Elliot turns and regards me warily, his gaze untrusting.
“It’s true. His mom used to be this psycho, all-organic, holistic, no-sugar Nazi. So whenever he would come over to my house, I’d let him have whatever he wanted. You should have seen his face the first time he had an oatmeal cream pie. It was like he’d found religion. And then I gave him a soda … which didn’t end well. I can’t go into too many details, but apparently he went home and trashed his room. Wrote all over his walls. Jumped on his bed until it broke.”
“What the actual hell?” Elliot appears to be genuinely concerned.
“I know! Caffeine, man. I told her he must have had an allergic reaction to one of her muffins.” A laugh bubbles up in my throat at the memory of his mom dumping three trays of muffins in the trash while we watched from across the street. “She never made flax seed pomegranate gluten-free baked goods again.”
He rises to his feet and leans over the back of the couch to look me over. Like, truly look me over. The way he was doing with the people on the street. “You’re a little crazy, you know that?”
My heart accelerates at his words, and I force a smile. “That’s probably why I’m majoring in Psychology. I have a theory that people either go into Psychology to find out what’s wrong with someone they love or with themselves. So …” The confession causes my cheeks to burn, and I scramble to change the subject. “What’s yours?”
“Game design. That’s why I’m pissed Kelsey-Chelsea did what she did. I have this opportunity to present a game mock-up to this company after the summer. One of the characters was going to be based on her, and we were going to Ireland to get her family backstory to help flesh out her role.”
I lean on the kitchen counter and purse my lips. “She’s some side part you had written in as the love interest or something? Because God forbid you make her the main heroine in your game. Did she just not have a tragic enough back story?”
The moment the words leave my mouth, Cline’s bedroom door flings open and he steps into the room, staring at me but speaking to Elliot. I feel like it’s the first time he’s looked at me— really looked at me and seen me— in years. And my stomach instantly begins to tighten and sour.
“You need a tragic backstory, Elliot? Look no further. No one has a sadder story than this girl right here. Isn’t that right, Byrdie?”
I’m glued to the spot, struck mute under his words.
Elliot moves closer, but I don’t acknowledge him. “Dude. I thought you were out,” he says.
Cline shakes his head and angles against the counter, facing me just a few inches away. “Forget your ex and her fake stories about having an uncle who was a count in a town that no one’s actually heard of. This is your real story.”
Elliot makes a move like he’s going to say something, but I hold up a hand to stop him. I knew at some point I would have to talk to Cline about everything. I just didn’t think it would be like this. But if he needs an audience to make himself feel better, I can give him the satisfaction.
“He’s right.” I rip my gaze away from Cline’s face and stare directly at the boy I’ve only recently come to know and like a little bit. Maybe I trust him. Maybe I’ve completely lost my mind. Either way …”You want a tragic story for your game? I’m totally your girl. Cline knows all about it. He was there for almost all of it.”
It’s the almost part that Cline never understood. It’s the missing parts he’s not aware of, because I’ve never been able to tell him. How do you explain to the person who has known you the longest that they know absolutely nothing about you at all? That he only knows what everyone else knows, and that it’s absolute bullshit. Just surface.
I hold Elliot’s gaze as I say what Cline wants to hear. What he’s known his entire life to be true. I introduce myself as the girl he knew all those years ago. ”My name is Audrey Byrd. Better known around my hometown as the Coma Baby of 1994. The one who killed her mom at birth.” I extend a shaking hand as my heart begins to hammer mercilessly inside my chest. “It’s nice to meet you.”
They say it takes a village to raise a child. In my case, it took the entire town of Bertram Falls to come to my father's, excuse me, Patrick’s rescue and raise the little girl who was born to a dead mother and a grieving father who had no idea what he was doing. I assume, from what I’ve been told, he was barely keeping it together. As he did not have that motherly bond that most babies are afforded at birth, the transition at home was less than ideal.