Clutching her dress together, she took his hand.
He led her up the stairs, his lantern the only refuge from the pitch-blackness beyond, and Penelope could not help but cling to him. She wished that she’d had the courage to release him, to follow under her own control, to resist him in this small thing, but there was something about this walk—something mysterious and dark in a way that had nothing to do with light—that she could not force herself to let him go.
He turned back at the foot of the stairs, his eyes shadowed in the candlelight. “Still afraid of the dark?”
The reference to their childhood unsettled her. “It was a fox hole. Anything could have been down there.”
He started to climb the stairs. “For example?”
“A fox, perhaps?”
“There were no foxes in that hole.”
He had checked it first. That had been the only reason why she’d allowed him to convince her to enter it at all. “Well . . . something else then. A bear, perhaps.”
“Or perhaps you were afraid of the dark.”
“Perhaps. But I am not any longer.”
“No?”
“I was out in the dark tonight, wasn’t I?”
They turned down a long hallway. “So you were.” He released her hand then, and she did not like the way she missed his touch as he turned the handle of a nearby door and pushed it open with a long, ominous creak. He spoke low in her ear. “I will say, Penelope, that while it is unnecessary for you to be afraid of the dark, you are quite correct to be afraid of the things that thrive in it.”
Penelope squinted into the darkness, trying to make out the room beyond, nervousness coiling deep within. She hovered on the threshold, her breath coming fast and shallow. Things that thrived in the dark . . . like him.
He pushed past her slowly, the movement simultaneously a caress and a threat. As he passed, he whispered, “You’re a terrible bluff.” The words were barely a sound, and the feel of his breath on her skin counteracted its insult.
Lanternlight flickered across the walls of the small, unfamiliar room, casting a golden glow across the once-elegant, now hopelessly faded wall coverings in what must have once been a lovely rose. The room was barely large enough to hold them both, a fireplace nearly taking up one wall, across from which two small windows looked out on the copse of trees.
Michael bent to build a fire, and Penelope went to the windows, watching a sliver of moonlight cut across the snowy landscape beyond. “What is this room? I don’t remember it.”
“You very likely never had a chance to see it. It was my mother’s study.”
A memory flashed of the marchioness, tall and beautiful, with a wide, welcoming smile and kind eyes. Of course this room, quiet and serene, had been hers.
“Michael,” Penelope turned to face him, where he crouched low at the fireplace, laying a bed of straw and kindling. “I never had a chance to . . .” She searched for the right words.
He stopped her from finding them. “No need. What happened, happened.”
The coolness in his tone seemed wrong. Off. “Nevertheless . . . I wrote. I don’t know if you ever . . .”
“Possibly.” He remained half-inside the hearth. She heard the flint scrape across the tinderbox. “Many people wrote.”
The words shouldn’t have cut, but they did. She’d been devastated by the news of the deaths of the Marquess and Marchioness of Bourne. Unlike her own parents, who seemed to have little more than a quiet civility between them—Michael’s parents had seemed to care deeply for one another, for their son, for Penelope.
When she’d heard of the carriage accident, she’d been overcome with sadness, for what had been lost, for what might have been.
She’d written him letters, dozens of them over several years before her father had refused to mail any more. After that, she’d continued to write, hoping that he would somehow know that she was thinking of him. That he would always have friends at Falconwell . . . in Surrey . . . no matter how alone he might have felt. She’d imagined that one day, he’d come home.
But he hadn’t returned. Ever.
Eventually, Penelope had stopped expecting him.
“I’m sorry.”
Tinder flashed; straw ignited.
He stood, turning to face her. “You’ll have to do with firelight. Your lantern is in the snow.”
She swallowed back her sadness, nodding. “I will be fine.”
“Don’t leave this room. The house is in disrepair, and I have not married you yet.”
He turned and left the room.
Chapter Five
She woke in the dim light of the fire with an unbearably cold nose and an unbearably warm everything else.