"d known, had thought she"d understood. But she hadn"t. Ever since she"d woken, she"d been treating Raphael as if he was “safe.” Tonight, she"d had a rude awakening.
Raphael would never be safe. All it would take was one slip and he could kill her.
Was she strong enough to take that risk, that chance?
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“You"ve made me a little mortal.”
He"d said that to her the night she"d shot him, the night he"d bled so much that she"d cried, her hands trembling as she attempted to stop the crimson flow of blood. Had he been afraid then?
Did Raphael even understand fear? She didn"t know, wasn"t sure he"d answer her if she asked.