As for the other abilities…
I tried to read on, except, the rest of the words were written in some sort of code. A rumble of frustration left me and I barely curbed the urge to toss the journal against the wall. I knew nothing about codes and couldn’t believe my mother would have. So, who had written this journal, and how had she gotten it?
Maybe Cole would have an idea, but then again, maybe he wouldn’t. I wasn’t going to ask him.
He and his friends had not yet given me their full trust, and I wasn’t sure what they’d think of my find. Decide it was a fraud? A way to trick them? A way to distract them? Also, I had to wonder if they’d try to take it away from me.
Okay, so I didn’t trust them fully, either.
You’re still gonna say yes if Cole asks you out, right?
Well, yeah. Something I’d learned: truly living required risk.
My phone beeped. Like everyone else in the world, I dropped everything to check, setting the journal down and picking up the cell.
Kat: U enjoy torture, I think. TELL ME NOW!
I’d missed an earlier text, I saw.
Justin: Sounds good. C U then.
I dealt with Kat first. I told her that Cole and I had spent the night together, yes, but we hadn’t done more than talk. Now that was the full truth and nothing but the truth. She was disappointed to say the least. And when I told her that Cole had had car trouble and that Frosty had to come to our rescue, she stopped texting.
I told Justin I was excited to see him, which was also true, but then I had to pray that he wouldn’t take the words the wrong way. My grandparents had me paranoid about leading him on.
Then I had to ponder what Cole and his hell-razing boys and girls would think of my association with Justin. They were such an exclusive group. Outsiders were not welcome, and everyone knew it. Including me! By joining them, I would probably have to shove everyone else from my life. Justin I liked but wouldn’t cry about losing. But what about Kat? Would she eventually fade from my life? She had from Frosty’s.
I really really liked her. She was fun and fresh and exciting. She knew her worth and wasn’t afraid to tell others all about it.
Don’t worry about this now. Tonight I would enjoy myself, as if I was a normal girl, just like any other. After all, I no longer had to question Cole; I already had the answers. I could hang out with Justin and get to know him better. I could see Kat and laugh with her. I would see Cole, too, and…who knew? Tomorrow, everything would change.
I’d deal with the consequences then.
11
Red Roses, White Roses…Black Roses
Justin arrived right on time. In other words, grilling time. To my utter mortification, my grandparents questioned him as if they were cops and he a hardened criminal. All I could do was watch in horror and apologize profusely.
Here’s how it went down:
Pops: Plans for the future?
Justin: Not sure yet.
Pops: Well, why not? You don’t got much longer in school, boy. Now’s the time to figure things out, not later. Didn’t anyone ever tell you that you can’t spell later without the word late?
Justin: I promise you, I’m doing my best to figure things out.
Pops: “Doing my best” is a phrase failures use. Why don’t you buy a man card and finish figuring?
Me: Pops! That’s so rude. Justin, I’m so sorry.
I knew this was for my benefit, for my protection, that my grandparents were concerned about me, and didn’t want me to end up with a guy like my dad, that they wanted Justin to be so intimidated by them that he wouldn’t try anything he shouldn’t, but oh, my goodness, it was too much.
Pops: What? How is a valid question rude? But all right, fine, I’ll move on since baby boy can’t take the heat. How about you finish this sentence for me, Jason? When a girl says no, she means…
Justin, looking desperately at me: No?
Nana: Are you not sure?
Justin, shifting uncomfortably: I’m sure. No means no.
Nana: Well, look at you. You got one right. Now here’s another, even tougher sentence for you to finish. Premarital sex is…
Me: Nana! I’m so sorry, Justin.
Nana: Unlike Pops, I’m not moving on. Justin?
Pops: His name is Jason.
Justin: Uh…uh…
Pops: While you think about that, why don’t you tell me how you feel about drinking and driving?
Justin: I’m totally against it, I swear!
Nana: Methinks he protests too much.
They finally let us leave, and I apologized all over again.
“That was brutal,” he gritted out.
“I know, I’m sorry. They aren’t normally like that, I promise. They just want to make sure I’m safe with you.”
“Don’t worry about it,” he said as he slid into the driver’s side of his truck, but his voice was still as tight as it had been inside the house, and I knew he was going to worry about it for weeks.
I searched the sky as I buckled into the passenger seat. It was dark, a handful of clouds evident. Please be gone. Please don’t be—