I needed this. I was burning for this. The tip of my cock traced cum along her belly and every muscle in my body tightened. God, I wanted to make this one count.
I closed my eyes and moved down, resting my forehead against her stomach. She touched my face and stroked my hair. I focused on the sweet-smelling night … and Hannah, my fiancée. She was soft below me, still and mysterious, not belonging to the city.
When I thought about the life I wanted to give her, and how I might put aside my wishes and make her happy, pride tempered my lust. I fit my hands to the curves of her body. I kissed the milk-white skin of her thighs and the softness between her legs.
Twice I brought her over the edge before I entered her. Then I let her ride me. Her pert, round bottom filled my hands. Her steady pace dragged sighs from me.
Finally, the ache of my need became acute. The tight heat of Hannah’s body turned from sweetness into slow torture, and I moaned into our kiss.
“Do it to me,” I gasped. A plea and a demand.
And she did.
Chapter 5
HANNAH
We pulled up to my parents’ house (for the second time) around nine. Matt killed the ignition and braced his hands on the wheel.
“It’s okay,” I said. “Don’t worry.”
“I hope to hell they didn’t make dinner.” He glanced at the house. The porch light cast a yellow cone over two old wicker chairs. Moths bumbled against the bulb.
“They didn’t, I’m sure. They eat early. Besides, I told Mom not to do anything special. I said we just wanted to stop by and say hello.”
“Maybe we should do this another n—”
“Love, it’s Father’s Day. There is no other night … until next year.”
“How do I look?” He fiddled with a button on his cuff.
“Honestly?” I grinned and thumbed a smudge of dirt off his cheek. “A bit like you just had sex in a field.”
“Oh, for fuck’s sake.”
“Baby, relax. I’m kidding.” I unbuckled my seat belt and leaned over to kiss his cheek, and he hauled me onto his lap. “Mmph!”
“The fucking things I feel when I look at this house. It frightens me, I swear.”
“I don’t understand.”
“Neither do I,” he said, “but I see this house and I want to give you a home, somewhere we can…” He trailed off.
Have a family, I thought. A little night owl. A little, little bird.
As soon as the thought entered my mind, I shoved it out. Violently. I wanted a career, success, love, but not some Martha Stewart vision of happiness. That wasn’t me.
So why was I picturing a small girl with blonde curls and a little green-eyed boy?
“What’s the matter?” Matt scanned my face.
“I—” I swallowed. “I want you to myself. I mean we just … just got engaged.”
“You have me to yourself. You know I’m all yours.”
“But … kids.” My voice cracked.
“Oh, bird.” He chuckled and nuzzled my cheek. “Is that what you’re worried about? We won’t start a family right away. Hell, we haven’t even set a wedding date. There’s no rush.”
“Well, what if I—” Never want kids? The words withered in my throat. I pulled back to look at Matt. He cocked his head, a touch of confusion dimming his smile. God, I couldn’t stand to disappoint him. “Um, what if I can’t … have kids?”
His smile faded completely.
“We’ll cross that bridge when we get to it.”
I traced his lips. “That bridge” indeed. It wasn’t fair to charge into marriage without telling Matt that the thought of pregnancy made me queasy. But we weren’t exactly charging into marriage. We were charging into engagement. Maybe forever. My shoulders drooped.
“There’s always adoption,” I mumbled.
His mouth twisted.
“I don’t want someone else’s kid. Is there something you’re not telling me?”
“No! No. Matt, just … kiss me.” I pressed my mouth to his spontaneously.
His fingers sifted through my hair. He gripped my jaw and tasted me deeply. I felt dizzy when he broke the kiss, oxygen starved and hungry for his mouth.